Tuesday, May 31, 2005 | 11:59 AM

Time and again.. wasted.

I'm so tired. Have been staying up late. Nt mugging yet. Still slacking. -.- Tt's really bad. Trg on Monday was ok. Was late. GAWD~ Just when I said I've nt been late fr trgs. wtf. Joel was just as late. Me and Gene did e warmup run tog. Stretching. Drills w/ Joel and then 150, 120. Baton passing. YAWNS. Paired up w/ Yaw Vwee, am sry tt I didn't shout 'UP!' loud enough. But he took off pretty late so we ended up crashing into each other. I hope coach won't let this incident affect his decision of choosing the relay team. Sighs. I'm crossing my fingers tightly. Really want to get into the relay team.. ok, I know I'm a newbie in track. Wadeva. -.-

Today was spent slacking. Woke up at 12pm. LOLS. Tried to get new games into e com. But all e games nowadays are full of shit. Nth seems fun. Watched tv and ate like a pig. While eating, I felt guilty, cos all e junk food is gg to make my performance during track go dwn. Bleah~ I should really watch what I eat frm now on. Yes.. more eggs like coach said. XD Oh yea` Mum's back into KK hospital again. Cos she felt pains. Really horrid ones. She's sent in again ytd. They had to give her injections b4 she can slp. Its really tt painful. I'm so sry fr her. And tmr's Mom's b'day. Fancy celebrating it in the hospital. Zzz. I feel unfilial if I dun visit her tmr. Hmm.. but its so far. And she kept insisting tt we dun hv to visit her. Masybe I'll send her an mms. So she wun be bored to death.

Trg tmr. Yawns. Didn't see her online. I feel wrong tt now we dun talk anymore. Was I really tt bad? I'm sry if I am..

Sunday, May 29, 2005 | 11:58 PM

YAWNS

Tired. I went to dl this darn game called Knight online. So dumb I don't know how I got hooked onto MMORPG e last time in sec 2,3 and 4. I'm nt enjoying it now. Weird huh? And it almost killed my CPU usuage. It was like 100%! Gosh.

Mom is back frm hospital. AGAIN the doc frm KK said she's nt in condition to have her op. I guess mom really gotta bear w/ the pain. Sighs. I'm so sry. I was complaining abt her culinary gg dwn cos I really totally forgot tt she's too tired to cook. I feel so bad. But I did apologise. =) I'm so nice now. LOLS. Bro was complaining abt mom restricting his usage of computer. I think its nt very nice of mom to stop him since its like the June hols. And it JUST STARTED. C'mon mom, just let him be. =p

Did my reading logs. The ones tt I owe, nt the ones I hv to do this June hols. LOLS. Then did the 1100 words thingy. Only did till week 4. Mrs Varella... didn't I praise u in my last last last entry..why must we do till the 15th week?! Tt's a lot man. Zzzzzz And we mus prepare some essay article thingy. YAWNS. I didn't bother to look fr any articles even tho my PC is like 24hrs on. XD Wad a boring day.

I'm injured. All thanks to last Friday's trg. Hamstring hurts like shit. I can't even do stretching now. OUCH. And my arms are dying soon. Coach made us do the arm swing thingy. GAWD~ Its so stressful larr. Wth. 30secs of three sets.. Zzzzzzzz If tmr's trg is this bad.. I'll nt turn up on Wed trg. I hope I wun be carried out of the sch tmr due to his trg.. Hahas.. but tt wun happen, cos usually long D are e ones who faint. Sprints are pretty relaxed. We can always choose to jog. At mst kena scolded? Lols. I hope we're doing starting blocks. I wanna do more of tt so tt I'll be prepared fr Wings. Its late.. I better slp. Dun wanna be late tmr. So far I've always been early fr trgs. =) cool~

| 2:07 AM

Congrats, Ms Chan!

Firstly, FOOK the pimple on my chin. Its damn BIG. And ugly. My face's already so horrid looking. Now this pimple planted itself on me.. wth. Spoiled my face further on Ms Chan's wedding. So while taking photos.. I tried my best to hide tt bloody DOT. GeeZ~! Woke up at 10.30am. Slept late last night AGAIN. Was late when meeting them up. AGAIN. I hv loads of bad habits to rid man.. time to reform (as quoted frm Aloy's blog). =)

Couldn't eat much at Ms Chan's hse. As usual. Only drank the dessert thing and e cold drinks. Presented Ms Chan this necklace we bought frm SK. Of all the places we should buy frm there? Sighs. But I hv no say over tt. Cos` I wasn't ard when they decided on all this stuff. But I personally wld prefer it if they buy frm LeeHwa or Poh Heng. At least they are more established than this SK. But nt so bad tt we have to buy frm Brilliance or some unheard of shops. XD

Aft tt went to WS w/ Gloria, YS, CH and Kenny to Cafe smth at the library. Ate the damn small piece of oreo chessecake tt costs a bomb fr its size. Stef and ZJ didn't follow us to the church wedding. We were late but only missed the beginning where they played the Canon in D song. Woohoo~ I love tt song. But I missed it. All thanks to SOMEONE who made us miss e stop to alight. In the end we have to take a taxi there. Its interesting man. Church weddings are so special. I've nv attended one b4 so this one's definitely an eye-opener. =) Saw the prirst. 1st time I see a priests LIVE. Woah. I dun go to churches so its really cool to see one. And the cake was nice too. I took 3. (so thick-skinned) Lols. But I can't resist it.. Was supposed to go fd expo w/ them but was VERY tired. Slept on the MRT and I guess everyone in e cabin is staring at me and how big my mouth was opened. XD Nah~ I hope not. I'll be famous! LOLS.

Reached home. SLACK. Just watched the tv th entire evening. BORING. Dad came back frm hospital aft visiting mom. he said the doc will do report on her and see if she can have her op tmr. OMG. I'm so worried fr mom. I know she ain;t in the right health conditions to have her op yet but Dad said they're professionals at KK. Aft all its a women and children specialist place there. But she's in so much pain tt she has to have the op asap. God.. I need ur assistance. I know I;ve nt been totally filial. But I hope she'll pull through. I don't want to become half an orphan. =X Thanks to all e ppl who wished my mom a speedy recovery. =] I couldn't thank u guys further. I hope she gets well soon too.

Friday, May 27, 2005 | 11:19 PM

Will things ever be the same again

Mom got admitted into hospital again. Her conditions ain't getting better. I'm panicking. The doc did mention tt if her op takes place now, she has 90% chances of dying frm it. I'm nt exaggerating. She has heart disease in her younger days. Sighs~ I can't do much but pray harder fr her. And of cos lighten the family's load by doing more hsewk? I suppose I can. Or rather I must.

Today went sch v late. Slept v late last night. I couldn't slp. I hv no wish to type it here. All I can say is tt I'm disappointed. Slept in library frm morning 8 till 11.30. I think I'm the record holder fr slping tt long in the library. Lols. Only attended one lecture on Bio. Then aft sch went w/ Tmo, Joanne and Nicholas to the prata shop. Then back to sch fr track trg.

Trg was really shiok today. Slacky. Perhaps just the first part. We did starts. And its the proper one. With measurements and start blocks. Cool~ And I learnt tt I've been doing horrid starts cos I used the wrong leg to push off all along. The starting blocks are so cool. And coach said we can cut dwn 0.1-0.2s w/ gd starts. Nt much but quite a lot fr sprints. Then we did the slopes. As usual, I chose nt to do it w/ the sprinters. I mean, its really nt easy to do w/ them since they're all j2s and check out their speeds.. its freaking fast. But I ain't doing well either cos I can't last. And the 8 times we did, I guess only 4 was 100% effort. Zzzzzzzz Feel so guilty. Sighs. I pity him. Its really nt easy to take 2 blows in 2 days. If I were him I wld nt be able to take it so calmly. But lets hope fr the better in the Wings yea? I'm gg to prove them wrong. If I can beat ******* in 100m, it gotta be the Wings. Nt much time left. Its like within 2 weeks and I'll be running like some cheapo. Wth.

Went home bathed and went fr guitar nite. It so rocks. I didn't those gals to play/sing so well fr the song by Maroon 5. I almost teared. ALMOST. But I didn't. Cos its too hard. Too hard to hold back or too hard to tear.. I'm nt sure. The world seems to hv come to an end. I was so envious when I saw... Nvm. Guitar nite was fantastic. I didn't espect it to be tt gr8. But again... haiz~ I'm such a failure. I deserve to be stabbed to death. Zzzzzzzzz

Aft tt went w/ James and haihui to mac fr supper. Talked a lot. Can't believe it. Even tho Haihui just knew each other. They opened up well. LOLS. But I guess we all need some relief aft this stupid term ends. Sighs.

Track camp. Whose idea was it? I don't know what to say. I shld be happy but again... zzzzz.

Thursday, May 26, 2005 | 7:54 PM

Zzzzzz...

I hate myself.

useless

crap

cheapo

ego bastard

think so greatly of myself

but am nth

nth at all

piece of shit

darn freaky

I've wasted my time day-dreaming

stupid

fucking stupid

I can only blame myself

I'm a fool

sighs~

sry kes, to upset you.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005 | 11:26 PM

This is so not right

1stly, I need to apologise to someone. This pal got into quite a mess b'cos of me. Sighs.

I'm suppose to do reading logs. But I ended up watching TV and MSN-ing.. trying to get e trackers to go fr guitar nite. =p Those who know pls zip it up. Or else I promise I'll bash you up. XD

Sighs. Can't go dwn fr trg tmr. All thnks to the class learning jouirney thingy. Hv to go to Bishan CPF board. Some display thingy or nots.. BORING. But nvm. It'll be sort of a class outing.. hahas.. like kids gg dwn to Zoo liddat. XD Sianz~ I want to go fr trg!!! Bleah~ Sighs. SO MISS trg. Even tho I run like snail.

I'm starting to miss choir. All e times we spent eating while singing.. (I think tt's only me =p) and all e sarcasm when e tchr is around. MARIA! Lols. Yea~ miss some parts of the singing too. Nah~ I dun miss singing ALONE in front of the whole choir. I still can rmbr how I stammered and shook like a leaf. All thanks to Mr Goh and Mr Yong. I am so gg to get them back one day. If I ever see them again that is. I wonder where did they con their way to now... hahas.. jus jk. Sighs. How I wish I hv MORE TIME. Then I can join Choir and stay in track too. But its impossible. Even right now.. I haven't done my long overdue reading logssssssssssss. Phew` Ms Varella is gonna kill me tmr.

I feel like the worst person on earth now..

| 5:32 PM

The gals posing again.. XD 

| 5:31 PM

All of us =) 

| 5:21 PM

Leying 

| 5:20 PM

CH and Kenny 

| 5:15 PM

A few wrong things in this pic: Kenny's eyes shld be open. YS shld nt frown. CH shld look up. And my jaws shld not protrude.. WAHAHAS!! 

| 5:12 PM

The gals.. posing as usual. XD jus kidding.. 

| 5:11 PM

Cheng Hsuan and me.. hahas.. and our uneven tone of the arms before we were sunburnt.. I look weird w/o glasses.. 

| 5:10 PM

No, the tree's not falling.. XD  

| 5:09 PM

Wahahas.. so formal fr what!? 

| 5:07 PM

We're behaving like kids.. =p

| 5:03 PM

Our stuff. Fortunately, there's no undergarment sticking out anywhere.. =p 

| 5:02 PM

Now Mel's doing ad for Sentosa.. wahahas.. 

| 4:59 PM

Argh~! wth took this pic!? Its so candid.. 

| 4:58 PM

Melissa's doing an ad fr Loreal.. hahas.. then wad's CH doing there!? 

| 4:56 PM

On the tree.. I swear we saw it FLY up there.. 

| 4:55 PM

Ok.. another one.. 

| 4:54 PM

Peacock roaming ard.. it's understood tt it was a pretty hot day.. XD 

| 4:53 PM

Frm left: Mel, Agnes, Leying and Kaiwen.. hmm.. smth's wrong w/ Leying's hair.. hahas.. 

| 4:51 PM

Melissa, Agnes and Kaiwen on the cable car.. 

| 4:50 PM

That's one babe sitting at e front.. and another posing at her back.. XD 

| 4:47 PM

Its obvious tt we didn't feel like takings pics.. but Kenny Tan refused to give up.. geeZ~!

| 4:46 PM

Bags.. frm e back: me, YS and Cheng Hsuan 

Monday, May 23, 2005 | 7:48 PM

Its been a long time

yO~ when was the last time I blogged? Almost a week.. damn it. Here's the list of last stuff I did.

Last day in of e previous wk.. Friday. DUH!
1st 2 periods was the terrible GP. Fortunately its the 1st 2 periods. I can't stand it when its like in e middle of the day. Did presentation of the essay topic we've chosen. I did censorship w/ Audrey. And I have to present cos she wrote the layout and stuff. Bleah~ I spoke so slowly. And the class looked as tho we kena brainwashed. All of us w/ our hanging heads. Its cool tt we hv Ms Varella (she mus be freaking proud if she reads this) cos she understands how boring GP is. lols. She kept telling us to hang on. And "we're finishing". Ok.. she's nt tt bad aft all. And I learnt we must nt take things fr granted. So I'll not. =) Math 2 periods. Spent on taking e fac test. Damn it. I shouldn't even bother taking. I hv nt been doing Math. NOT AT ALL. And I pon the entire trigo chap's lecture. So there goes June hols.. I'll need some time to learn it all over again. zzzzzzzz Ms Loh had to attend something on prep fr college day so we didn't have Chem. Woohooo~! Cos I didn't do e energy change wksheet. But I didn't do it in e library anyway. Cos I saw ZiXiang and Desmond so we talked NS. (not National Service, its 'NON-STOP') XD Bio lecture. zzzzzzzzz boring. Cos I didn't read up. And whatever Mrs Gay's teaching is no registered in me. Lols. Math.. as usual.. PON. Wahahas..

Last trg.. or rather.. time trials..
Went dwn fr time trials during track trg. WHAT A FREAKING JOKE. Was pretty upset cos I didn't make it into nationals. Can't even go fr relays. But I'm very clear tt my standard is nt there. Even if I'm sent. I'll just drag dwn the whole team. =/ Did the 100m w/ Yaw Vwee and Vui Sin. And boy! Vui Sin is fast fr someone who had nt been trg. 11.8s Sighs. And me? 12.5 leh.. tt's like shit. But it ain't so bad considering e fact tt I'm gaining on Yaw Vwee.. hahas.. so thick skinned. 0.3s apart.. nt tt bad larrr. Since we're both suffering frm muscle pains due to last Wed's trg. Aft 100m, before I knew it.. I hv to go fr 400m already. So I did. And I came in last. So embarrasing. Even Khairul frm seasports thrash me larr.. I sux at 400m. Even if I didn't do tt 100m, I'm sure I'll still be last. =/ Aft time trials. Slacked ard and went fr bbt. Didn't stay ard fr too long tho.

Last haircut
Its short and thin. Mum was exhilirated when she saw it. She damn happy to see my hair so short. -.-''' But short's nt bad larr.. aft all my hair's like a nest when it gets longer. Even if its one cm. XD Pls dun laugh when u see me tmr in sch. LOLS.

Sighs. Anyway, I signed up fr Wings competition. I dun even think I'm the calibre fr tt. I know schs won't send their best sprinters fr this event but even their worst wld beat me flat larr.. but come what may. I'll train fr it. =)
If u want a gd laugh.. check out this webby.. http://tpjc-tnfx.tripod.com/ and when u see me, u're toes will start laughing too. XD

Thursday, May 19, 2005 | 11:21 PM

Survey?! wth..

ytd I gt pranked by PW mates. GeeZ~ went online late only they gotta play such tricks on me! When I was invited into the impt chat log, they told me I gotta go BOON LAY to do some surveying on NTU students. I freaked out instantly. But yea~ they told me its jus some prank. But it took them so loooong to tell me tt. They must be enjoying, watching blur David panic. XD Ytd's trg was terrible. Although its not a lot if u compare in terms of quantity. But the quality is a pretty high gap compared to e previous trgs. Imagine we were to do 4x150m under 18s when my best is like ard 20s. We did 2x250m under 45s. I assume tt only tt is e easy one. The 50m one isn't fun too. I had to do w/ ppl like Joel and Yaw Vwee. My legs died-ed aft trg. And Vui Sin didn't train cos he had NAPFA or smth.. but Shafiq came. omg~ I'm just thankful I'm nt treated like dirt cos I'm e weakest sprinter during tt trg since no other j1s are ard. Shagged aft tt trg.

LATE today. Ms Loh called my parents. wth. But I agree tt I better slp earlier frm now on. I'm always stoning in class. Almost left sch today aft i took the pink form. But aft filling it up, the tot of seeing Mr Reynolds to sign it made me feel well again. Besides, its chem prac aft break and labwork is (so far) nt as boring as tutorials... Lazing ard today. Went w/ Pillai to WS. I killed my craze for yogurt and white chocs today. Woohooo~ =p Mrs Gay let us off today cos she can't stand anymore teaching fr today. She complains she's too tired. Hahas.. we're all tired. But Friday is coming. So lets all pray it comes asap.. hahas.. tt's like minutes away. XD Tmr's time trials.. I'll 101% nt qualify. Plus my legs are still dead frm Wed's trg. Its so freaking tight. -.-''' But nvm, I'll just run to see my timing. Fr fun.

Ain't nobody love u like I love u...

Tuesday, May 17, 2005 | 6:02 PM

Burnt

GeeZ~ I'm sunburnt. Frm e outing on Sunday of cos.
And my skin shld be peeling soon. I feel so dry now.
Sunday's outing was gr8. Water splashing, photo taking and of course pot-lucking. XD
Thanks YS, or else I wld have starved to death. Yea~ he had lots of this bun thingy which taste fantabulous. Didn't go w/ e rest to Changi Airport cos it was pretty late and I had to do this thing called reading log. -.-

Was late again ytd. Went fr SPE str8. It was drizzling really lightly so we 'ran' 3 rounds (when we're suppose to do 4) Bio lesson was boring. It has to be.. cos I can't rmbr what we did there.. lols. Mdm Silva was teaching at snail speed as usual. But I doubt if mst of us understands what she's teaching cos her lecture was just as mono as usual. ZZZZZZZ Had only one period of Bio cos we're allowed to leave sch by 12.10pm as we're having the seasports heats. The heats was terrible. Dragon boating.. we're like one one of the last but what to do.. we only have like 6 guys... -.- And the mini-dragon boating was even worse. Tmo was the front and he fell off thrice before we finally.. CAPSIZED. XD Tt's really pathetic. Cos I don't know how to swim and now the world knows tt. Hahas... I'm hydrophobic. =p Aft tt went w/ Tmo, Joanne, Jamie and another guy they call CHIO BU. Wtf is tt name fr a guy man. Thanks chio bu fr the buns. I was drop dead hungry even after I ate tt pathetic dish of kueh.

Ran 4 rounds fr class PE. I didn't stop at all. (wow) But tt's bcos I jogged real slowly. And so had enough breath to sprint the last 400m. Tt's if u call tt a sprint. Compared to Tun Gene, tt speed is like comparing an ant w/ a cheetah. And the cheetah will mst probably squash the ant flat. XD I'm mad. Skipped Math tutorials cos its still on trigo. Went to library and I had a 'gd' time photocopying 20+ pages of the Chem TB.. -.- (OH SHIT, and I jus found out I lost tt Chem library bk which I borrowed.. I guess I left it back in the library.. how forgetful can I be..) Was slp during Chem tut. Ms Loh didn't scream. Cos there's like 4 ppl slping right under her nose. Guess she can't be bothered. Afterall its a gd weather to slp. Watched this weird skit during MT. I still dunno what's the moral of the story. But its nt bad considering the fact they only rehearsed fr a day. Did listening compre practice which is super boring. Gt 7/10. But I guessed mst of the ans. And the guessed ones are correct. Its those tt I did tt got wrong. wth. Went to collect my Os cert today. PRCS's so quiet. Everyone must be out to play since the mid yrs are over. YAWNS. There's trg tmr. And I badly want to see Vui Sin run and hopefully Elfi too. And I bet if the sun is gg to scorch, u'll soon see my flesh frm all the skin-shed. XD

wth I left tt chem book.. -.-

Sunday, May 15, 2005 | 1:47 AM

I'm gg to Sentosa!! Later I'll meet up w/ kenny, Cheng hsuan, Melissa, Kai Wen, Sin Ee, Yao Sheng, Stefenie, Zhuo Jie and Leying and some others if I'm nt wrong. Yeah~! Another massive outing. =) Missing all u guys out there. Its like sooooooooo looooooooon since I see u ppl and crapped non-stop. And Stef, I'll return ur SLY magazine larr.. stop pestering me k? =p Hahas.. wth am I doin online.. tmr need to meet up by 9.30am at PR MRT. I hope I wun be late again! -.- How many times did I say tt? XD

Saturday, May 14, 2005 | 12:50 PM

Eggs..

Tt day coach spoke to me abt my diet.. cos I'm a vegetarian.. check it out:

coach: take milk if u want proteins
coach: but milk has its side effects which will make u fat when taken too much
me: I'm a vegetarain so I can't take meat
coach: then how abt bean curd?
coach: can u take eggs?
me: yea of cos
me: I try to eat at least one pery day
coach: (eyes wide open) tt's nt enough!
me: how much is enough?
coach: I take 10 eggs per day..
me: (eyes opened wider than his was just now) XD
coach: I'm nt telling u to take 10 eggs
me: why is one nt enough?
coach: one egg's proteins will be gone aft u walk a short distance..
me: oh. I'll try to eat more then (walking away still wondering how he managed 10 eggs) XD

today is a bad day. Woke up late.
Didn't do any hmwk.
Went to Tampines to rid my spoiled phone tt dropped into the sea.
Got a 2nd hand motorola v80.
Tot it looked brand new.
Played w/ it.
Messed w/ it.
Took some nt so clear pics w/ it.
Added phone no.s to it.
Until..
I spoiled it.
It cant sms.
It can't type.
Each attempt causes the system to hang and then restart.
-.-
Tried to reset the hp.
Didn't work..
tried to format it.
IT WORKED!
And there goes my 100plus phonebk entries tt I painstakingly added. -.-

Pretty happy today.
But felt weird.
Why does it have to be fren?
Or rather why do I hv to appear in the middle ut of nowhere..
I seem to be so extra..
sighs..
but still..
who says she'll be ever noticing me.. =/

Friday, May 13, 2005 | 11:51 PM

Friday the 13th

Lost $50 today in e library. This totally sux. Jeremy lost his phone during trg. And I lost my mp3 last time. Seriously think tt the sch has many thefts. Our track has decided tt we'll nv put our bags up at the 'titanic' ever again. Cos all the stuff are always lost there.

Sch was slack. Went fr GP where we were given a video on lslamic views by women of power on the traditions in the middle east of these islamic countries. Fell asleep like during the last part of the show. Their slang is horrible.. Cld hardly understand their speech. Then skipped Math. XD Wahahas.. studied chem. But nt much. Only like 2 pages. XD Then its Chem and then Bio. Bio is so fast. Cldn't catch up w/ Mrs Gay. She thinks we're some expert in bio. I'm stuck like 3 chapters behind and she's speeding her way thru the cell structure. Skipped mth tutorial also. Studied chem again. I'm really lagging in chem. Need to buck up.. My chem has nv sux in sec sch days. Its like so ex last time. But now!! wth.

Then went fr trg at 2.30pm. Was one of e earliest. Did usual stuff then trg begins w/ 1x600m. Was quite badly shagged. Cos 600m kills my butt muscles. And followed by 300m. Its really terrible. I can't stand 300m. Cos we did 3x and it sure felt like my ass is gonna melt or smth. Then did 150x5 but I didn't do all 5. I think I did 4. Finally all trackers did 2x70. Tun gene had false start so I didn't feel like running e 1st one. He's like damn ahead of me w/ that false start lo. Did 2nd one and e timing is like 8.8s? I nt sure also. But heard Joel did 8.7s.. hahas.. well I improved by a little. But I bet fr e full 100m I'll be like laggin more behind.

Finished trg then went bbtea shop. Drank 2 cups. Was freaking thirsty. Talked abt some track stuff.. Abt how come e current captain was chosen last time and who'll be the next captain frm J1s. Heard frm Joanne and Crystal tt e gals might vote fr me. OMG. I'm a lil too new fr track yea~? But fr discipline.. hahas.. I doubt if I can be strict. But I'm pretty sure I can clique w/ almost everyone yea~? But I dun hv the qualities to be captain larr.. -.-

Aft bbtea went home and saw Derick at my void deck waiting fr his AHEM. Wa liao.. I dun hv larr.. dun spite me can!? Lols. I'm just joking. But he gotta wait frm 8pm to 9.30 so he came up to my hse.

I'm surprised I'm not shagged after coach's trg today. During trg yes of cos. but now I feel ok. Weird. But he's sure to pump shit out of us next trg. He says he's going fr quality and nt quantity. That means timing would be cut down... wth. And Monday VuiSin will join us fr trg. Vice-cap is already v fast. Vuisin? -.- Die. Plus soccer A div has completed. yea~ tt means Elfi wld join us anytime. Hahas.. w/ so many experienced ppl ard.. tt's it man... I've really gotta put in even more effort than ever.

cleared up some stuff w/ ppl and its done.. we're still frens k.. =)

Wednesday, May 11, 2005 | 8:59 PM

Yazid's back.. gawd~

Ms Yazid's back. yup~ he's that ex-VJCian tt I referred to last time during the nationals fr the long D in April. Was 'greeted' by him w/ a 2x200m run. ALL OUT some more. what the heck. But he said today we're so late fr trg due to the S-cube talk... tt we can't have full trg today. He only addressed us on things like MARKETING OURSELVES. XD He said he wants our track team to be seen as a team and tt if we do not show togetherness.. others would not look up to us as trackers. And he wants us to create a sense of identity. To think out of the box how we're going to do that. What to do ex-VJCian.. there has to be some ego frm him... and I have no idea. We can't carry anything like tennis rackets cos we're definitely nt gg to make everyone carry a javelin yea!? And the shoe bag thingy isn't much of a fantastic idea anyway since too many other CCAs also carry that.

Btw, he's thinking of identity in terms of times at nationals where other schs will really notice us tt kinda thing. I wonder what is he expecting us to do.. dye hair? Shave bald? Wahahas.. dun think so.. Trg's really slack fr the first time under him. Besides tt welcoming 2x200m.. we didn't get anything worse than hell. He also came up w/ SOCIALISING during warm ups and cool downs.. tt we must talk during the jogging. And settle our differences during tt time. And there'll be a track fund. (I'm already so broke) The fund will be fr refreshments. Yea~ I think tt's a gd idea. =p Punctuality and attendance seems so ever important to him.

And he wants us to run in grps of 3s. So today I ran w/ Keith and Jon. SO SLACK. Altho I came in before them but they weren't pushing at all. Its so like striding. So ended up, I also didn't bother to push. Fabian's grp is way more motivated. He did 25s! wth~ I bet I did far worse than tt. Talk about time trials man.. I don't even think there's a need for that. Its like 101% non of the J1 sprinters will qualify. We're nt trained much at all. Sad case. Aft cool down me and Keith did 400m. Bleah~ I really don't have the fitness.. aft 400m I don't have the energy to do even 80m. Its like no leg drive to spur me on. Sighs~ This is so sad. Mr Yazid will only be officially back as a permanent staff (perhaps as a PE tchr) in mid June. And I'm prepared to get hell frm him man.. Hmmm.. seems like trg will be much tougher than it is frm now onwards...

Tuesday, May 10, 2005 | 11:35 PM

I have my own life

Was on time today. =)
Had civics but Ms Loh's nt here today.
Slacked during Math in library.
Slacked again during Chem cos Ms Loh's nt here.. duh~
Was doing Bio but fell aslp
Fell aslp again during Bio lesson but I figured tt the lesson wasn't impt
Went fr lunch w/ Shirlene, TMO and Paul
Went fr MT.
Heard him nag on and on.
Was supposed to go fr e drama thingy but didn't
Went to kallang w/ Tmo to collect the corpse of my k700i
Met up w/ Shu Jing who dressed as though we're gg to e market XD
Shu Jing and Tmo went to eat but I went to TM
To see if my dead k700 can fetch any price
PATHETIC
Its worth like 10 to 20 bucks.
And my bluetooth headset is like 40 bucks..
Tt's like SAD.
Went home fr dinner.
Did MT hmwk.
YAWNS.
Heard smth frm someone.
SERIOUS?
No wonder it seems pretty weird.
All of a sudden
But who cares
I have my life
I dun give a heck
One thing to be happy: Trg tmr
One thing to be upset: muscles ard my thighs are damn tight
sighs~

Monday, May 09, 2005 | 10:15 PM

I'm nt good enough..

Late again. But wasn't very late. Made it on time fr the 1st lesson. SPE. grreat.. XD Can't rmbr the tchr's name. But we're doing volleyball. And the conclusion is tt I hv no ball sense. Can't ctrl the ball fr longer than 20s. -.- She made us run fr 20mins! Which I don't exactly mind. But I preferred sprinting so asked her if its alright if I sprint 400m then cont w/ 2 rounds jog repititively.It's ok w/ her so me and Jon did that. But was pretty slack larr.. I bet 400m sprints was like way more than a minute.

Had Bio lecture. Was ok w/ it. Except tt I didn't bother to read up on all e cells thingy. What golgi complex.. lysosomes.. blah~ Had chem. Fr once aft so loong.. I understood what is taught during chem. Perhaps cos its smth I learnt in sec sch b4. But I'm satisfied w/ e chem lesson. Cos its really nt tt bad till I can't catch up at all. =) Did Bio practical. On some spring onion kinda thing. It stinks. And e person tt used the petri dish b4 me didn't wash it so there's the sticky feeling frm the sucrose solutions. Yucks. GP lecture was interesting today. Its on Advertisments, cencorship and mass media. I agree that Adverts are just there to arrest man of our intelligence to think. We're always blinded by adverts and guying useless stuff. Hmmm.. yea~ tt includes me.

Aft sch went w/ Joanne, Jamie and TMO to waffle shop then accompany Jo to eat her prata. GeeZ~ we're trackers man... we shld watch our diet.. tt was so fatty larr.. tsktsk. XD Then Shu Jing appeared outta nowhere.. hahas... went back to sch. Headed fr library. Shu Jing was wearing home clothes cos she w/drew frm sch already.. but Jo and Jamie tried to smuggle her into the library. Nt an ethical idea. Its pretty obvious larrr.. jeans and all.. Hahas.. they got chased out by tt woman inside. And Jo said I pang seh her.. wt! I was w/ Ming Faye and Desmond larr! tsktsk.. And I was copying some sprinting prog frm my overdue book. Ming faye and Des said i shld be captain cos I even bothered to write dwn the stuff fr track. XD Pls larrr.. I'm nt fit to be one. And if I'm ever elected then smth must be wrong. Trg was nt usual. UNUSUAL. Ppl like Kenny and Eng Han did jumps. Hairianto did sprints and some didn't bother to really train. Zi Xiang can't do throws so I got hiim to join us fr sprints. Des also trained sprints and some mid D. XD Everyone nt doing their events. Only me. I'm e only one sprinting like some kuku. I'm gald i did my sprint drills and sprints proper today. Perhaps towards the end? yea~ I dun hv the endurance to last long. That's why my 400m sux. Sad~ Hahas.. But anyway.. I'm glad we J1s came fr trg today. The sch was damn quiet w/ only us the only cca trg. I suppose other ccas cant function w/o j2s? =X I dun wanna be bashed when I go to sch tmr. XD Altho some of us wanted to play this lame game called catching.. and I turned tt idea off.. I'm sry yea?

Heard tt soccer drew 2-0 w/ NJ. Feel pretty bad cos I again didn't msg them. I didn't even at least msg the captain gd luck. Sighs~ how blur can I be. =/ Sry guys!

I hate you. I still hate you. GeeZ~ why.. blah...

| 12:51 AM

I hate you...

I don't care anymore...

go away...

fuck off..

-.-

Sunday, May 08, 2005 | 8:55 PM

Grrreat`

Some day this is. Woke up at 9. Didn't do anything except some Bio which seemed pathetic. The attention span is like only 20mins. -.- Recieved call from Audrey on the class's dragon-boating at Kallang but I already decided nt to go last night cos track also have one at 4pm. So I slacked my time away on MSN and changing blogskin. Bleah~ What a waste of time..

Was late fr track's meet up at Tampines w/ ppl like Kenny(Chong) and peeps. So they went off 1st. When I reached Kallang interchange, they weren't there either. Called up Kenny and was told they're already there. So I have to walk there myself when I don't know where the F the place is. Asked some shophse owner and was given very very vague directions. Followed what he said and ended up somewhere near Kallang river. But it took me almost 45mins to locate tt river. And I couldn't see any of the trackers nor their boat. Walked AROUND tt F river wondering where they are. Saw them but they seemed to be having lotsa fun. Fun is an impt element.. but they're nt serious at all. Tt's what I heard... Anyway. None of them bothered to notice tt I'm suppose to turn up. UNTIL. Haihui realised tt he has 21 missed calls frm me. WOW. I can't believe they didn't return to 'shore' to find me so tt I know how to row the bloody boat. WTF. Was very pissed when I left the place. Imagine searching fr this bloody river and when u located it, you watch the rest do boating frm afar and they just refuse to get back to shore nor notice tt u're missing. SO GREAT. The kinda team spirit rocks larr.. wtf. I left in a rush but ran into the whole track team outside the exit. Tried my best to avoid them but they spot me. I ignored them. (you can tell how pissed I am.. I don't usually ignore ppl) But the whole team started shouting my name so I had to turn over and gave a stupid wave RELUCTANTLY. Didn't exactly want to go home w/ any trackers but since its Tun gene and Qi Xiang.. then nvm. But I was still fucked up w/ the rest. Am I that insignificant man... c'mon larr.. I know I'm nt the best sprinter or captain or what.. but surely I exist right!? Sick man.. I've got loads of hmwk piling up... and I wasted my damn time frm 3.30 to 7.30 to and fro Kallang and Pasir Ris. Wad shit is this.

Whatever... I need time to cool dwn. AND COMPLETE MY HMWK. J1 trackers.. there's trg tmr. I dun care if I'm captain or not. I only care fr the team Tt's all. I know I have no authority but its been some time since we ever had trg proper. Anyway, tmr's trg is nt decided by me. Mr Chew didn't say its cancelled so there shld be trg.

Pardon my language. I'm still getting over the fact tt I've spent so much time over nth. Its like trg but I'm walking over such long distances. Its at least 10km mind you.

Saturday, May 07, 2005 | 6:00 PM

THE J1 track team. =) We rawk. 

| 5:58 PM

You seldom get to see the gals let their hair down like tt... esp during trg.. 

| 5:57 PM

The Powerpuff gals. You'll know what I mean when u see them in their TPSS PE shirt during trg.. =)