Thursday, July 20, 2006 | 12:41 AM

I'm running way short of time after nats and reading forum/blogs and writing the list of things tt I have to do. Apparently, the to-do list is so friggin long tt it took me almost an hour to plan my stuff. This is not gay or sissy. I can be disorganised like the typical guy in many ppl's perspectives but I arther not be cos I'll risk my schedule which is always in a mess no matter how hard I try to follow.

In short, I'm really happy for the 4by4 team. I don't go around thinking tt they cld have gotten 3rd or medal or what nots. They have really put in their best and the team effort pulled off well enough. Genever on the other hand is satisfied with her own performance. I inferred this cos she always whine abt getting into finals and full-stop. Honestly, she is one of the better sprinters in fact the best in tp and she cld have soared higher than what she has gotten. I don't know how coaches wld look at her but she has the potential and all the stuff ready to win a girls' 100m but I guess her mentality wasn't to win big. The 4by1 team, my 4 by1 team didn't do too well. I'm being honest and transparent here. It's my personal opinion only so don't take it too hard if any of you trackers read this. I think they were ok. Mentally and physically they were prepared. Fabian questioned abt wtf happened to the timing, the gap b/w him and other runners and abt hw the race didn't seem to be like the one he had in mind during our rest/think-abt-race-session. Definitely smth somewhere had some pbms. We're not sure for now cos I have nt viewed the video. I thought it was Bryan's curve where the lane was so slippery and being in lane 1, hugging the curve caused him to lose balance, but he said he was just afraid of stepping onto some line thing which I cldn't figure out. I thought it was Andrew as he didn't seem to explode as well as he cld. I thought gene conserved his energy UNKNOWINGLY. I drew my OWN possibilities to the disappointment the team has but I never underestimated Fabian and I can't think of anything wrong with his 2nd leg. I'm proud he ran really well and frm the stands I can see him zoom in closing up the gap as of lane 1. I prolly can't say I understand his disappoinment but I am sad too. I wanted to run dwn and hug the team personally cos during the think-your-race-session, me as a reserve thought abt cheering, how the race wld have flowed really smoothly and them winning and I'm the one running dwn hugging them and congratulating them as we all cry in all tt sweat for all our efforts all this while. I didn't get to do this but I promised Fabian I wld lead a better team next yr and we'll clock a better timing, definitely. It's not too early to say this. Raj even told me to train fr 400m so tt I wld be in 4by4 w/ him next yr. I'm really looking fwd to trg again. Although there wld no longer be the fellow trackers tt are so close to me cos they're my batch and we've spent the longest time tgt, it'll make me stronger and be more willing to lead/guide the sprinters. Perhaps I'm nt in any position to teach but a little advice and motivation wld bring out a better us. And lastly, I thank the whole of tpjc track team fr the wonderful time in trgs and thru out Nats2006. ((: