Monday, July 17, 2006 | 9:34 PM

I was late ytd for the volunteer work for the roadshow against family violence @ WS. Somehow I managed to find the Family Service centre beore being brought over to WS to help distribute some flyers to raise awareness of the event gg on tt afternoon. I didn't like the crowd. It was not easy to engage anyone as the whoe world seem to care abt nth else but their race against time. And some cheapos even came up to me to get a few of tt flower-plastic-card thing. I was more than willing to give them to the kids but adults? fuck them. Grow some hair you ass holes. I finished my part at 1.30 cos I was just too lazy to do it till 4pm like Mr Kenny Tan. I don't see a reason we need to capture the attention of the public after the roadshow has started, it'll only serve as an evil, attracting them to the free prizes and so on. The rest of the time was spent at home sulking away at a reason everybody knows.

Was late fr GP. I was really dressing the deep cut/wound I got from Saturday's PTM. So I skipped GP altogether since I was damn late alr. I tried doing thermochem but Hem, Su and Firdaus were ogling at some absolutely non-thrilling photos frm some crappy book and I actually wasted my time like them. I mean how exciting are photos of sg buildings/skyscrapers? hahas. Econs was smooth sailing. I rmbr most of the concepts and I'm glad 2 other tchrs came to our rescue frm being mislead by the guru tt wasted out time during term2. The new term's spe is hockey by mr samad. Used to find him screwed in the head but he's a really nice tchr. Way nicer than you-know-who. At least there weren't any empty promises or words tt didn't mean anything of significance. Chem lab was ok and I'll have to fix tt expt 1 tt I missed due to nats 100m. Took gp test after sch and skipped trg with the 4by1 team (I assume I wld have been put to run and do some baton things if I went) due to my wound which thankfully served as a gd enough excuse not to train. Don't get me wrong. I want to train. If not fr the wound, I wld still train. (i am still upset w/ e team and anyone can tell) Didn't take the creatine cos i fig it wld be a waste fr me to drink cos I won't be running and I'm nt trg. Oh and also its of meat-origin to some extent. k yea, I got to clear up my stuff. My life is screwed so badly now tt silence and solitude are my only companions.

p.s. mr yazid told joel tt there wld be no trg till october after promos where he, ryan and me wld resume our trg. It's quite a surprise tt he is so confident I wld stay in track aft this nats. Sadly, I've learnt my lesson the hard way.

this is an extract of what Fabian said to me before
semis; it just disappoints me:

Fabian: yea let's do
tis
Fabian: i wan tt medal badly
Fabian: or seriously my time oso
wasted
me: oh ya. the pressure's on me alr. =x
Fabian: u oso work hard
Fabian: nxt year team like abit chum
Fabian: dun thk ull get a 2nd shot
in this
me: tt's why I think this is my last chance. omfg larr. better train
hard frm nw on..
me: yup
Fabian: yup
Fabian: but suficient rest b4 race pls
Fabian: if u ache...tt'sit
me: yea.

Sighs.