rain on me
Wednesday, August 30, 2006 | 12:46 AM

I'm currently struggling with getting enough slp, getting to sch on time as frequent as possible, panicking cos tchr's day's coming and I've nt done a single thing unlike amantha and the rest of the wrld is prolly planning or have alr acted out their plans, getting the mood to mug and my losing connection with Bio. Yea, that's the list.

Anyway, sch is deadset killing me although its a miracle but I find it uncomfortable to stay home instead. While the tchrs are emphasising how close it's approaching and how we shld mug this and that, it has kinda been numb on me. I'm nt rebellious here in this case but it has got to do with alr experiencing this once. Yea so all the more I shld be prepared, and all the more ace it or smth. The word ace depresses me. If you've got as many cells up your brain as your big ass, then ace is smth you picture before recieving certs. Your pbm is prolly how many As. Oh wait now isn't that not my issue?

I kinda screwed Chem spa on monday. I forgot smth. It's just one thing but enough to cost me a whole mth or fears. Ok tt's exaggerated. I hate the sch's cleaners and their 'close-D block classrooms-as-soon-as-possible' practice. W/o fail they'll be there to sweep us off with their broomsticks by 4. So much so I have lost the mood to study in sch and knowing it's the promo/prelim period, there's helluva population in the library with many AA batteries generating noise to harness attention. SNORTS. Even w/ my nano, I'm not left untouched. The result? I'm at home sleeping in the afternoon aft failed attempts of staying awake due to drawing temptations frm the bed and its menacing accomplices, aircon and absolute silence. Absolute silence is absolute rubbish. Every sound made seems to be sucked up by the persistent, non-existing vacuum. yawns. Right, I'm getting some really sound sleep tonight cos looking at the timetable tmr, any sane man wld turn in like NOW.

awe-inspiring. touchdown.

Thursday, August 24, 2006 | 9:09 PM

Shu Yun, in my eyes (sounds damn wrong) you're a really special friend. Someone I can bitch with abt track, sch and ppl frm all walks of life- even somone on the street. HAHAHAS. Don't feel so upset yea? I know tt sentence doesn't help but just don't coop youself up too much. You know, smtimes you tend to appear happy and bouncy only in front of all of us yet have so many things tt you won't relate to us. I hope I havent made you feel 2nd-rated. Smtimes when I do, pls hang on cos I'll turn and walk back to where you are. ((:

p.s. I'm nt gg to do your johari/nohari cos I've done it before. I'll get mine soon. It'll be amusing to see what ppl wanna bitch into my face. I'm sure ppl wld visit the nohari site and forgot the other exists. T.T

p.p.s. That canoeing friend of pak is really joining track. According to pak, he sees him as a talent for the 4by4team- He was the AHS champ. WTH right. Such an insult to speak of others as talent right in my face. I'll thrash tt dude when we have a time trial when trg resumes. Before tt, I'll train with Raj after promos!

Arrogance- I like. (sounds familiar huh?)

| 8:54 PM


This says it all.

Anyway credits to the person who made this. Some vjcian by the name of Yixiang. DAMN. Why can't I be as artistic as this?? I'll learn photoshop aft promos. I know I said this eons back.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 | 12:22 AM

It is not a sensitive issue. We talk abt it yet we're unable to solve it. Has it got to do with some force rising among us stopping us from seeing light of our faults?

We kinda talked abt this issue during the pizzahut meal after sch. Altho we're 6@ ea table we talked abt the same issue. I think it's narrow-minded and shows the lack of benevolence for one to be so caught up in this issue and even more unreceptive to opinions of a worthy cause. I think it's not only time but a desperate need for us to show some compassion and sympathy for a person. If she's so hated by you alone just because she's the top for that subject, then how wld you feel twds another who topped the level? I cannot assure myself I'm in safe grounds. You have to speak to your mind. It's about time.

Sunday, August 20, 2006 | 7:42 PM

PLAY

Trackers/Seasports Carnival '06 (ignore tt pair of legs, its just to show what track has done to me, more or less in a good way larrr)

Ok so it has been a long time since I posted. Had been freaking busy with this dumb thing called Econs test which I have flunked after studying pretty much for it although it was last minute work. But still, I can't believe I mugged that much for a test and I konked out entirely during the essay paper. muthafacka. I'm talkg abt the efforts gone down to drain. The most delicious part was Friday when we had to attend the SL project at some elderly home which I don't know wth it is but due to the silently disapproved proposal which I had alr warned Amantha cos there was no reply, we ended up at the Airport mugging for Econs. Of all times Ivan have to remind me tt I'm such a lousy mugger. He claimed I'm studying way harder than him. EH THANKS ARR. I'm racking my brains to rmbr who was the one who didn't study fr CT and got way higher than many of us. Wow. I sound like some nerd bitching abt results. When was the last time I was so result-oriented? snorts. Anyway I can't wait to for the next econs lesson. In a very Su manner, 'totally!' Hahahas!

Anyway last Friday, I went to Kenny's grandpa's wake with Pillai, james, Des, Stef and ZJ. Later Berlinda and Gloria came also. I regret staying to play mahjong. 1stly, it isn't exactly my favourite game since I suck like shit at it. 2ndly, the co. wasn't really great. DAAAMMN. I think it's this broken communication link frm our diff education background now tt made us drift further apart. We no longer have time to meet up and like Des said, we only met up here cos it was someone's death, isn't it pathetic? Our talk is different. Somehow it was like I'm displaced instead of them not fitting in. I guess many feel the same way when we meet up with the old friends to catch up, be it abt gd times or just over a cup of tea (which we never did). And I'm fucking mad over their decision to buy that jersey w/o me replying to their sms. It's a large sum of money fr smth so ugly. The quality isn't even near comfortable. And my track tee which I'm way more proud of is cheaper larr. And it's wayyyyyy more comfy. (If Fabian and Bryan sees this they must be beaming to themselves yea. hehs.) I can't really do much to change our situation and I have no time/energy left to cope with this uneccessary stress.

And I've not done anything this weekend. Besides sleeping and sleeping.
Reading logs (altho Ms young has stopped chasing us for the moment), GP CA quiz, Bio DNA, Chem tutorial, Math tutorial and of course Mrs Loh's msg for econs which I haven't read. ( I just opened it so tt she can't nag at me for nt reading her msg) And I have yet to defer my ns enlistment which is 3months overdue. THANK LORD for giving me 24 hours per day. I just need a pill so I won't have to sleep for 3 days to complete all these stuff. snorts.
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Saturday, August 12, 2006 | 12:47 AM

NOTE: EDITED FOR VIEWING PLEASURE.

The school happens to refuse me a chance to take H3 Bio. They didn't nominate me.

I shld place a disclaimer like many blogs do. Altho it doesn't quote serve it's purpose just like how you're abt to offend someone but added 'no offence' before you speak, I guess I'll still do so. Let's just say I'm black-listed under tchrs'-favourite-blogs. Sudden fame gives anyone jitters yer know.

p.s. If you don't get this whole edit thing, I'll explain. Is this causing the demand for entries to be inelastic wrt other blacklisted blogs? hahas just kidding.

p.p.s. SY, I really heart econs can! I just don't like taking tests. Wait, isn't that everybody else too? hehs.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006 | 2:21 PM

6x7

I've been tagged by Shuyun and am required to post seven pieces of information regarding each category:

Random facts about me

1. I drank the milk bottle until I was 13 years old
2. I pee in my bed nearly everyday until I was 12.
3. I love sprinting especially when it's anything below than 200m.
4. I was born 1/2 weeks premature.
5. I daydream and imagine myself rocking the stages across the globe very often.
6. I miss singing with a choir.
7. I don't miss singing practices cos they're my greatest nightmare.

Things that scare me (or afraid of)

1. Being alone
2. Absence of communication when language isn't the barrier
3. Pilot stops producing G-tec 0.4 pens cos the only reason I endure writing is b'cos of them.
4. Losing photos tt carry sigificance of all sorts
5. Not being able to sprint/run
6. Abrupt formatting of my computer due to some stupid virus/spyware/torjan horse
7. Heights

Songs at the moment

1. Crashing Cars- Snow Patrol ((:
2. Pieces- Sum 41 ((:
3. The world is black- Good Charlotte
4. Remember the name- Fort minor
5. 4ever- The Veronicas
6. Four around the floor- Starsailor
7. Empty Apartment- Yellow Card

Things I like

1. My nano (altho I wld die fr a video instead)
2. My desktop PC
3. My spikes (yeaa I'm changing it but it still looks nice larr)
4. Girls (they're things right? hahas..)
5. My bolster- I know it sounds gay but its a substitute for ur hands when u're ahem. I'm just kidding larr.
6. Asics shoes/apparel
7. cheese/chocolates/yogurt/cup-corn/pop-corn/pizza/pasta. (food-whore to the max man)

Bad habits

1. LATE
2. All talk some action
3. Overblown ego
4. Sleep-talk
5. snorts intentionally
6. quick temper
7. bathroom singing

Victims

1. you
2. anyone else

Ok I'm breaking this rule thingy. But its so boring to find others to do this. Mst ppl wun bother anyway, no? Ok I'm gg to watch Tokyo Drrrrrrrrifft.

| 3:39 AM

I wanna thank all the ppl who wished me today. I'm 18 and I feel damn old. Prolly due to late night sleeps with all that cramming of movies in a night. My head's bobbing up and dwn like some crazy machine now.

Sch was pretty ok. The biggest pbm was the superb attendance we got. 8 ppl frm s08 anbd Ms Sha wasn't even upset over it. And yea, I was touched when Ms Sha wished me in the morning. I think I'm not used to that level of informality. Whatever you call it. So sch was way boooooring w/o the whole class there. Altho Heron kinda made up fr the whole absence of the cg with all the wacky 05a02ians. I think I'm dependent on the class, so overly-dependent I feel gaps when they're nt ard during sch events. While the other Herons are gg crazy and sweeping the place with their cheering and singing and jumping, poor tzseping, pras and I had to squeeze ourselves into the crowd of strangers so we don't appear socially unaccepted or like a grp of losers. The biggest loser wld stand there alone and refuse to sing. I didn't see any but I'll be sure to kick the ass of tt person if I see one. We go on abt our reluctance to sing the Nat day songs and how dumb it is to celebrate National Day in sch with all tt retarded skit and quizzes but ultimately we're the ones crazily singing/yelling our lungs out during the quiz/sing-along. The school spirit was commendable or rather the hse spirit; or maybe we're just too immersed in our own world we forgot abt the rest. Funny how we voice our opinions yet carry out a different set of actions eh?

Met up with Su and sy aft the whole thing and we went dwn to Aljunied to eat and they shopped fr stuff at Bugis while I so gentleman-ly accompanied them. :p Thanks for the treats today. (: Elvis, jn and Hem cld have made it but they either had pms-ing parents or things cropping up at the wrong time. It shld be expected for its a holiday and parents love to see their kids unhappy in the morning of some semi-holiday. I'm just kidding.

Ate out w/ the family. Then there was the cake and the usual stuff frm a birthday. I still dislike the tradition of singing the birthday song esp when your parents aren't exactly choir members or ex-karaoke addicts. Hahas! I swear I am getting fatter. You can choose to deny the fact but a heap of bones like me can get fatter. I'll join Raj and Vignash (*sp) on Friday at the gym. AND I'll train my non-existent stamina and at least turn myself into a pony if not a horse. Jn, I promise I'll go skin-frying with you and hopefully the whole class after promos k? Meanwhile, my only temporary solution is to get darker while running on the tracks. Trg w/o being pushed by the track and field team is almost insane. I can hardly climb the stairs nowadays and I mean climbing up and dwn the sch's stairs. snorts.

I finally changed template. This is 10x better and the song won't get out of my head. (:
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006 | 10:54 PM

Ok just to add to the list..
  • running shorts. really hot types. (preferably like those tt Fabian's wearing. Ask Shuyun fr help w/ this! Oh wait, shuyun you can get this! maybe buy one fr urself if they hv discount or smth.) tip: adidas no longer manufactures (haaawt) running shorts. =/
  • ipod earphone

hahahas! The list wld never end - given my lust for luxury... :p

Tuesday, August 01, 2006 | 9:49 PM

I think s08's level of enthusiasm is only down there. The effort to bond and compromise doesn't even exist. Right after Bio, everyone just poofed into their own dimension. Like wtf?? What's the rush after the last lesson. I can't even rmbr why I try to get s08 to go fr the marathon.
Bear with this, cos I get over things quickly. As soon as I finish this sentence. hahahas.

Ok, I know you have been waiting for my wish-list yea? It's exactly one week frm now so do your shopping this week. hohoho.

  • Canon IXUS 65. (ppl just forget this ok, it will prolly appear on my christmas wish list in year 2007 anyway! hehs)
  • Asics (orange/lime green)
  • Any poser bag (you know crumpler? Le Coq? any poser bag tt is BIG. pls don't get me zinc I think its retarded. sport brands wld do too)
  • Socks (if you're broke and still decide to be nice then buy me some cos I have mine all wiped out by the holes-at-the-toe illness. not those old sch knee-length socks yea?)
  • Anything else. Keep the cake cos you can use ur gold for those above. HAHAHAS!

And Hem, if you get me socks then you can't use the excuse I gave here cos the day you're broke is the day you turn les. The world agress with me!

And to those who sympathises me cos my day is the day when half the college decides to pon sch altogether, don't worry yea, cos its like this every yr. We're patriotic singaporeans. yeaaaa right.