Friday, April 14, 2006 | 2:16 PM

Oh yeaaa. I am so far behind time. I have not updated for the longest in history of 2006. I know it's just 4 months of 2006 pls shut up. Anyway I'm gg to go really random cos there's so many things I want to talk abt but I'll just go and follow what pops out of my mind as I type away.

Life is super random now. For a moment I have evrything under control yet it's just a forum entry of a few minutes before I realise I have new tasks or challenges. Challenges sound very very out of context for me here. ANYWAY, I shall try to pitch back my memory of the past few days/weeks.

Everything in class' going pretty smoothly until we were told there's a Econs and Math test next week. Oh grrrrreat. I seriously can't mug at home. I'll sleep and play and everything else but study. I think the only time I stick to the books is in school. I should do smth abt this or I'll end up getting just-scraped-through grades. Econs is as bullety as ever. We're far ahead of other schs in the content studies. I think the HOD is a mad mama. YAWNS. Just took a Bio quiz ytd during bio lecture. Damn it. I did study for it but some irrelevant qns came out larr. But there's only 1Qn that I didn't know. phew. Dinie is such a nehneh mugger but that's good. I need to be pushed to deliver some work or I'll never do so even when the cows come home. Chemistry's still ok. All the VSEPR theory and shapes blahblah.. just need to understand. It's not difficult. (: Can I not talk abt Maths. I have not studied for the test and have not even cleared my doubts since eons ago. I'll start REAL soon I promise.
I just printed about 40 pages of Mitosis/meiosis notes. I think this is very crappy. They have so much pictures all over the slides and some were super super repeated repeated. YA! Like wtf? Even after editing here and there and removing all those extra things like acknowlegments, I've still got 145 slides to churn out frm my poor printer. After printing it says:

You still have enough black/colour ink to print over 100 pages similar to
the last page printed.

When I looked at the ink gauge it says 1/4 left. WHAT THE FUCK? I only bought it like a month ago. All the bio notes are really leeching my ink larr.
I got my FUCKING PW grades. I got a knn band 3. I swear I put in fucking lots effort in my op and individual presentation but the sch tchrs aka facilitator or what shit you wanna call them made it so hard for us. They were fucking strict man. They marked the whole sch dwn. damn it. Now our sch has? 48% of band 1 and 2s. In fact only 30ppl got 1s. RJ has 90+% 1/2s. SRJC has 85% and even YJ has 85%. Oh shit what's wrong with the sch? Being so righteous and all with their marking. Ansd Daryl got 1!! He didn't put in much effort and he got 1!! omfg. someone shoot me. We are the worst sch so far after IJC I think. I was so damn disappointed. I was waiting to see a 2 or 1 but I got a 3? I can't believe it. I thought 3 belongs to the ppl who don't do anything to their OP or WR or what EOM shit. I didn't screw up any part of my OP and my evaluation was done up over 3 fucking days. I hate the tchrs in charge man. The sch shld just dig a tunnel so tht we can have the sch inside a giant hole where no one can see us. GRRRRR. I'm still wondering if I shld retake PW. But it is so tiring esp after all that effort I put in. It is so unjustified!

On a lighter note. Damn, it's fucking lighter for a good cause. I found my old friend that was with me last yr during track every trg. Yes, he's my competitve drive and force that pushes me to the finish line even during trg. No matter how new I was to track, I was willing and capable of standing up aft each fall. Until recently it left me all stranded and I almost quit track altogether. I'm so glad we're back as one. Like I said, HELLO OLD FRIEND- WE'LL MAKE A GRAND COMEBACK. That's for sure. By then I'll be able to burn Andrew's arse and penis dwn for 100m and 200m. I mean w/o serious trg I was able to maintain really isn't that bad. Ok, I'm doing self-consolation. I had enough of all those time I wallow in self-pity. It is disgusting. I've got a wake up call frm S(A)AA 100m. And Mr Yazid hasn't given up on me despite all the trg I pon and all the times I whine abt the heavy weights. He metioned abt a strong 4by100m team for the Nationals if I do under 12s. I am very afraid. I don't want to lose to Andrew cos I don't like being the weakest in a relay team. It makes me feel guilty and weak. I hate weakness. It fools me ard and ard pushing me dwn a bottomless pit. But I'll fill up that hole with infinte hole with determination. We'll see yea. We'll see who beats the rest to the finish line soon.

Sports heat wasn't very lucky for me this yr. I only managed to get a bronze so far.
100m- Qualified w/ 5th position behind Fabian, Andrew, Tun Gene and some j1 non-tracker. Hey I'll beat him during finals. In fact I plan to beat Tun Gene for 100m. That is like MY event. RAWR.

200m- Qualified w/ 4th position behind Fabian, Andrew and Tun Gene. Oh yes I believe I can get bronze for finals. I am a mere 0.1s behind Tungene and that run was pretty screwed up anyway.

400m- Qualified w/ 6th position behind many ppl. But I am only concerned with ppl like Khai, Max and Leroy. Cos they're all just 1s ahead of me. I know I did a PR this time but seriously I have not taken 400m timing since last yr due to the fear incurred at trg with the Nationals ppl during july last yr. But when I ran the heats tt day I didn't feel tired. I felt I could have delivered more than that. I shld have exploded right at the start of the 2nd curve. I need to plan my whole 400m again. Maybe get Shuyun to time me during monday spe. I need to work things out in the shortest possible time. I can get bronze if I push myself. YEAAA! (:

110 hurdles- I gave up right before I even tried to hurdle over before the race. How sad is that? I think I fear colliding with the hurdles. T.T

Triple jump- I GOT BRONZE! woohoos! I've never done this in my entire life. I almost lost to Pak during the last jump but I beat him by 0.1cm. :p Altho I feel upset at the same time cos he's a classmate of mine and beating him so merely makes me feel sorry for him. But come to think of it.. he alr has much much more to win for the long D events than me so I shld not feel guilty. I didn't sprint enough before I jumped. Or it could have been further. And my landing is wrong. But I don't care cos the nest time I near the triple jump pit is nxt yr before sports heats again. HAHAS!

I shall do the 800m for fun and 400m hurdles for real. But the 400m hurdles.. I fear I might chicken out again. Oh old friend I need your help this time. Really.