rain on me
Thursday, October 27, 2005 | 9:24 PM

Absence frm the net fr days must hv made ppl think I died. All e times spents at classmates' place ramming (anything in e world but) PS have drove me tired. But I think its the travelling time tt killed me. Esp the one at Xue Yun's hse. I sat as a frozen log holding poorly to my bladder like some bastard.

Huining, you won't beat me in the next race. muahahs.
And Paul. Wait till I challenge you in c.racing, ahhas.
Elyn still lost to me in hand games btw. Those lil' games tt you beat me are erm, insignificant.

yea. Mst of the ppl have gone xbox and PS crazy. Its nt exactly a gd way to destress but tt's e only way fr now I guess.

Crys went mad today at least fr a while. Absolutely no one turned up fr track meeting today including me but I wasn't informed though. Smtimes, I'm contented tt I wasn't given tt extra stress as an exco member. I suck it.

I missed bus 89 today even tho I ran aft it. This is it. I'll train faithfully once trg resumes.

tk have decided to stay. Weimin is still fickle-minded. I thought he's suppose to bang head-on into things but why the hesitation? Derick has amade up his mind and I can only wish him the best yea?

This entry is choppy and incomplete. I'm distracted by PS. What a joke.

And Clement sucks. Whoever tt library bastard is. You can have your beloved library so fuck off. btw, he's the joke of the day and will be so fr the rest of the time he spend in tpj.


Its the last day tmr. Supposedly. With the AO MT paper, OP and endless make-up lessons (are there?).. the hols are left w/ those pathetic shit and we're suppose to enjoy? How ironic. Holiday homework as stated my Ms Leow or was it Ms Varella as oxymoron. My gp sucks. And the 'gp bulletin' isn't gg to help me anyway. Which other sch has such a budget looking.. nvm.

And I think our sch's pomo exercise isn't very releastic. If conduct was of such importance a criteria to promote, many more shld hv been retained. And the over-emphasis on CERTAIN ccas I shall nt name is pretty unfair fr this whole thing.

Somehow its all God's decision yea.

Friday, October 21, 2005 | 11:07 PM

All the best. I will rmbr you ppl. Trust me.

And thank you for the wonderful times tog. The fantastic memories and of course the always crappy/cold jokes. (:

I'll nt break the promise. I'll do all I can.

Thursday, October 20, 2005 | 11:30 PM

The unexpected things in life. The truancy of that miracle tt you need and the long lost faith that one used to have. Its alr decided. now we wait. Await the much desired magic to do its work. Smth called retribution to work its way; connivingly and stealthily, poisoning your destiny and cursing your fate. You with dishonesty and zero integrity will suffer as time plays with your unworthy life. Any wrong move now will create chances of your suffocation as we position ourselves to wring your neck. The tears we may shed will be compensated by your dirty bloof as we slit your throat and slice your tongue. The promos may be over. But our revenge's here to stay. Good luck.

Yes. PW is killing me. It took me an hour to search fr the chem notes I displaced before the promos. Apparently, the room is a dungeon of paper carcass. Messy. Again we hv to miss trg. No thanks to the upcoming OP and the openhse tmr. And yea, we don't need a booth. If you're up to it, you join us. We shall not contend to your interest and entertain you with sweets or some pathetic leaflets. This is aft all just an openhse. Who wld even smell in here when openhses are all over singapore. Esp when we're holding some torn-down-hunt-yourself kind of openhse. That is, wrt last yr's openhse of course.

yea, I'm in a fuckedup mood. I'm too larthagic to touch the alc tut.

And yea, promo ex. will be out tmr. The fate fr nxt year will unfold. It can be very frustrating to wait like this. Impatience and such.

Sunday, October 16, 2005 | 2:31 AM

No way. I can't accept the fact I actually missed vj and sajc's open hse. Darn arses of the hse. nobody woke me up. anyway I forgot to ask the rest if they want to crash so its ok. So what was all the fuss abt? urgh.

Did absolutely nth. Another day gone.

I'm blaming myself again. A draft of mass creations of God. I actually noted tt dwn!? Was it my insolence tt arised frm my ignorance. Was it my freaking attitude. I know I bring down the whole system of trust and belief. I think its all a play of irony. A talk of nth. Emptiness. Is tt me shrouding into darkness, disapperaing frm the world. Losing my sanity?

I whine at myself. Approaching yet the same qn all over again. I know I can't hold such responsibility. If I was to have you, it won;t work out. I'm selfish and yea the ego. It disrupts the rhythm of my life. Ppl work their way to create surprises in their life so each day won't be a replay of ytd. But how many wld wish themselves to suffer different forms of indirect assaults? You made me think of myself. Why the nice attitude. I made myself swear and curse all over you yet a soft spot beneath it all. It has to hurt doesn't it. So what is the troubling smokescreen b/w this truth and the seemingly happy me? You enjoy hw life appears to be contenting to you while I suffocate each time you speak. Are you the wrath or am I existing to be the cursed one? So I can't sacrifice. What's all this reflections bringing me to. I lost my direction and sanity. I lost it all; in just a cheap way.

Saturday, October 15, 2005 | 12:31 AM

Sighs. I'm beginning to believe tt I was a draft amongst God's mass creations.
LATE again. Went to sch aft GP. Was told Ms Leow took photos w/ the class. fuck. I missed my chance to pose w/one of the best looking tchrs in sch. Ok cancel pose. I can't do tt.

Spent a gd long time w/ tk, derick and wm in the lib during math. Yea, I'm very guity fr skipping the most math lessons in a yr than any other student. But I seriously dun understand it and fuck wldn't it be pointless to attend a lecture which I have no clue on. And the fear tt creeps within me concerning the promotions and the hopefully-never-possible departure of 3 good buddies.

Ms Loh briefed us on the promos results. She commented tt she's glad tt at least there's large improvement seen. No chem lesson proper was held. Jus talking and crapping as usual. And Elyn is stupid enough to believe that I don't know what's up her sleeve with that dumb trick of hers. ahhas!

I find cell and nuclear division a total crap. Its gg to be a long time before I understand wth is gg on in bio. And the phenols stuff. omfg. OMFG. I'm in deep shit. And I heard tt under conditional promotion, one will hv to pass ALL the subjects during the fac test. knn. I can't complete the entire math syllabus in 2 months ye. wtf is wrong w/ the sch. ok, I really need the sch to be nice. Give me another A pass. maybe I wun be late in future? muahahas. tt's crap.

Trg today w/ crystal, kes, bertina, weison and qixiang. Ran frm sch all e way to the park near white sands. Its ard 3km according to weison. I was very shacked. aching all over. sighs. I feel so incompetent when I'm w/ the long D ppl. but I'll still need to train fr the fitness. fitness don't jus come like tt yea. unfortuanaetly tho.

Thursday, October 13, 2005 | 8:53 PM

Life's miseries. Things coming and going beyond our control. The truth is out and didn't it hurt. All the papers are out. I manage to pass both AO subjects GP and MT. That's a relief. Both were close to the borderline. Totally devastated by GP essay and MT was way fucking pathetic. The marks hv gone down as compared to CT. I know it really isn't the time fr me to bark at my results when there's other ppl who awaits their hopes to get promoted. Nt tt I'm promotable tho. I just stand higher chances of promoting w/ tt ONE Apass. I know its a fugly E. Heard frm Jieyi they'll moderate Chem. I sure hope they do. The paper wasn't tough. I didn't mug enough. Yea, I ain't fr last min wk. It gets me nowhere and this time its really some miracle doing its work.

I know you 3 dudes are feeling damn dwn now. But just wait till nxt wed. When the final verdict is issued aft all possible moderation. (: wm, you can't just leave like tt. I know this sounds totally gay and all. urgh. but rmbr I need you fr nxt yr's sports day 4by100m. I can't list dwn other reasons but you know we guys don't get mushy w/ another dude. It will seriously sound very wrong, yea? And you haven't attended a single of my track's trg. Ages ago u've been giving the empty claims. What is this? Derick, you have nt taught me dota. I have nt even started. Tk, who am I gg to sms in the morning whenever I'm late. W/o u guys, break and lunch time wld be so boring. Lectures and tutorials wld be so quiet. You get the picture?

I sound so depressed.

Too many trackers did badly fr the promos. I want to move on to j2 w/ the rest. Yea everyone feels the same too. The cruel fate will decide and we'll know nxt week yea. To those who didn't fair too well fr the promos, be patient and wait ye.

So, overall I manage to get 1A3AO. I seriously need them to moderate chem to get the 2A2AO. Altho Ms Loh did say t I'll mst prob be able to make it thru. I'm still worried. Fr myself and the class as a whole. And to the gals of s09, don't get upset. Its nt the end of the world. (:

Wednesday, October 12, 2005 | 10:12 PM

Someone shoot me. I don't want to know if I can get promoted. SIGHS.

But someone didn't and I don't wish to knw until the time comes. I'm nt in the mood.

its too nerve-recking. My brains aren't wking so I don't knw if I got tt right.

I failed Math and gt a disgusting O fr Chem. Just a lil bit to an A pass. wtf. and tt's w/o combinig the CT's marks.

Tmr's crucial. Cos I need to pass all the papers tt are returned tmr. I hv high hopes. But I'm still crossing my fingers. Man, this is nt the david tt won't worry abt results. Whatever happenend to me.

I'm waiting. sighs.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005 | 10:26 PM

Went town today w/ jaja and pillai. yea its like gd ol' times. Muhahas. Ran into Jieying and her s04 peeps. Didn't expect to see anyone today but yea ran into them. Was nice of them to call me so LOUDLY frm tt far. (:
Town was pretty congested w/ students man. Anyway, managed to satisfy my craving on the chocolate cream. I wld hv raped the cashier if she delayed fr even a sec. rofl. jaja and pillai gt the fried mars bar frm Chippy and I leeched on them. Food tasted greater than great today. And its gd to enjoy the chaotic town. No babes today. Maybe I missed sight of them. how can this happen?! wtf. Tmr's the 1st day of result releasal. Can't they satisfy my erm hunger? grins.
So you thought today was fantastic...

Until.
she appeared.
with tt fucking bf.
knn.
its always fyb.


The open wound. searing again. -fyb.

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the wildness we had. look at hf and you'll get what I mean. WAYANG gone wrong. HA! Posted by Picasa

| 11:33 AM


bunch of nocturnals. Posted by Picasa

| 11:31 AM


steamboat wasn't a bad idea at all. look at the grinning (greedy) faces. LOL. Posted by Picasa

| 11:30 AM


food food and more food. yea. I know the gals are super posers. rofl Posted by Picasa

| 11:27 AM


lights. camera. SMILE. ok Audrey's tearing w/ happiness. (: Posted by Picasa

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ahhas. we're all posers. Posted by Picasa

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(: Posted by Picasa

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GLUTTINOUS! Posted by Picasa

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Happy B'day to Audrey. Posted by Picasa

Monday, October 10, 2005 | 5:56 PM

Didn't update ytd. Went out w/ 05s09 ytd. woolalas. Altho Mel's grp didn't turn up. It wasn't tt bad fr the guys. Only Paul and Jon didn't turn up. So its Daryl, Tmo, Weimin, TK, Derick, Kenny, Alvin and me. The gals are Audrey, Candice, hf and Joadine. We did rock Marina, didn't we?

Took fucking hell loads of photos. I ate up the battery, literally. Will upload them aft Kenny and the rest send to me. Managed to get candid shots of hf and Joadine eating like pigs. Tsktsk.. I always believe agls are more greedy than guys. Now this phenomenon is proven. rofl.

Was the last one to arrive ytd at Tampines. Ran into Nicole on the way. Yea, poly isn't all abt freedom. The discipline is way more unforgiving than our college's. Had to direct Tmo to his bloody Bedok interchange. When we arrived at Marina, we had quite a bad experience w/ the fucking uncle who kept insisting tt his seafood outlet is better and they are providing some knn transport. C'mon asshole, we've alr decided where we wanna eat. knnccb. Btw, tk almost lost ctrl and bash him up. fortuanately more ppl were reaching the bus stop so tt jerk found more ppl to do his propaganda work.

Me and Tmo have to eh, 'feast' on the western food while the rest bombed the seafood over the other side. Then we arcade-ed. The drummaina managed to get laid by me. muahahas. yes. I fucked it. And it fucked y money away. You music whore. I'm gg to screw you up the next time. I sound spatic. Weimin and Aud was hogging onto the drumset so I had to resort to KOF w/ daryl. ROFL. Weimin, you're a LOSER!! Hw can u get k by Daryl's single character. omfg. I know who to versus the nx time we hv KOF ard. muahahs. Chill, I'm kidding. You're nt a loser. Its jus tt I'm the winner. ok, if Daryl's nt ard.

Anyway some pro came along andrammed tt whole machine like no big fuck. The tempo is 5 times more than us yea. We're all amateurs. How sad. TK felt giddy aft watching him play. I think its got to do w/ the beats and blasting sound system. Tmo had nth better to do but maple and Warcraft. Can't balme him. His com died on him so cld only chat on MSn at home.. muahahhs.. I still hv my Gunz to entertain me in times of need. (:

We managed to disturb Weimin and Joadine to the max ytd. And I manage to harass hf and Joadine. What a blast. No, I didn't get killed by weimin. Rmbr, I run faster than him? Watch me escape his lustful clutches. rofl. I get envious easily. So I shall nt elaborate on them. hurhur. ahhas. That was partly to save their privacy. Not a bad excuse eh.

Saw Aloy back at PR interchange and had quite a chat w/ him. Remind me of the gd ol' times during orientation and the whole of 1st 3 mths. Things were so much smooth sailing then. Sighs. Aloy was such an arse k. How on earcth did you cope w/ ur promos last yr man. I'm alr prepared to get a fugly F on my math paper. Gd luck fr ur As dude. Yea, and thanks fr e encouragement fr my promos. I know this sounds super gay. rofl.

And FYI. I wanna fuck myself right now. Woke up fucking late and missed the outing w/ Kenny, CH and Gloria. So I had plan B.. but all thanks to the knn flu tt I had to stay at home and fuck myself ifo the com instead of jamming town w/ tmo and Sarah. So much fr partying like there's no tmr. wtf! Tmr's e last day before promos are out. I need smth better than orgasm. Someone bj me. That sounded v wrong.

argh. fuck fuck fuck.
This entire entry has gone somewhat wrong w/ thanks to the flu.

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party times. Posted by Picasa

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the madness we had. Posted by Picasa

Sunday, October 09, 2005 | 1:20 PM

Finally. Finally got to see cj. I feel so arse. Anyway, cj's PAC was nicely carpeted. and the seats are darn nicely cushioned. If we were to hv tt in tpj, slping during lectures won't be a pain anymore. Cj's open hse wasn't as fascinating ye. I didn't get to see the legendary babes there. Derick commented tt they know hw to dress and groom themselves but they're nt erm, hot. But I think their track is cool. Saw the team there. They've gt the top triple jumper and 2nd 800m gal. Pretty cool huh. kesther cld do some learning frm them. ahhas.

Saw Eileen there. Jon went too. Smtimes I wished I was at cj fr the 3mths. Cld have joined in the havoc sensation there. All the parties and such. fyi, I didn't go indochine ytd. I feel like an arse. But I get to save some SOME money. I'll save tt fr later's class outing where we ram the arcade machines. Imagine a grp of 20+ students in an isolated arcade. Pray hard tt none of us damage the machines esp weimin w/ his strong (read violent) arms.

Met up w/ the peeps aft tt. Spent a gd whole aftnoon w/ Leying, YS, CH, Stef, ZJ, Yuqi, Tiffany and Kenny. Yong Ying and Yan Ching can't make it. Awww. Have nt been catching up w/ them since ages ago. The ondeonde thing is really terrible. Heard tt it's made by Stef, ZJ, CH and Kenny. It has to be Kenny who spoiled everything. Its ok, we hv forgiven you Kenny. rofl. Mahjong was really bad. I played less than 4 games. And I lost in all of them. Hey I wasn't focused. Was busy yagityacking. tt means talking. I'll make a comenback nx time k.

Meeting 05S09 at Tampines later. We're gonna rock the night away. Bowling and pool, arcade and food. Muahahas. We shld plan a trip to sentosa to challenge Crystal's class fr the beach and sun. this is gg to be fun. Switch on the party mode ppl. (:

Anyway now tt the exams are over. I finally linked up all e ppl tt I owed. Sry yea. The promos was killing all my time tt I died aft one look at the fucking clock. Loads of thing si hv to do. NO. CLAO is NOT one of em. I'm nt gg to study fr it ye. that can be done overnight so no worries. Anyway, a C6 wld be gd enough eh. I need to regain my speed. I can feel myself expanding. Soon, I'll be sprinting slower than the throwers. And I need to get some stamina so I won't be last fr the SC-marathon on 4th Dec. So much trg to be done. Track tee is nt fully designed and our track board is nt even started yet. Ye, we don't need to publicise track as massively as other ccas. Its the pride and ability tt catches attention of potentials, nt quirky mtds. (: And Gen nis nt in the least hyper or thrilled to start trg asap. Altho she has no objections but she sounded as tho the promos is still on. putz.

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The Swiss rolls Leying got fr us. Damn nice I tell ya. Esp the vanilla ones. DAMN NICE. its such a contrast to those ondeonde. lol. Posted by Picasa

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I'm suppose to be slow at this. but I Posted by Picasa

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Mahjong and tv at the same time. And she managed to win a few matches. Surely thick skinned eh. Tsktsk. We'll all skin this fish someday eh? I'm sure the rest wants to try luohan meat. Posted by Picasa

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Everyone's looking at the other camera. And Yuqi is trying very hard to look normal. Try harder girl. muahahs. Gals can be such posers... tsk. Posted by Picasa

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I know how badly Tiffany don't want to be part of this photo. Just look at how Yuqi eye her food. Its kinda pervertic. Heard of threesome? This is FOODSOME. By Yuqi.. rofl. Posted by Picasa

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CH and his craving fr all of those Mac's sauces. tsktsk. Now we know what to get fr his bday.. Posted by Picasa

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What's up stef? The ondeonde working on you so soon? omfg. Posted by Picasa

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Leying, Yuqi, Tiffany, Stef and ZJ. Posted by Picasa

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Girls gone greedy. How gluttinous. Yuqi, back to ur fish tank! Posted by Picasa

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Kenny showcasing the ondeonde tt was part of his creation. Tsktsk. I wonder how he can enjoy smth inedible. ahhas.. Posted by Picasa

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Ondeonde the terrible. Copyright of CH, ZJ, Stef and Kenny. It tasted weird I swear. Posted by Picasa

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CH and YS. CH, I'll rmbr how u made us sniff like dogs thruout tt poker game.. rofl. Posted by Picasa

Friday, October 07, 2005 | 11:59 PM

Rot at home today. wtf.
when everyone is hyper and all.
was supposed to meet tmo and kit and aft tt sj, enghan and nick. Sadly my lazy arse refused to compromise with the awaiting fun. wth. But its quite a pain to travel to and fro siglap. is tt an acceptable explanation? (read: excuse)

its ok. tmr's a better day yea. Ahhas.. gonna crash CJ open hse w/ weimin, tk and Derick then gathering in e aftnoon till evening. Jon and Aud are gg to indochine. And Aud asked me along. I'm gg to regret if I don't tag along. But its an SAJC organised party, I prob know less than 5 ppl there. yea I know we're suppose to socialise in e name of such clubbing. But the gathering most prob gonna last forever since we don't meet up often yea.

Plus its Jon's b'day. aww man. I'm in e party mode.

Thursday, October 06, 2005 | 8:37 PM

ITS FUCKING OVER.

Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.
Its fucking over.

Yea right. Its fucking over. I'm done w/ the promos. IT IS OVER.

Right aft I ended Bio paper, a feeling developed in me. SO HOT that I cld have sworn its better than orgasm itself. MUAHAHA. Bio paper was ok. I managed to finish the paper.
anyway, who cares abt the paper. spits.

Aft e paper went off w/ Weimin, TK, Derick, Daryl, HuiFung (shit I don't know how u spell her name, why do lian bang ppl hv such weird spellings), Candice and Audrey to Marina Bay. They were all ready to feast at the seafd restaurant. Sadly, it doesn't open in e day. So they 'enjoyed' their meals w/ me. grins.

But it was a hell gr8 time tog yea. (:

We went to the arcade. Banged on the drumset thing like mad ppl. Weimin spent 12bucks there. I had hell load of madness there too but I spent only 5 bucks I think. And Aud, I'm sry to waste ur money but my co-ordination sucks la. Then candice and HF shot in some FPS game. creepy. And HF, u played so lousily. Even Candice beats you. GO BACK TO M'SIA! ok, I'm jj.
But seriously. We were all stuck to the drumset machine. I think the songs esp those jap ones rock big time.

Then we went bowling. The others were pooling. Daryl was running here and there. Pool here bowl there. Pretty cool. but tt explained why mst of the balls went into the drains. And I sucked at bowling too. Then it was back to the arcade. Ahhas. Had a great time man. You don't feel orgasm fr 11 hours and still counting ye? (:

HF drilling the drumset.

Weimin slept on the MRT when we're suppose to get hyper and all.

And Jon, hw cld u pangseh us. Weimin, dun feel so upset ye. If she's urs, she will be. Cheer up. Its aft promos. Time to party.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005 | 12:44 PM

Maths is OVER. (doesn't make a diff)

I only did 3 Qn out of the 13. And I slept fr close to 2 hours of the paper. Ahhas, ppl were discussing the damn paper and I'm glad I didn't waste my time on a paper tt I mst prob cant even smell an AO out of it. Time to mug fr Bio. Its the last paper last hope before I grab the w/drawal form. MUAHAHAS.

Read on the sch forum tt 45% Apass the DAMN physics P2 and 35% AOpass. Tt means 80% passes. Not that bad. I hv this feeling the Bio ppl might produce worse results. cross ur fingers.
(:

Tuesday, October 04, 2005 | 4:42 PM

Jon sent me this link ytd. MUAHAHAS. Hv a gd laugh ppl. btw, its pretty vulgar.

Click here.

| 3:45 PM

IF chemistry is alive. I'll make a meatball out of it and skin it. Slice it. Pound it. Burn it. Bite it. Spit on it. Tear it. STILL TEAR IT. Grrr.

I need a miracle.

Monday, October 03, 2005 | 1:16 PM

The first paper. GP. Pretty ok. Did the Qn on internet misleads and enslaves more people than it has educated and enlightened. The rest are too philosopohical based so I decided nt to even think of them. Tell me how do u ans the Qn: 'small is beautiful.' Do you agree.. blahblah. Seriously it depends. I mean. The dick/boob is not beautiful when it's small. Dun urgh at me. Its a fact.

Muahahas.

Compre wasn't too difficult yea. Passages were totally bullshit abt environment and all. But I agreed w/ Passage 2 for the AQ. C'mon Weimin... its really silly to argue for Passage A. Cos its bullshit-er than B. waaahas.

Happy B'day to Tmo and ZJ. Poor Tmo, hw much better can it be to hv ur b'day on e 1st day of the promos yea?

Let me predict. Lets say I passed both MT and GP. ttmeans 2AOs secured. Hmm.. I'll need to scrape thru Bio and Chem to get the 2As. Which other jc wld be mad enough to make the students promote w/ 2As 2AOs? wtfwtf!?

Tmr's e chem paper. Heard tt it wld be based largely on MS, Orgchem and thermodynamics. omfg. I suck at MS. But ain't really sure if e source is reliable. But what to do when u get desperate..?

3 more days..

Saturday, October 01, 2005 | 10:20 PM

The track passion. (: