rain on me
Monday, February 28, 2005 | 11:40 PM

End it. END my searing pain...

I want to end my life la... wth is this kinda Os grades. Everyone I know is getting grades so much better than me. Think its jus so bloody foolish of me to slack aft Prelims. Ok.. I admit I'm jus over-confident. Kept thinking I'll be one of the ppl called up fr the 4/5As but instead I got 2 freaking As only. WTH... Its really pressurising.. I don't know how to face CT and 05s09 tmr.. ZI hope they wun press me fr my marks... All of em get ard 9 to 15. OMG.. I really screwed up my Os last yr. Felt like ending my life in e aftnoon... I jus can't take it. Yea~ I held up a brave front and pretend like I'm ok w/ it. Hahax.. I know deep in me.. I'm torn up. This is worse than running 10km. Don't know if I shld consider poly. W/ this kinda grades I think go ITE simei register la. wth... Its been a long time I posted smth liddat. I know I'm starting my pessimistic side again but its nt w/in my ctrl anyway.. PRCS hv done badly. This batch was a total disgrace. We did worse off than e pioneers. But I'm gald I got the A2 for Mrs Lim. Didn't want to let her dwn. And yea~ Mr Collin and Mrs GLow.. thnx! W/o ur help I can't get A1 fr science. I know I've let dwn Mdm Kamisah/Mr Yeo and Ms Salinah... I seriously tot tt I'll get distinctions fr EL and Humans. Sry teachers. I'm really sorry. I've tarnished your reputation and myself. Just forget me. Forget tt David existed. I hate to say this but I know tt mentally, I'm unable to accept it. Erase those memories. I never existed. Sighs~ x.x

Sunday, February 27, 2005 | 12:55 AM

Aloy jus found out smth.. and I ain't going to post it here (obvious!). Hahax.. and I think he'll keep it shut.. except mayb disturb me like wad he did to Sarah last time.. hahax..

Saturday, February 26, 2005 | 10:11 PM

Vindicated

Went to check e dictionary its meaning... Vindicated means to prove tt smth is right esp when mst ppl believe its wrong. Was introduced to this song when I stepped into Kenny's [TPJC] blog ages ago. Didn't even know its the theme song of Spiderman the movie. =p Guess I feel vindicated aft these 2 mths in TPJ. Yea~ so shiok.. each day is another fun day. XD

Changed my blogsong to a video instead fr a try. Saw e vid on Janice's blog. So decided to try out and hv MVs on my blog every once and then. The singer's slang is very strong tho.. I could hardly catch some words... esp e part where he sang 'and let the moment fall for-ev-O(forever)'.. XD

Woke up ard 11am as I slept darn late in e morning. Stoned ifo e computer till 1pm when I wanted to get out of e hse as there's SUPPOSE to be a class outing w/ some of e peeps but when I was out of e hse, yong bing then told me its cancelled. -.-''' The news comes to me so slowly... but was still in PR so went home lo... then l8r met up w/ Crystal, Pillai, Justin and Shi Han at PR beach. Wanted to canoe but it was pretty late and e weather looks threatening so we dropped the idea. Guess what we did nxt~ We bot this kite which is nt ez to fly. I think its ages since e last time I flew kite which is like primary sch? Then went on Justin's bike ard fr less than 2mins b4 they say they wanna to go to e sandy beaches... Wahahax... e nxt moment we realised its raining... omg. Then walked in e drizzle to the web thingy. Can't believe tt Crys climbed up faster than me. -.-''' I'll beat her e nxt time...=p In btwn all this time we were reminded tt our results r out on Monday by dearest Pillai and his accomplice, Crystal! Wad de... All of us are worried la... but lets just enjoy the last few hours yea~? Aft tt we went bubble tea-ing at dwntwn where we saw Alex Ang and Jos. And I accompanied Pillai to WS sportslink to get tights (e kind which is worn when u run). Bot this Adidas one which appeared a bit too short fr Pillai but I guess its b'cos his legs are nt trained so e muscles are 'wrapped' by fats... Anyway I didn't get my tights cos I've nt brot enuff $$$ and even if I want I'll get my paernts to come w/ me.. =p Think e short ones are ok w/ me altho I wun say I hv those legs-to-die-for but I've gt long legs so its nt so bad... (wad only!) Came back and here I am...

Think my mind is corrupted recently... I saw someone special. No.. its nt frm my class... so 05s09 dun worry.. XD But I'm nt special enuff fr her I think... I can't seem to find any qualities w/in me... XD Perhaps I shld vindicate this point... lols. But its hard to avoid this feeling deep dwn... sighs.

So happy recently cos my tagboard is alive again! Its feels gr8 cos u know e blog is nt dead... but some pple rather stalk than tag... (u know whu u are) XD Hahax.. tt's all fr now.. Cya! *poof*

Friday, February 25, 2005 | 10:58 PM


Clockwise frm top right is Genever, Kesther, Ming Faye and Jean! Pick urs today! *oops* Sry wrong quote... XD Posted by Hello

| 9:57 PM

Confession, Conclusion, Clarifictaion...

Ytd didn't come online... was bz making e friendship cards which I disappointingly didn't complete making... I only completed fr PRCSians and my OGLs and Sarah's. I'm very slow at it. And I slept only at 3am. So I woke up in e morning at 9 and reached sch by 9.20am. During Chem, I didn't listen to mass Spec at all. Was busy un-entangling the stars tt got entangled altogether. -.- I must say tt I'm very dumb to arrange e cards in such a way tt's so easy fr them to get messed up. Yea~ Want to thank Crys, Chai Yun and Jas fr sacrificing ur time to help me... I apprecaite it! Aft Chem I gave e cards to e rest of the PRCSians... hmmm... I'm gald they're surprised cos if they expected it then there's no excitement right? Skipped Bio prac and went w/ Crys and Jas to buy waffle. Got cheese which is supppose to help me get more fats. Lol! Then had Tennis game where I got sun tanned. Woohoo~! I'm no longer white like china. BUt was a bit burnt on my face tho... shld be due to track's trg? Disappointed w/ trg today. Ran 3x400m of wind-sprints where we sprint then jog then sprint then jog... I think I came in 3rd ar... like shit la... Cos I started like a few secs earlier than e last grp but I'm still overtaken by them... -.-''' I skipped e part where they were doing 100m+200m+300m then 300m, 200m 100m. Reason being tt I had too much ice lemon tea in my stomach so don't want stitches. Tried long jump which I feel tt I'm nt making full use of my long legs... How can I jump such a short distance fr e length of my legs? Was super shag wehn e coach told us to do 'starts'... we have to position ourselves in this crouching way where I actually find tough to start a race. She said it might be due to my height which altered my centre of gravity. I think so too... I almost 'toppled' when I sped too fast. I don't know I accelerate so slowly within e 1st 30m when we did starts... out of 12 starts... I think I came in last few mst of e time... and tok abt ego.. I feel like I'm useless! Aft track trg, gave the cards to e OGLs(soccer)... I appreciate their appreciation... also gave Chiam, Marisa and Claudine theirs when I saw Chiam at e library. Hope they won't mind the lousy folding of e stars.. I jus learnt it nt long ago. And I had to string up e stars using a needle and penknife which I pricked myself countless times... But its ok... as long as I've done my part, I feel a sense of achievement and completion. During track trg, Genever was laughing at me cos my nose was making so much noise due to my flu which STILL haven't recover since Monday! I'm glad tt I held on thru trg w/o collapsing. I had difficulty breathing due to e blocked nose. Bleah~ No wonder I underperformed... XD Took e four track gals (Genever, Kesther, Jean and Ming Faye) photo cos they want me to send to them... Our track's gals nt bad yea~ chio sia... =X And I agree tt Shi Ya hv nice long legs! Its rare... hahax... If she reads this, she will be so proud! XD Feel tt I'm getting to know e track pple well... so might stay in track aft results r out. Initially only joined b'cos I enjoy sprinting and WINNING. But decided tt even if I'm nt e best sprinter I can still make it and rep sch fr competitions tt require a grp such as relay... SO badly wanted to join tennis but know tt chances of getting in is like nil since I've nv played tennis in e past. But Keith said tt I'm talented (woah!) since I can still play despite being only 2nd time I held a tennis racket. But e sch only want ppl going fr competitions... bleah~ Too bad. But look on e bright side.. at least I know I'm nt entirely noob in tennis. =]


I'm very proud to say tt I'm a happy person in TPJC since I stepped in. Got to know lots of pple like the OGLs, OGMs, 05s09, track ppl, tennis ppl, some seasports ppl and of cos all e cool SIRIUS pple!! Hey, we rawks man! Nobody can compete w/ us! We are mst closely bonded... mus thank e OGLs fr being so enthu and 'ON'! I know there are times when I felt tt I'm alone, tt I'm lost and a nobody but I;ve come to realise tt e new envt have some effects over all of us. No longer e PRCS me I guess I gotta move on and start fresh. It may be difficult but I won't give up. Wanna thank all e ppl who made my day EVERYDAY. Be it jus saying a HI or sharing my woes or being disturbed by me on MSN... I wanna thank u all fr e fantastic times I have ever since I stepped into the sch. I know tt some ppl think I'm quiet and refuse to talk much but seriously(siriusly) I yack a lot when u know me. XD I'm nt anti-social... I jus don't know how to start a conversation and I admit tt I'm self-conscious. I fear tt my first impression fr others wld nt be good enuff... so I tend to rather keep my mouth shut when I get to know new ppl... I'll change tt habit la. I wonder how but I'll try! =] Sometimes feel tt I need close peeps to share my feelings and tots... altho I've already got Crys and Pillai and Sarah to help me all these days but I jus can't possibly disturb them all e time so mst of e time I swallow everything dwn. Walking out of e hse at 2am is nt normal... but I suppose some silence and solitude kept me frm breaking dwn... plus all e track trg which allows me to let it all out by sprinting. Os will be out soon. Monday.. I dread ur soon-to-be arrival. I've stated e reasons in my earlier post. I'll hv to accept wad tt comes. Gd luck too all J1s! TPJC or other JC or even some poly... its really a tough choice tt changes ur life entirely. Dun worry... I suppose we'll somehow make it. Be optimistic! (altho I'm also not really so) =]

BTW Joadine said I look like those kind of 'si wen' (polite) kinda person and she can't believe tt I left sch ytd and pon Bio today. Am I? I think I nerd in front of them... why mus I look so nerd!? I already changed my specs wad... XD I think in class I'm so quiet... so unlike other guys... even Timothy is yacking more than me now... can I break away frm this shell and OPEN myself to tok more... I still rmbr Kozaw saying tt I look like I'm suffering tt time I was w/ them. Woah.. I leave such a horrid impression on ppl when I don't tok?! Lols.
Smtimes I feel rejected, dejected, unwanted and hated. But I think I must shake off tt feeling and not think so much. I know being left out is nt a gd feeling. So I apologise to all those who felt neglected cos I didn't tok to u or cos I look like I'm ignornig ya... I know e feeling, to feel neglected is horrid and I hope u ppl wld accept my apologies. And to those who once make me feel neglected... YOU ARE SO GOING TO PAY FOR IT... XD Wahahhax.. jus jk... XD I think tt's so much fr all e tots I hv now. I think its a lot. So congratz on ur finish to reading this entry cos I know I'm nt interesting enuff to entertain you yea~? Cya soon... *poof*


p.s. hahax.. I'm in e Shrimps Family... tt sounds interesting! Lols. XD

Wednesday, February 23, 2005 | 9:20 PM

Shag... I need my calcium...

Ok... I know besides calcium I need carbo too. XD Track trg ended and I was crawling towards the bubble tea shop... Was super tired. I know e trg is considered slack la... but well... I guess its b'cos I've not sprint for quite some time... We did drills which I found an excuse to skip and then we did the baton passing (called relay I think). I sprinted but was underperforming for a sprinter. Bleah~ I thought there was another round of relay so I slacked... but when I found out tt there's only ONE relay, I sort of regretted. >.<''' Then we did 6x200m. Was super slack but I still underperformed... I think if aft sports CCAs were observing us they'll wonder if we really are e SPRINTERS of e school... XD I keep wondering how cmoe aft every sprint my knee joints and ankles would hurt like s***... I can barely stand up so imagine going another 200m again... Aft e last 200m, I just drop dead on e track. Came in 4th out of 5 pple... Its seriously terrible... considering e fact tt I came in 1st during e 3rd sprint. (I suppose everyone was slacking when I got 1st =p) I think my leg hurts becos there's no calcium in me... bleah~ So I shld drink more MILK... whahahx... During relay Patrick says he can feel his s*** 'coming out soon' XD I was laughing like mad... I dun want to see his rxn when he reads this entry man... I think he'll come aft me cos I said I dun wanna trip over smth brown when I'm sprinting... XD Wad de!

Sch's so-so today. Got back 2 tests. I think its my BEST record. BEST. Bio: 6/20 Chem:3/22 I believe nobody hold a lower score than me in e class... and its like e worst grade I had in my life. I must again thank GLow fr the 'foundation' she has 'given' me in sec sch. I am so ready to grab her hair and start pulling it all out... =p I don't understand anything on moles! Gawd~ Luckily they're repeating everything again during JAE but of cos my Os will decide if I can stay on at TPJC... Up till today there's no 'wind' of our results releasal date... omg... Wonder when it'll be released... I think it'll be on nxt Monday and I hope so too... I need e weekend to enjoy MYSELF. I've been slacking so I mus make sure I get my last opportunity to slack to e core. =p

Tmr me and Jin Rong pon CL since its e last 2 periods... I feel like playing Tennis tmr but Crys and Jas might wanna meet out to watch movie w/ Gerald and Justin is it? Dunno~ Saw Gerald, Justin and Shi Han aft sch when I alighted frm e bus... saw Marie also... I think PR central dominated by all e PRCSians... XD Oh yea~ I gotta give out the freindships card to all e pple on Friday. If u never recieve dun blame me yea~ Cos I really dun hv enuff time to make all and I might forget some of you so pls PARDON me yea~? Right now.. life rawks... at least b4 e results are released... =p I dun dare to think of my rxn when I recieve my results... doubt if there's any chance of me getting 4As like prelims... which was PURE LUCK la... XD lazy to type.. cya! *poof*

| 12:27 PM

Having GP now...

Whahahax.... Ok.. this is lame... I'm misusing the computer for bloggin during GP.. BLEAH~ one more hour left before this lesson ends. Am suppose to type out the compre ans but I'm multi-tasking now... Wahhahax... Having Track trg later at 3 but my lessons end at 2.10.. wonder how I'm going to run with food in my stomach... Whahahx... Gtg.. she's advancing towards my desk.. *poof*

Tuesday, February 22, 2005 | 9:38 PM

Terrible...

Guess its b'cos I didn't run fr too long... Had cramps at 5.00am in e morning. And the cramps led to tension at my calves... so during PE I didn't quite run well enough. In fact we didn't get much opportunity to run... cos we were only told to run 2 rounds. -.- Ok.. I was wrong ytd when I say I'm going to run 2.4. *Geez~ Shld be running 2.4km tmr... cos tt PE teacher always make us run 6 rounds and I always come in third.. bleah~ Can tt Putra and e other VS dude give me a chance to shine? PLus I'm having track trg tmr. So if I'm gonna strain myself during PE then tt's it man. I'l have a hard time during track trg. -.- Still wondering if I shld do sprints or Long D tmr. Guess tt will depend on my legs tmr... and also my ego rate. Whahahax... If I can sell ego then I'll make big bucks... hahax! Nvm... life is beautiful when I care less...

Today was pretty sucky la... frm the PE lesson to GP... Slept during GP today and Ms Deborah asked,' David... can u try e next paragraph?' I sounded like some dumbo when I replied,'Huh? What was ur Qn?' XD Its very lame la... She replied tt we must be having sleepless nights as we await the results... Apparently... I'm nt all too awaiting la... Wad's there to be awaited? Plus e fact tt I'm nt +ve w/ my efforts put in during my Os. Was pretty slack aft prelims altho my prelims also like s***... XD Very lazy to type now... I need to type fr my bro his essay thingy... Goodness... (how much am I paid to type...) =p Cya.. *poof*

Monday, February 21, 2005 | 9:03 PM


And this are e 2 gals who made me stand w/ them fr 3hrs waiting fr them to finalise e class tee and also made me try out one of e shirts...=p Posted by Hello

| 9:01 PM


This is the weird lift we took when I went w/ Crys and Jas to make 4/6's class-tee... Crys says tt e pole can be used fr pole dancing in the lift... XD Posted by Hello

| 8:03 PM

Dwn w/ deadly flu...

Ok.. I know tt this flu isn't exactly deadly but I am super sick of it. I've got to do this *sniffs* sound like every few seconds. And my nose's liek a tap now. The 'water' is running out non-stop. And I can't seem to 'close' the tap. Geez~ And I rubbed my nose till like its going to drop anytime.

During GP there's this debate (and Pillai's grp won) and I was sucking air thru my nose to stop e dripping. Yewww... Disgusting... I think I broke my record today. I used up 9 pkts of tissue and 1/5 of a toilet roll... my gawd... wth did I get this flu virus frm...? Was late this morning(again) cos I took a long time in the toilet blowing my nose. It looks rather detached now... XD I can't feel my nose... XD During Bio prac I was SUCKING air and BLOWING nose... GeeZ~ I couldn't even get e correct vol of liquid into the syringe cos I kept sneezing and I hv to constantly take SUPER deep breaths... And btw.. I realised smth... I can't light up a bunsen burner until today. I got a shock when I lit up the bunsen.. omg.. TPJC's bunsen must be historic... the flame just blew up into my face... *phew* nobody noticed it. And I didn't burn my already disfigured face... phew~ I wonder how I manage to do chem prac during Os... Come to think of it I actually got YS to help me light up my bunsen durnig bio prelims last yr.. =p

There's seriously nt much lesson today. The GP debate is weird. Many things were nt included. Anyway its such an outdated motion... Homosexuals shld be allowed to adopt children? This hv been discussed by the powers in diff regions before and certain countries already allowed that... -.-''' And its very lame to actually say that homosexuals will not affect their adopted child's development and psychology. Isn't it like OBVIOUS?! And yea~ of cos our parents don't perform sexual activities ifo us...!!! The debate got more out of point every minute. Esp when this dude stood up and claim tt homosexuals adopting orphaned children will affect pple's mindset tt its alright to hv pre-marital sex and end up w/ more orphaned chilfren. Firstly, out of so many orphaned children... how many are e result of pre-marital sex? And out of so many homosexuals... how many bother to adopt children. Yes.. its a fact tt there are more and more homos out there in this world.. but isn't it like socially unacceptable? So what if its e 21st century? Its getting more weird as we dig further. Bleah~

Came home frm sch at 2.50 altho sch actually ended at 1.30pm... had lunch and jus slacked w/ Pillai and his peeps... Didn;t go fr track as u know my darn nose and crappy flu... really shld hv went fr track but again.. if I go then tmr's PE will only be tougher fr my legs which are on its way to complete recovery. Anyway.. e recovery wil not last la... since I always get hurt during Track trg session. Today they did 10km which I'm thankful I didn't join them. Sprinters doing 6oom sprints which is A LOT since its sprinting... I can't imagine running at max speed fr such long distances fr so many times... phew~ They gave out Track shirt and pants today I think... But I think I'll get mine w/ Crys and all e rest who pon when Wednesday comes. Dreadful! I can't tolerate Wednesdays... PE 2periods and Track trg followed by a long day in sch on Thursday... Hope JAE will make things lighter fr me... I'm super slack now... During Math I was concentrating on BREATHING and BLOWING my nose... OMG... then I don;t even know wth e chapter is abt.


Pillai wanted me to go run w/ him but aft some thinking we decided not. Cos' we jus can't predict wad the PE teacher might do to us tmr... plus e fact tt my EGO is still thrashing so I can't expect to run badly during PE or else it will definitely ruin my day... (like how I thrashed my road run) Bleah~ Ego can be so freaking at times... Nvm... will se how I do tmr. Need to time myself. I'ms ure I can get below 10mins if I train harder fr 2.4km. Wahahax... will see abt it... *poof*

Sunday, February 20, 2005 | 5:51 PM

Thanks pple

The pple as abv states refer to Ryan and Crystal. Yea.. I jus realised I've blogged like e 3rd time today...? Yup. Thank you CRYSTAL and RYAN... its seems tt only these 2 pple actually understand me, at least more than others. My god. They're e only ones responding to my desperate calls. I'm already on e verge of ending my life... but ONLY 2 souls responded. My gawd... this shows a lot of e pple ard me... BLEAH~

| 12:42 PM

Clarification

Pertaining to my previous entry... I must clarify that: I like TPJC cos its like a 2nd home to me now. The reason I said I might choose poly is b'cos I lost my status here in TPJC. I'm like a drifting soul... a nobody (god.. how many X hv I said this in my entries) And this feeling of a nobody has got to do w/ my not-so-small-ego. Plus e fact that I've lost e sec sch days social clique and so I've got this neither here nor there kinda feeling...

| 9:50 AM

Its time I give up...

Somethings in life are there some are not. -.- Decided already. Be it results or *her or wadeva. If I can't stay in TPJC then let it be. I know I'll miss all e pple I got to know here but sometimes I wonder what am I doing at TPJC... Maybe all my peers were right. Its time I give a thought to myself and consider the poly route. Maybe I shld change my career path. I shouldn't stress myself so much. I should just END it. Give it up... give it ALL up. In a few days the results will be out. Reflecting on e fact that I screwed up Chem paper 2 I seriously dun wanna get my results. But like I said somethings in life are there some are not. I'm not going to appeal or what shit in order to stay IF I do badly. Pillai's right.. if my aggregate not there means I'm not of the right calibre. Anyway I've learnt lots here in TPJC such as being more independent and less ego and being a nobody is not easy blah blah... Shit me la... why do I sound like I'm leaving like that... -.- But wadeva it is, leaving or not... I still appreciate the many ppl I got to know here. The coming week is International Friendship week. I have not finished what I was doing. Its friendship week but its such an irony since its also e week our results will be released and some part our own ways aft that. Wth am I typing. Nvm.

Ytd was gr8 until smth corrupted. Went to Kenny's hse gathering and saw peeps like Stef, Zhuo Jie, Cheng Hsuan, Leying, Shu Yi, Su Ming, Yong Ying, Berlinda, Gloria and Kenny (duh). Played Mahjong but we spent mst of e time updating ourselves w/ each other. Leying still don't want to go JC despite her capability... but now I understood why ppl dun wanna go JC. Aft tt they went out fr dinner and then movies. Didn't go cos I've got dinner at home and Jas, Crys and me watching Hide n seek on Tuesday. Yea~ I want the thrill. I want smth tt can make me forget all e stuff in my head now. Btw, I went w/ Pillai to MJ to run. He said he might wanna go MJ which I did try to stop him. But again I wonder why am I stopping him... -.- Pillai says its turning into a family gathering place. We were thinking tt families might set up picnics soon. XD Anyway I was at ok pace during the run. Considering 2.4km standards.. I'm near the A mark. I think everyone run faster when they're angry. Erm... like me? I suppose its b'ccos I wanna esc frm all e shit I'm having now. Wadeva~ Didn't come online ytd evening. All thanks to my parents. I'm 16 now.. can they don't ctrl my liberty... -.- I dun feel like typing anymore.. in fact I dun feel like going to sch on Monday and fr the rest of e week. Things are stringing up and tangling me all over. Bleah~ Conclusion: I'll give up wadeva that shld be given up. -.-

Friday, February 18, 2005 | 10:57 PM

Lactic-Egoistic-Pathetic

I feel asleep in sch again. During Bio and Chem lecture, then during Bio tutorial. Can't balme me. I slept at 1am again. Hey.. I did go to bed early. Just that I was lying in bed and forcing things out of my mind. Things such as e Os results tt will be out all too soon, Track, myself as a nobody, and *her. Too many things racing thru my head. Hurts a lot. No idea what time I actualy slept. bleah~

Sch's a bit of a bore today. Only Chem and Bio lessons. And like I said I slept thru mst of 'em. E slacking attitude is hard to shake off once addicted. -.- Aft e last period, went to e canteen and waited fr Crystal, James, Xing Qi, CHai Yun and OKE. James crashed into sch today to pass e 4.6 class-tee $$$ to Crys. When e clique appeared. For a moment I found e feeling in sec sch when I was at least SOMEBODY.... so unlike now. -.- Crystal asked abt ego today. I wonder how she live her life w/o knowing wad's ego...? Yea, I agree I hv a high ego. Wadeva done must be perfect. I suppose tt's e reason I'm doing sprints. The burst of energy is released freely and quickly. But this big ego sux a lot. I finally understood why I got 180th position fr Road Run. All thanks to my ego... Sprinted amongst the 1st few at e beginning... so I ended up out of breath just before the turning point. =X I've got myself to blame. Was a bit 'off' when I hopped onto Aloy's blog... saw smth which reminded me of road run again. = YES. This ego thingy keeps my mind flashing back all e time... so I'm very pissed w/ myself. I need lots of time to reflect and check out wad's e damn bloody shit pbm w/ me. I dun understand.

Had track at 2.30 so missed e match btwn our soccer and SRJC. Joined long D again. Did 5 rounds inside e sch.. u know... e upslope plus dwnslope... That shld be like 4+km? Then we ran 3x800m and finally 150m and 2x100m sprints. Fr once I'm feeling better in track... Cos I wasn't last during sprints w/ e long D pple. I know its nt fair cos I'm a sprinter and they're long D pple BUT I'm nt 1st despite being a sprinter. I take my hat off to Hidayat man... TOP road runner still beat me in sprints. -.- I'm a sprinter? Some irony... Today's trg was shag... My legs hv lactic all over. Didn't join e track pple to Bubble tea cos I feel tt I need some time for MYSELF to reflect and jus be ALONE. Getting way more sick of myself everyday. Yea, I've changed a lot. Nt liek last time. Getting more violent esp at home. Jus kicked my bro's arse which I haven't done in e past decade... My parents were shocked out of their bodies... -.-

Weekend is here. Tmr going to Kenny(Tan)'s hse fr New Yr gathering. Haven't seen them fr quite a long time. I know they're goin to say I've become darker so unlike my pale skin last tme... and why my hair's so wierd now and when did I change my specs... and w/o forgetting CH and his Qn on my wristband. And of cos they're going to ask abt relationship in sch. Bleah~ sort of pressurised... I know I'm like somewhat e odd one out fr all e changes tt took place on me. I guess they'll make lots of comments and hopfully compliments... But besides tt, there is ABSOLUTELY nth else to look forward to. I'm serious (sirius). Its nt the kind of weekend where I look forward to going out and blah blah. Worried abt results and worried abt myself. I know smth is going wrong. I dun want to show it but when I'm alone I do show it. Its strange... I guess its b'cos of that. Dun wanna elaborate. I'm on e verge of jus ending my life. Its hard to be a nobody and its hard to adapt esp w/ my kind of EGO. -.-'''

Thursday, February 17, 2005 | 10:28 PM

Lots of commotion...

Yeh... LOADS of commotion abt Os results release date and this stupid letter frm MOE. Some pple said tt if u recieve it means tt ur Os got a mean score of 17pts and abv. Its very lame. Altho I was shoked at 1st too. Its weird tho. I can't face my results. I'm really scared now. Dun wanna think abt it already. Its giving me e creeps. And my minid keeps telling me tt wad's my backup plan if anything dun go smoothly. Cos I dun hv a backup plan right now. And certain things are simply unpredictable. *cross-fingers*

Yea... I think I've been such a jerk recently... e way I chat and pester ppl... I seem to forget tt I'm nt the PRCS david anymore.. I'm nt as 'popular' and my language may nt be accepted socially... I think I gave Aloy and Lx e creeps cos I'm like freaking them out w/ all e pestering. Liek I'm some childish J1 student. I'm really sry man... cos its like 1st 3 mths and I'm definitely slacking like nobody's business... So I apologise fr calling you a stalker yea? I don't mean it, u shld know... *sighs* This is wierd. I am wierd. I'm nt positive abt things now. Sometimes its gd to see tag being flooded... *sighs* wadeva... jus let it be... nobody tag nobody lor. Jus let things be. James wanna pass me e cash fr the 4/6 class tee so I can pass to Crys but I'm like so busy in sch esp w/ track which I dun even know e time.

And e weekend coming. I dun wanna bother and pester them count me in cos I've got this feeling that I'm an EXTRA. And I agree tt somethings cannot be done my way. I'm a nobody so jus let things be in e meanwhile. I'm tired. *sighs~*

| 5:50 PM

Tired. That feeling strikes again...

No PE today but I'm still tired. No CCA but I'm still tired. I'm wiped out. How many times do I have to remind myself to sleep early?! >.<''' Bio today was strating to get complicated as we get deeper into Proteins. But the lecturer was gr8 cos I didn't fall asleep at all. She's able to get all our attention, I don't know how but she jus did it. Proteins are complex molecules. So are the Bio lectures. Its getting complex. Starting enzymes soon but I don't even know what Proteins are... what R-groups?! Getting a bit flustered when she keeps repeating R group cos' I totally hv no idea wad tt is. During GP we had this current affairs test where I got 6/15. Nt bad considering e fact I didn't read e newspapers fr 2 whole weeks! PW was presented by some creeps frm DBS bank. I slept when e 2nd speaker came up. Then its Math tutorial but I pon and sat dwn to read up on Proteins. Its like e 1st time I actually up. Can't really say read up cos I'm reading smth which she taught ages ago. During Bio tutorial I slept again. =X I'm so sry fr Ms Leo. She didn't scold me which I'm so grateful. She just said I'm nt oaying attention... Surprisingly I'm nt tired during CL where we were supposed to write an essay of 500 words. >.<''' Then e day is over lor. Wanted to play Tennis but nv see MArisa or Chiam or Claudine ard so I went home. Its like soooo long since e last time I came back early. Mst of e time I hv track till like 6+ and its 7 when I'm home.

Sighs~ I slept so much in class... I wonder what she thinks... I'm some lazy pig yea? -.-

There's track tmr again. I've decided to tag along e Long D. Cos' my legs are still unable to w/stand e pressure frm sprinting. Plus my stamina is like shit so I gotta pump out more. Yea... PE is so ez... those ppl running pace is damn slack. In track I look like I'm e one slacking... Read Cry's blog and I agree tt we do have like 3 more trgs together b4 the dreaded results are out. YIKES. I don't want to get e results. Reason being:
  1. I don't think I'll be up to standard
  2. I know there'll be ppl I know who'll be leaving aft e results are out
  3. I fear to be forced to leave TPJC
  4. I know there MIGHT be pple I don't want to hv coming into TPJC
  5. No more slacking aft JAE
  6. Don't know if I shld stay in Track
  7. Life might be a dreading bore aft JAE
  8. I'm addicted to being a slack
  9. I still hv this 'nobody' feeling in TPJC
  10. I might nt be able to blog everyday aft JAE
  11. I miss all e pple here and I fear losing anyone esp *her
  12. TIME will be like shit aft JAE

Got this nobody feeling striking and booming in me again. I hate it. Its like being pushed here and there. Erm.. like I'm some non-existing drifting soul tt nobody bothers? This feeling sux. I'm getting a bit pissed w/ certain pple (nt anyone one frm my dear 05s09). Its very COLD. And like no expression. Like so unwanted... and like I'm some freak. =.=''' *sighs* Mayb I'll blog again. But I'm so tired now. me nobody... jus nobody.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005 | 11:36 PM

The power to convince

Wooohooooo~! I've learnt a lot frm the oratorical n debates in TPJC. I'm now so much capable to convince my mom to get me a hew HP! Deciding which model I shld take.. Nokia like so common and e camera always like =.=''' Samsung is cool! But I wanna change cos tt's my current phone. Heard SE is nt bad.. but always system lag and Panasonic's font is pathetic. Don't want Pantech cos its nt tt good. Motorola never heard much abt it altho I do want the slim clamshell phone since its the SLIMMEST in e market. Siemens even worse... I didn't even see much ppl carrying it. PATHETIC. And I got my parents to get me a new PC. Finally. Its like so over-due! Was at TM and Century Square w/ Dad. Dad brot me there on his motorbike! So cool! I haven't sat on it for so long! The wind in my face and w/ my mp3 blasting and feeling e beat... wooohoooo~! Life rawks! Was at Century Square to get my E700A phone fixed. I almost smashed it when I recieve sms but yet I dun get to read it! The feeling is terrible.. imagine u know u've gt this sms but u dun know who e person is and what's it abt... Fr e 1st time I feel tt I can die w/o my phone! I asked the customer assistant and she told me tt if there's software upgrade I might lose all data in e phone... I've got loads of photos on Grad nite and TPJCsians inside and my contacts are all saved in phone memory.. so I'm afraid to lose any memory... =X

IN e morning I was late. Nt tt I stepped outta my hse late. Its tt I wore the wrong specs in e morning.. cos when I woke up my face is nt clean and I dun wanna dirty e half frame specs so I wore my old one and I stepped out of e hse with it! When I'm reaching e bus stop then I realised! When I walked back home.. I saw bus 21! Grrr... I'm so 'lucky'. Sch was ok today. Had SPE where we ran as usual. I guess I gotta wk harder fr long D. Cos during 2.4 Putra (I hope I get e right spelling) of 05s17 was running sort of lightly and I'm still a distance despite e fact tt I've already put in 70% effort. Yea~ I'm third.. but its terrible... I'm frm Track?! And I'm like bringing lots of disgrace to track liddat... Still nt fast enough! Had Track today and like I said, I joined e Long D runners instead of e sprinters... cos my knee joints are aching plus I had PE rmbr? So tiring... I admit! I'm like e last few when we ran 5km outside sch. BUT I had SPE!!! So I actuall ran a total of 7.4km today. Nt much la... e last time I ran 10km in a day in 2 go. PHEW.. tmr is Thursday. Altho we have a long day but I'm having e liberty to recover tmr. No running at all. YEAH! So Friday I can get back onto track and start running. Sometimes I wonder how come I like running that much...

Oh yeah I forgot to blog tt I saw Leying and Zarifah ytd. My mp3 was lasting and Leying went up to me and HELLO! beside me... I think my music damn loud but she shout so loud e public sort of kena frightened! WHAHAHX! Then was on e bus when I saw Zarifah and she waved and I waved (duh) =.= Miss all e PRCS peeps! Saw Berlinda and Marie on e bus home. Berlinda say she can't recognise if not of my green PE shirt. WAHX! She said I changed so much... Did I? If u're toking abt shuai-er I dun think so lah... then she prompted this Qn... U gt GF now ar? =p Ok... I nv really ans tt Qn... but *hint* hint* u shld know wad's in my mind right? *ahem *ahem... =p Was running during track when I saw this PRCS choir gal junior. She waved lor so I waved la.. but erm vision so unclear cos I'm running right...? But I know who she is lah. Hope juniors nt tormented in choir now. =X Cos I"m enjoying my time at Track! ESP when we go bubble tea together! Hahax.. My self-esteem rose a lil' today.. eh... I think only 05s09 knows why... Tt's such a big clue! XD E power of love is so undeniably miraculous yea? *oops* =p I'm cheeky... hahax... Its so late.. this entry a bit toooo looooooong sia... dun faint when u finish reading... XD *poof*

Tuesday, February 15, 2005 | 9:17 PM

Drop Math?

Had Math test today. Damn slack. Nt e test standard but MY standard. In less than 10mins I gave up (when there's only 2 Qn) and I lied flat on e table and slept. My math teacher told me I might want to drop Math and take Econs instead since my EL is better and I simply can't do complex calculations. WHY DID I DROP ADD MATH LAST TIME?! I'll need to take S-paper if I want to take Medicine and I'm nt taking Physics so needless to say I guess I can't get into local U... erm.. y am I worrying this when I don't even know my Os results? XD

Had PE today. Its really nt tough. But it is when I haven't recoverr frm ytd's track sprints. I can't take it anymore. E idea of sprinting tmr w/ so many CCAs present at the tracks give me e creeps. Cos my knee joint hurts like shit so I'll surfely be last fr every sprint. No thanks to e PE teacher who insist on me doing the jumping jack ex. despite me explaining to him. He made us sprint 400m in 80s which is nt ez since we ran 800m and I sort of over-exerted myself. And so RIGHT NOW... my leg's weak as jelly... Aft tt we're suppose to hv soccer and I so badly wanted to sit dwn and rest my knees but he told me to do slow jog. wth?! Its like worse than playing soccer lor. Bleah~ During break I was damn shag... my knees can't even support me.. I can feel the weird clench ard my knee joints. *ouch* So I've decided nt to do sprints tmr. I can't bear to be LAST fr every sprint we do. And e other dudes are super fast in sprinting. Based on my conditions... I might even end up behind e gals fr 200m sprints! I'm going to slack tmr w/ e long D runners. Wahahax... they're always slacking and nt at their top speed... tt'll be gd fr my recovery I guess. Again, I might change my mind cos' I might suddenly become hyper tmr and wanna do sprints. Hahax! Then I'll complain again tmr... wad irony!

JY's teasing me again... She's been 'helping' me by telling everyone who *ahem is and tt I'm e one... >.<"' I'm nt so un-shy sia... scary gal... trying to broadcast to e whole world is it? And fr once I appreciate tt I'm nt well-known like I was in sec sch... *phew*

Went w/ Crystal and Jas to Paya Lebar to submit their 4/6 class-tee design. When we were at e bus-stop I said smth very lame to Lx... hahax.. erm.. nvm... I'm a bit mental these few days. Aftermath of being date-less on Valentine? I THINK SO... XD Anyway... when we reach the place, it looks sort of like a torn dwn factory. Before we step into the lift... we were suprised by this metal pole (like those in e MRT) inside the lift!!! Its liek blocking ez entry to e lift sia.. wahahax... Crystal was saying tt e pole can be used fr pole-dancing in e lift. =X Crys is gettin'...erm... wild tt time... XD No la.. she's also mad aft being date-less I think... Poor gal~ XD Ok.. I think she'll surely tag aft reading this... whahahx... Left e place quite late cos we gotta get all e sizes allocated to each and everyone. Then Crys and Jas' were like asking me... Is Justin bigger or Gerald bigger... Is Justin bigger than you? Erm... EXCUSE ME... we're tokin abt body size NOT tt u-know-where. XD Erm.. this entry gettin' a bit R21 hor... better stop.. smth wrong w/ me.. hahax.. cya!

Monday, February 14, 2005 | 9:00 PM

*Sweet* Valentine's. So sweet its damaging my teeth!

Yeppy! I didn't have a date w/ *ahem. But I manage to forget abt this sad thing fr a while. Yeah... thanks peeps! I was pretty showered by many gifts. All e chocolates and lollipops!!! You gals.. erm.. and guys... are so evil; trying to damage my teeth right?! =] Ok.. I can't do much but thank you here... if I forget any of u wonderful peeps... pls tag and tell me yeah? Here goes...
  • Sarah Lua: Cutely packaged Toblerone and Cove chocs
  • Yun Fang: Snickers tt I got in e morning on e bus.. first one I got in e morning.. woohooo~
  • Joanne: Hershey's-'Kisses'
  • Joanne (Bedok Green): CD on a play called Cindere-LAH... XD
  • Jean: Ferorer Rocher
  • Si Ya: Lollipop flower
  • Xing Qi: Hershey's-'Kisses'
  • Crystal: Hershey's-'Nuggets' and Jelly (whahahx!!!)
  • Ming Faye: Dove choc and Marshmallow
  • Ranjani: Brownies =)
  • Jassamyn: Hershey's
  • 05209: wonderful Marshmallows and chocs

Tt's why I said tt this Valentine is super 'sweet'!!! My tongue is now numb frm all e eating. I suppose I won't be as thin very soon... Whahahx! It is a lovely day... But I'm sort of guilty lahx. Cos I didn't take e initiative to give *her* smth on this special day. Awww... I don't know.. I was thinking if I shld b'cos it might cause things btwn me and her awkward. =X But JY was asking if I've gt her smth... Hmmm... Its a bit too late? But it doesn't hv to be V'dae to do smth special right? =]

Life rawks in sch... erm.. except e part where we hv boring Math lecture... Had track today. Did my sprinting as usual. Feel lousy there. Cos I had lunch real late... then I had stitches when we were doing drills. During sprints... my knee joint felt real wierd... and my legs became wobbly aft each sprint esp e last 200m run... I almost fainted trying to finish it. There is/are time(s) where I didn't come in last... whahahx! Ok.. then we went fr Bubble tea where almost e whole place was dominated by us (again)... Aft tt Qixiang and Patrick were trying to get me into walking home w/ them!!! Its frm TPJC all e way to Pasir Ris! E distance is nt long la.. but I don't want to walk aft sprinting so much. CORRECTION: nt that much today... e coach said we are 'slacking' today cos ppl got V'dae date... woohooo~ Its gd tt we slack. Or esle I'ld never reach home until now... XD

Wanna thank all e peeps fr all e chocs, lollipops and CD and other ppl who gave me but I forgot =X. I know u ppl are trying to see me and tooth decay together but I'm still thankful fr ur efforts.. lolz! Cya ppl! Luv all of ya.. nt jus V'dae but everyday!!!

Sunday, February 13, 2005 | 11:59 PM

Got it. MP3 is e way to go. Lost it. My love.

Woke up real late. Was doing some stuff fr Friendship week... See I'm so nice! Then I jus rot till evening then I went to get my MP3 player at Best Denki w/ Keith's advice which I really find useful. So tired now. I didn't get wad iPOD ot Zen touch wad ass thingy. Cos I'm nt rich. I admit! I can't afford. I just want smth small and portable. 128mb is very very little but gd enough cos its small la. MuVo v200'e desigh is acceptable. I dun want some wierd lookin player so its still ok. Quality also ard there la...

Ok.. tmr is Valentine's and I'm so NOT looking forward to it. I've failed myself. Dunno.. heard tt she dun hv the 'feel' which really makes me feel low and dwn... SAD~ But I guess I've never tok to her in class before so can't really blame... Nth happy to blog abt so I'll jus end here. Nt like my usual looong entries.. cya ard. =[

| 3:52 PM


Tt's our winner of the day. Poking everywhere and all the balls went in... Keith is the pro in pool. Dun judge a bk by his cover! =P Posted by Hello

| 3:49 PM


Now.. tt's what I call accurate and precise. Harianto has long legs!!! Anyway mst track pple hv long legs don't we? =] Posted by Hello

| 3:47 PM


Tt's Aundrey... where's the ball?! (I snapped e pic aft the ball was *poked*) Posted by Hello

Saturday, February 12, 2005 | 11:30 PM

*Pool rawks!*

Yea~ I finally got the opportunity to learn pool. And man, its cool! The 1st time I shot, e ball went in. =] I'm proud of myself. And I guess I've got the begginner's luck. Cos e 1st time I had bowling it was a strike. Hahax...

Woke up at 10.30 in e morning. Tried to do e long overdue Bio report on some practical on potato. But was reminded of the outing w/ track so I left e hse ard 12.15 and got dwn to Orchard. The grp left w/o me cos I'm late sia... Then I was given directions on my hp which led me all over the underpass. Finally found them and I must praise tt gal who gave me directions. She's gd.. she even know which side got Nokia booth and which side is Tangs. *wow* Nt all Track ppl turn up. I only know Crystal, Jean, Joanne1 and Joanne2 XD, other J1 gals... then Aundrey, Harianto, Keith Tan and Ming Faye and Yaw Hwee and Si Ya and loads of other J2s which I dun noe their names... Sry peeps. I can't rmbr all e names since I joined Track like only 2 weeks back?

Anyway, they went to eat at Seoul Garden (so rich sia) but me and Keith went rotting ard the place cos he dun wanna eat it snice he ate it nt too long ago and I'm vege boi XD so we went off frm shop to shop to see e clothes and I eyed on an MP3 player which I'm getting TOMORROW! Finally~ Now I know where to spend my red packets $$$ already... NEW CLOTHES... I'm desperate to get more clothes since I didn't get much b4 CNY. Aft their scarilt long meal... we went to Cineleisure for pool. Finally I learnt pool and I'm addicted. I wun imagine PRCS peeps' reaction when they know abt it. (So far ZJ and YS already had their jaws flew open) Aft tt took train to my godpa's place. Had dinner w/ him while my parents chit-chat w/ my Aussie cuz. They're flying back tmr 1am so I'm a bit disappointed cos I can't see 'em off. But there's always nxt yr... Then we came back and now I'm here.

Can't wait to get my MP3 player tmr. Every morning take bus I feel so dead w/o music plugged in. Ok, so Monday is definitely a day to look forward to.. at least my bus trip in e morning... See ya! Ciao! =]

Friday, February 11, 2005 | 11:00 PM

Gr8 day. Love it.

Okay... Like I said in my last last last last (dunnno how many X) entry... I wld stop slacking aft CNY right? Hahax... I'm lying. I seriously dunno when I'm going to un-slack. And guess wad... I still dunno. =p Life rox fr e 1st 3 mths la... I noe aft tt it'll not be as lively and I might wake up every morning dragging my 1/2 dead body to sch. But who cares.

Am I far sighted? Or others say I think too much... I think so too. Sometimes I wonder what will happen to my circle of friends and myself aft we all graduate frm sch and become working adults. Oh shit lor. I dun wanna think abt it.

Valentine's really coming... but I sort of give up la.. cos I'm nt her standard. She's too gd fr me. And I'll be such a thick-skin to actually ask her. And ppl wld ask me if I've got any sense in my mind or not. Erm.. tt's like so expected. Some things in life are very unfair. And nt all things go our way. The challenge is to see how we take it and manipulate it. But right now, I've failed this challenge.

The feeling of being inferior runs thru my mind up and dwn. And again... the 'nobody' feeling is back. Nt like when I was a 'big-shot' in sec sch.. at least in 4/10... *sighs* I'm nt used to having no status.. being nt-known. Or shld I put it as being nt-as popular. Its gt to do w/ ego I think. Mayb PRCS hv spoilt me into having too much ego which is why I screwed my chem Os. >.<>

PAE is coming to an end. I don't seem to fully enjoy e liberty. Some peeps will leave TPJC fr better or worse I hv no idea. I fear my Os results. I dun wanna get it. I noe mst ppl do better than their Prelims but I fear tt it won't apply to me. *cross-fingers* I get e jitters. Its worse than having to run 10km... really~. How am I suppose to cope if I leave TPJC? Its so much like my 2nd home. And all e ppl here are jus like my bro and sis. The family here has bonded me and I won't want to leave. I dun want to leave!!! I wonder if other TPJCians hv e same feeling... somehow I feel tt the Orientation is so successful this yr tt mst ppl even w/ gd results will want to stay here. (cos it simply rox) =]

On a lighter note... today we had 2 tut of Chem. Ms Loh is doing her nagging at us cos some of us nv turn up on Monday adn nv produce MC. Then she did some stuff which I didn't bother to copy... I was sms-ing away... Then had Chem lecture. Ms Loh again... then we had concert which I had a hard time enjoying as I was seated in e same position fr so long and I fear I get cramps or wadeva. Plus e fact tt I had watched the PCK total defence sooooo many times. I can practically memorise all e words tt Margaret says despite her superb EL slang. Then went to Mac w/ Crystal, Tiong Li and Pillai. Wanted to go catch e movie >> Contantine but changed our mind cos its very exp on a Friday. Instead we went to Xing Qi hse to play Mahjong. I won e mst la. I'm pro.. I admit. XD I won 3 matches out of 6 lor... so its pretty obvious tt I'm gd right? Hahax... I dun need to play much to grasp smth... (ok I'm bragging) =] Then me and Crys went back to our sch and witness e wonderful match btwn TPJC and JJC soccer. We had a draw. 3-3. Nt bad at all considering e fact tt JJC is e former National Champions 2 yrs back... Then I came home lor. Was supposed to visit Aussie cuz since she flying back tmr. But my mom said they all went out fr farewell dinner. (Awww.. why am I always missing out things in my life!?) Nvm... But I guess I'll see her off tmr at e Airport. I hope so. I'm going to miss her so much!!! Aussie's are so cool... altho I heard of how racist they can get at times... but their slang is fantastic! I'm always wowed by the way they speak. =]

Oh yeh... I agree w/ Lx tt tag dead doesn't mean nobody read my blog cos some ppl will stalk my blog... hahax... Oh yeh... Its a gtd feeling. At least I know tt ppl bother to visit my blog. Or else all my entries like I talking to myself... >.<>

Thursday, February 10, 2005 | 9:36 PM


Woah! Cute gal walking by! hwee-yu-hweet! XD Posted by Hello

| 9:34 PM


Arrrr... I hv teeth that sparkle more than yours! Posted by Hello

| 9:32 PM


Hey stop staring at me! Who do u think you are?! Hahax! Posted by Hello

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Never seen anyone w/ milk bottle is it!? =] Posted by Hello

| 7:58 PM

Another CNY... another experience

Angbao collection has ended w/ a beautiful note... or u wld put it as NOTES... Dollar notes that is. =] U shld see my $$$ face when I got e red packets... my parents said tt my face actually glowed. ROFL. Not tt I want to glow... its just that there's really A LOT of $$$ esp frm my damn rich cousins and uncles/aunties. Went to my cousin's hse, Waterplace. Its like e 2nd time... and I'm still dazzled by the amenities there. Its simply a SPLASH and a POOL of facilities there! My nephews/nieces are all so cute! I didn't visit my Aussie cuz cos we hv too many places to visit. Or rather too many places to collect RP frm. Wahhahax! Yes yes.. a bit of Mahjong here, a bit of poker cards there... I won $$$ fr e first time... Whahahx! The feeling is great!

When I was at my first aunt's place. My eldest cuz came to ask me where I'm studying now. And I must say I'm nt pleased w/ her rxn. She asked me wad combi I taking and asked me what I intend to take up in the U. I told her medicine and she OPENED her eyes and glared at me. WTF are e 3 letters in my mind. She told me off saying tt I wld hv to take triple science and also S paper in at least 2 of the sciences to get in since I'm nt frm e TOP 5 JCs. And she said I'll hv to get all As for my sci. I was pretty pissed la. I'm a neighbourhood sec sch sia.. wad u expect me to go? BTW she has graduated w/ a degree... I wonder if all grads behave like her. Study until mad le is it? *roll eyes* Besides this, life is still rocking me and this CNY has definitely gave me an experience altogether diff frm e past years'.

Anyway. I've finally learnt smth which I simply dun get into my mind this yr. That is to be more independent... I guess I hv to be. Forced into such envt I can only surender my usual status and live up e ordinary lifestyle unlike sec sch days... Its like I'm a nobody here in JC... No matter how hard I try to make an impression (gd ones) it simply never work. I know that social acceptance is very impt to my heart/mind/soul/body but perhaps its time fr a change? No more pestering or being noisy/nosy... I'll jus hv to be more quiet now. Maybe LIFE will become EVEN better this way? Its worth a try. I don't know... *sighs*

| 1:00 PM

I want you and your beautiful soul

2nd day of CNY. Didn't go out ytd. Only my relatives came. Sort of bored. I'ld rather go out then wait for ppl to come. Cos' it makes me feel like my hse's a display panel. Siriusly didn't recieve much Hongbao cos also nt that much ppl came to my hse. Erm at least nt as much as the usual bunch. Can't wait to go out l8r... Following my relatives to all other peeps houses. But again... what can I do w/ em'? Mayb this year I'll play mahjong since I learnt like a few months ago... or mayb poker cards? Was online till 4am but nobody to chat w/ except lx and Kozaw but both of 'em wanna watch soccer so I went to watch lor but I fell asleep l8r... I think even before a first goal was scored? I can't rmbr. I didn't get enough sleep... But I dun give a damn.

Oh yeah... Valentine's Day is getting really close... 4 more days only!!! I still haven't confess to *her*. I dun want her to think tt I'm asking her be'cos ppl hv a date and I dun... But heard frm her friend tt she's nt +ve abt love and others wooing her too...!? Mayb I shld give up? Its like so out of reach... How on earth am I suppose to approach her? We don't even know each other well enough... I dun want to make situations awkward... *arghz*

I want you and your beautiful soul

| 12:17 PM


This goes out to my family, friends and relatives and *ahem. Oh well... you guys are stars of my life! Keep life rocking! Posted by Hello

Wednesday, February 09, 2005 | 1:25 AM

Happy Lunar New Year!

Woes aside... Sch was slack today! Had Civics where Ms Loh didn't bother us. She even chat w/ us abt our hp and stuff. Then we had Chemistry again w/ Ms Loh at Audi. She's rather pleased w/ the cohort's silence in e audi, reason being that there's hardly 1/2 of e Chem students turning up fr sch today. Then we had SPE where only abt 5 boys turned up?! Ran 2 rounds. Then we played bball. And I'm super shitty in it considering e fact tt I'm so tall but still hardly make any scores. But I don't play bball so its understood. Then went fr Bio. Mrs Gay lost her voice so we hv free period. Then I went w/ Pillai to get his long-awaited mahjong set. The aunty at e shop looked damn shocked when she knows tt its an Indian buying mahjong set and I was chuckling to myself. Yeh. Its very rare to see Indians play mahjong. I better brush up this CNY or else I might lose to Pillai. *laugh out loud* Aft tt took bus and saw Hong Yi saw we went back to PRCS tog. (I'm glad tt I'm taller than Hong Yi now.. rmbr sec 1 I'm so much shorter than him! I'm 181cm btw) =] At PRCS jus slack ard. Mst ppl left le cos all students *poof* when they're released. Then we went w/ Ms Chan to BK at dwntown east... she gave us all a treat and I enjoyed my food! YEH!!! Anyway I'm vegetarian so she can't buy much for me 'just' a Turnover, Fries, Sudae Pie and Coke. yeah.. 'JUST'! XD She was telling us she'l be leaving PRCS in June for Italy as her will be wking there for a year. Guess we'll all be missing her lots! Then me Gloria, Yao Sheng, Kenny Tan and Cheng Hsuan to Yao Sheng's place. We played mahjong. Correction... they played mahjong... I was sleeping. I don't know why but I don't feel like playing... as usual I had things going thru my mind. I'm nt going to say wad it is here. I went online in his hse but nt much ppl online also. Then came home and slacked again.

FINALLY. Reunion dinner came. Wooolala~! I know tt pple who knows me will never think tt I'm some greedy pig. But siriusly... I'm a pig. And I always fight w/ my fro over food. Of cos I win. Why? Cos I jus gotta say the magic words 'I need food to get fatter'. But aft so many war w/ my bro. I'm still as thin. Ok.. I'm nt thin I'm lean. XD As if. Dinner was fantastic. Dad and Mom talked to me with full attention fr once... and actually asked me abt JC life. Of cos I said it rox! ;) (Hey, I'm telling the truth!) Simply love Dad and Mom and bro to e core. I know my lil' bro look up to me but I feel tt I'm nt e role model fr him. Me being so pessimistic cld hv cause him to lower his morale. He knows my vulnerrable side and we're so close tt there's nth we can't tok abt... (even abt gals) ;) YEH! Tt's brotherhood, right? Simply can't imagine a life w/o my family! Oh yeh.. my bro jus officially started another war w/ me. Now we're deciding who gets more of the new yr goodies on e table. (Needless to say, I'll win again) XD Of cos I've tot of being only child b4 as I'll get showered w/ all e gifts and I get more $$$ also. But nth can be compared to having a gd ol' bro to tok and crap w/ everyday. And also all de childish fighting when we're younger... come to think of it... they're such fond memories... Yep... I love my bro! U've got a pbm!? Haha... crap... Cya soon.. I'm staying up all night. So its like I'm so damn bored... (luckily my bro there to fight w/ me over the cookies) XD Cya ard! Ciao!

Tuesday, February 08, 2005 | 6:24 PM

Many things to blog but doubt if I shld

The abv says it all. Yeh. Sometimes I wonder if I shld create a new blog. Yep. A private one. Cos sometimes there are many things close at heart that I fear blogging. An e.g wld be *ahem* I can't type out whatever tt happened in sch cos it will make it so obvious to *her* when she comes across my blog. And there are so many insults I want to throw out instead of keeping within me. But I can't esp names tt are mentioned nt too nicely. I won't want to imagine wad's gonna happen to me if I do so. Probably tt'll be my last entry... =X But its still rather 'safe' fr me to blog such stuff considering e fact tt less than a dozen ppl actually visit this blog. Did u notice me removing e counter thingy? Too embarrassed. Only 400+ ppl. Tt's like pathetic. Plus e fact tt my tagboard is jus an empty shell. Its nt empty. Its DEAD. Yeh its CNY and I'm nt suppose to use e word DEAD or swear in e hse but when such supressed feelings exceed my limit, what do u expect me to do?

Ok I'll place my head on e chopping board by typing an issue tt I've been keeping in my mind fr some time. Here goes. (If its repeated I apologise)

On some day, a dude who says he'd came to my blog before... and he told me he found me close to e OGLs based on my blog entries. (HAHA nt funny) I'm nt mocking him. Its jus tt yeh it looks like we're close lahz. Closer than u ppl cos I'm thick-skinned to actually go and talk to them. I'm serious. I enjoy being w/ them. But the thing is tt I hv this feeling tt I'm unwanted u know? Erm.. like my presence is a burden...? Like there's some mental barrier tt draws a clear line btwn us... Erm... NO.. its nt their fault but I can't seem to break thru the mental barrier. I know they'll jus tell me n to think too much. Mayb I've been bloggin' too many entries w/ e OGL's names and ppl start to think tt I'm some ass who just wants to show off that I'm close to e seniors. (HAHA nt funny) I'm just saying MAYBE.

Siriusly... its be'cos of e OGLs/seniors/friends tt keeps me bonded to TPJC. But look at this... the linkage is fading. Its to the pt where I wake up in e mornings nt my usual can't-wait-to-go-for-sch attitude but dragging myself attitude. Some fear is lurking in me and its the fear of awkwardness and social rejection. Put urself in my shoes. Its nt a gd feeling. How I got myself into such woes? I dun wanna back track... its mind-wrecking. It mst probably won't make sense to anyone but tt's how things are. And e 3 mths r ending soon. Shld I stay in TPJC is still a Qn I haven't ans. Its nt tt I'm some smart ass who can ezly get into TJ... if matters get worse I'll hv to go poly... Perhaps I'm jus sensitive or wadeva... I DO HOPE THIS WON'T AFFECT MY LIFE and may my social circle expand gradually with stability cos friends play an impt role in my life.

p.s. OGLs (u know who u dudes are) =] if u come across this entry, I'm sry to be so direct. Come and tell me off or smth but I dun wanna supress things in my mind/ in my heart and carry and extra weight ard... Thnx.

Monday, February 07, 2005 | 9:04 PM

My instincts are right!

Ok. To start off.. I'm really exhilarated! I'm happy. Soccer peeps are happy. We are all happy! YEAH! Soccer peeps hv shown their passion and capability on their match w/ Sr sec. sch. Yep! We won despite the other team playing dirty. Oh well... those peeps playing dirty... Let me say smth to you. YOU'RE AS LOUSY PLAYER. U KNOW WHAT'S SPORTSMANSHIP OR NOT U SHIT?! Hahax. Ok.. *GOAL*!!! *claps* Woolala~ I say TP u say goal! Friday's match will be against JJC... Pple, let ur passion flow man! We've got to show what we're made of! TPJCians are all up and ready to cheer for u all!

Hahaz! Tt's was me getting enthu. Wahahaz! Ok.. guess how I watched e soccer match? I pon Track today. Hahax! I skipped class deco thingy today too... *guilty*Hey 05s09... sry yeh? I didn't mean it.. I had this strong instinct tt TPJC's soccer gonna win today and I was all out to witness it myself! Anyway. The track teacher is so way cool! She actually asked us why we nv go trg today. Erm... in a very cheerful manner?! Cool~! I was ready to get some gd scolding which I didn't recieve... (dun get me wrong... I'm nt disappointed tt I didn't get scolded) =X

Didn't hv much lessons. Had GP in e morning. And fer e 1st time, I spoke daringly in front of my CG. Hahax... Be'cos we had our debate against s02. Its obvious we WON!!! WHAHAHX! The speaker frm propo team was saying tt Prostitution is a reason why women are more deadly. I was like '...'! WTH!? Aren't men e ones who also hv sex to lead to STDS? And prositution is an agreement of both sides so this can't prove tt famle species are more deadly. Furthermore, if I were to drop a nuclear bomb. It is instant death of millions of ppl at ONE shot. Definitely itys more deadly than prostitution what!? WTH! She still want to argue w/ me... ILLOGICAL lor... BEST SPEAKER some more. YUCKS...

Had chem test. Like I said.. I'm going to flung it. I'd flung it. HAHAX. Dunno what the hell the moly Qn asking la. Then I slept during Bio. and was caught (I think so) cos when I was woken by Mrs Gay rasing her voice. Very tired... Tmr will be half day but I feel like going out. Cos even if I go home there's like nth to do lor. Cos we only go out on 1st day mahz... Still no plans yet fr tmr. Wanted to go PRCS concert cos we all miss PRCS sooo much! But their concert starts at 10 but we only leave aft 10.20 lor. Grrr... Mayb we'll try to sneak out of sch tmr.

And yep. Got my wrist band frm lx in e morning. And my hair sux to e core... noob hair! Evertime also liddat de! My hair is stupidly thin... grrr... Ok... I'm jus wishing tmr can go back to PRCS and mayb got out somewhere lahz. I'm getting sick at home. No life liddat.

Saw *her* when I was watching soccer match. Hmmm... Dunno lahz.. I'm so easily distracted. =X But I dun think I'm gonna do anything w/ my hair in this shity conditions... it pisses me off so no nid to think of her rxn... *sighs*

Sunday, February 06, 2005 | 9:17 PM

There goes the weekend...

Went w/ Pillai ytd to MJC track to do our running. Not be'cos we're so enthu abt jogging... Its jus tt he wants to shake off some weight and I need to maintain in conditions for my track or my muscles will suffer during trg tmr. Wanted to call Cheng Hsuan but he was outside so only Pillai and me. Ran liek 6 rounds ard e track. Timing really doesn't matter cos we were practically talking while running so the timing is of cos like s***... There were soccer ppl there doing trg. Dunno if they're frm MJ but they're all Malays... nt sure la...

And tmr is my Chem test. And no need to guess also know that I'm going to flung this one. I totally dun noe what on earth moles is all abt lor. Mst of e tutorials is copy Shirlene's and when I look thru again they all like alien to me... I hate MOLES! So boring... wad's e point calculating them?! We are nt going to count the no. of moles of O2 entering our nostrils every sec right!? So lame! And then all e volumetric calc is also wasting all my time and brain juice. Hahax! I'm 100% sure tt tmr's test will be a flop. And no worries cos I sux totally in moles since sec 3 and I must sincerly thank GLow for all her lessons. She didn't even teach us anything abt moles! And this explains my 'foundation'. Wahahax!

Yea! CNY is coming! Nt b'cos of holiday la.. jus tt I can get hell outta my hse and its a gd feeling! Wooolala~! And of cos the food la.. HEY! Altho I vegetarian but I still eat a lot lor! I know all u can see me frm far is a tall stick.. but siriusly I eat A LOT!!! But how come I'm still so thin?! Don't ask me why... must be H. metabolism rate la...

Oh yep. I had a haircut today and I am so TOTALLY AGREE with what Kenny [TPJC] says of falling asleep when the hairdresser is sniping away... I actually caused to her to re-cut my head all over which explains why my hair is soooooooo damn short. I've got this noob hair look now... Grrr! CNY's liek a few more days!? And how am I suppose to see my cousins like tt!? And if *she* sees me in this freakin' hair... I hope she wun start laughing la... I wldn't want to picture tt... OH GAWD!!! Can't I be born w/ perfectly str8 hair. I SO HATE WAVY HAIR!!! Yucks...

Ok.. I need to get a gd sleep... so I won't have eye bags! Track trg tmr (again!)at 4.30 and soccer hving match at 5! Why must our times clash!? I'm so enjoying soccer matches then I dun get the opportunity... WTH! Feel like pon teng-ing track... But match held in TPJC so I can't possibly watch them while the track ppl are running right in front of me right!? *sianz* Ok... I seem to hv more substance to blog this few days.. wahahax! Dunno lahz.. Life is actually interesting... its jus that I spend mst of my time rotting ifo the computer which according to researchers, is unhealthy! Ok, I'll cut my crap... ciao! Sweet dreams! *prays tt tmr's trg wun kill me*

| 3:45 AM

What the heck...

I was dc at like 1 plus?! And that was like when I'm chatting with Lx and Crystal?! And then f*** came the stupid virus. What on earth got my PC got to do w/ u viruses?! I've been attacked like dunno how many f***-ing times. I wonder which web pg it was tt I went to... It can't be the music tt I download cos I'm super careful when I do such 'legal' stuff. Or is it my bro!? He's like downloading more stuff than me at such a young age! (yep I think I've influenced him a way lot) Now is like few more minutes to 4am. WTH!!! When I got the virus I sms-ed Crys and Lx immediately saying I'll get back asap. And so now I'm typing my blog. I dun hv to say why right? Its so obvious... They've had enuff... Hahax! They're in their sweet dreams already... And I'm here alone online!? NO.. I dun balme anyone... I blame the bloody virus! I'm going to get a filthy good anti-virus software! (I'm aware tt filthy and good doesn't come together) =] Wahaha! But I'm really pissed! I've got this PC formatted for e 3rd time w/in a week!!! *sighs*

And yep... I was jus thinking.. wad if I'm rejected by *her*? Wad if she has someone else in her eyes/mind? What if she leaves aft e 3 mths? Wad if she finds me boring? Wad if I'm unable to shower her w/ gifts like mst rich guys do all e time? Wad if I'm jus making a fool of myself? Erm tt's a lot of 'wad if'! Oh well... I dun want to get mushy but I seriously love ya... mayb time has got to warm things up a lil'? I guess the reason I dare to type this out is tt u're offline and its in e morning and my brains are a bit off... I hv this feeling tt u cld hv stumbled on my blog... I dunno... wad if u've been reading and u noticed u're the one? Awww... I hope u won't faint... XD Gr8 I've still got my sense of humour... WahahahaZ! I gotta get some sleep so tt if any of e soccer peeps call me out tmr (or rather today) I'll be prepared to get the hell outta my hse... YEP! Bye!

Saturday, February 05, 2005 | 7:03 PM

Weekend like a log.....

Sitting in front of the PC for 10hrs plus is like so damn boring. Can't wait to get out of e hse. The weekend's so DEAD! I dun seems to be hearing anything frm my friends...? So bored. And oh yep! Friendship week's coming! And I guess I'll be busy soon. I dun wanna let the cat out of the bag but if u dun get me wishing u happy friendship week to you... erm.. dun blame me... my list right now has 200 over ppl and I wonder what i shld do for this 200 over close friends of my life. Play pranks? I wun mind a single bit! But 100 over pranks is like so much for me to plan right and some more I can't tell 200 over jokes like Kozaw what... even if I try.. if wld nt be e same standard as his... too gd and they're all 5* jokes! hahax!

And yep.. Valentine's in friendship week as well... I'd better do smth before *she*'s dated by someone else. But I'm so shy... how am I suppose to tell her. Plus e fact that I dun think I'm of her standards... omg.. my heart's melting! Can't she stop smiling all the time... *blushes* =X

| 5:27 PM

Boulevard of Broken Dreams~ Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Friday, February 04, 2005 | 10:13 PM

Still-burning-passion...

Yep yep! Had Track trg or u call it running... Finally! I'm nt last in short D! Btw... the relief 'coach' told us to call it 'sprints' erm so I'm a sprinter?! Sounds so cool... wahahax! Had sort-of-intensive-er trg today. Was totally shag aft trg. We ran like 10x of 120m... then 4x of 150m... It sounds so much esp for sprinters but I think our warm-up was so intensive so we were a lil more prepared during the runs... Hahax... I didn't come in last lor! I wasn't first either cos I saved up my 'energy' so I can maintain thruout our not-so-friendly trg. I really felt like giving up towards the end cos I was really nt gd enuff for long sprints cos I can't maintain tt long. Fast I am but nt for long... *sigh*

But when I saw e soccer dudes ar.. I suddenly felt u know... so small... And their trg is like way more tougher? I don't know abt intensity but I think its as bad la. Then saw the seasports ppl trg also lor. They doing long runs as usual... its harsh at seasports la.. run le still nt enuff... got all kinds of wired workouts. *phew* I quit in time. I can't do much than runs and racket games only... aft Tracks took bus home w/ Patrick and Qi Xiang. On e bus jus crap ard... can't rmbr wad we said also... then went to interchange to get my concession card activated again. Strolled in WS ALONE... so sad... Actually NO... I'm nt feeling lonely.. jus tt I had lots of tots running thru my mind (as usual). Saw Shi Han and Alex Lee... but they were across the other side so I too lazy to walk up to them. Just waved and cont sipping on my drink.

Toking abt drinks... Everytime track is over I'll spend more than $3 on drinks... Cos I can't stop! So damn thristy! And what pushes me so hard during the trg is my mind thinking of WATER!!! So I just kept running and running! Geez... My blog got lots of linkage... Tokin' abt WATER... I jus tot of today's Bio test. I was saying I'm going to flung it ytd... and YES! I offcially announce tt I'm flung-ing it! WTH! The asked such a dumb Qn: Newspaper helps to dry e wet floor quickly or smth liddat de la... I left that entire Qn BLANK... 4marks return to Mrs Gay. Hope she wun faint when she sees my paper. I wrote only like less than 100 words in the whole Bio test which has 8m and 4m Qns... Hahax. Hope I wun be e last in class! I did study la. Last night I studied btwn 11.30 to 12.00.. erm actually I only highlighted some papers on WATER before I started feeling tired and slept. Wahahax... okay CUT! Nth abt test.. can't stand it!

I was feeling sort of bad.. sort of extra.. sort of feared... Cos I think I'm disturbing my OGLs and many peeps when I chat w/ them almost every evening... Don't know why.. but I can sense tt I'm nt so welcomed? Or am I over-sensitive again? I feel like I'm some freak whose got nth better to do (dun u agree?). Well, I'm expanding my circle of friends but maybe its not such a gd idea la. Or my way is wrong? Don't know... But seriously wanna know u peeps feedback... cos I know u can't tell it into my face 'GET LOST! We dun want u poking into our bzness!' Who will do tt? Hahax... (ok nt funny) If I'm ever so disturbing or harrasing I beg ur forgiveness yeh? Tt's abt all.. I'l blog soon again lor.. ciao!

Thursday, February 03, 2005 | 8:15 PM

Shld I return?

Yeh, I've been pondering. A long time. Shld I return to track? My passion is all there... to run and run and run. But I fear the trg. I admit I'm not the kind of strong-willed peron that dun give up ezly... face their fears and stuff. But I feel guilty if I dun run. And my mind wouldn't rest until I've done my best which I know I've yet to be. The track field seems so tempting. I'm serious (sirius)... So now its passion VS fear. And I haven't made up my mind...

Had boring periods of tutorials. Was told by my Math teacher tt I can actually drop Math and take Econs. But I've nv heard of such cases before... but the consequence is tt I can only take Medicine in the U... erm which is exactly what I want (duh). hahax... But this will all apply only if I make it aft Os la... Results coming out soon.. *scary* Anyway, had 2 damn periods of MT which I found myself a nice seat beside the door at the back. Almost all e dudes in e back row slept. INCLUDING me. Except the fact tt I hid behind my file with my earphones plugged in and slept. Wahahax... I think e teacher understands tt his lesson is so damn boring so he didn't really stop us. Cool! Was very tired thruout e lectures and tutorials. So BORING.

But aft sch... I went to e library with Bong and Jin Rong. Was lazing ard when I ran into Chiam, Jeffery and Amanda. YEah... So we went to the tennis court and wacked the tennis balls. Literally.. me and Jeff are aliens on the Tennis court. Chaim and Amanda are like *woah* compared to us. And I totally can't believe tt I served like shit. Hahax... then Claudine and Marisa came... along with some other ppl... Me and Jeff went to squash court and he taught me some squash thingy... Ok la.. I wld say I better in squash... cos in less than 10mins I got hold of the game and was still alive. But I really want to join Tennis la... Mayb if I play more w/ Chaim, Marisa and Claudine in fututre... I might get in thru e trials during 2nd intake. Tt sounds pretty impossible. My gd 'ol peeps sms me today for Mahjong... hahax... (I actually know how to play) but was having Tennis la... So can't go join them... awww...

Very bored today... still got test tmr. BIOLOGY... wth! I haven't even study la... And I'm like here blogging?! And I'm prepared to flung it lor. Cos its like on WATER... and we hv no notes provided!? How to study? And I'm so lazy to make my own notes due to preparation fr road run which happened to be a disappointment all thanks to my ego and some serious shit mistakes... And yep.. I hv yet to get an MP3 player... bringing discman to sch is such a pain... The discman so big and so bulky... and it doesn't fit into a pocket!!! Guess I'll hv to stick w/ e this lame discman for e time being... *sighs*

And yeh.. my OGLs Aloy and Hong Peng did well in the road run. CONGRATS! Qi Xiang, Patrick, Crystal and Chai Yun... yep! Well done ppl. So sad I can only clap for u all la... Hahax... but this is psychological support isn't it?! Nxt yr's road run won'y hv e seniors ard... and I'll miss all of em' lor. Ai ya... this blog getting more crappy. Gotta blast! BYE!