Monday, January 31, 2005 | 10:08 PM

Wah liao... I sissy meh!?

WTF... was abt to go for Track at ECP when this gal said I look familiar... then I was like OG Sirius? She didn't reply tt Qn but jus said tt she rmbr me as someone sissy. WTF! I was so f***ed up lor... My 1st impression really so terrible mehz!? Seriously, I was worse last time in sec sch lor... But she so str8 forward sia.. Make my confidence so low liao... Sometimes I feel really lost lor. Its like I dunno where I stand.. where I belong. Or do I even exist?! *sighs*

And today's run at ECP is like S***. I started off fine la... then at e turning point I feel very tired liao... then the leg like want to cramp liddat. And I can feel diarrhoea coming aft me. So in the end I spent some time walking... My timing is so pathetic lor... I'm not going to announce it here la. Later ppl laugh until their computer screen shatter lor. Hahax... Its really bad! SERIOUS!

On a lighter note (doesn't this sound so ever familiar?) I was so surprised to find (Raffles) Qi Xiang frm Track frm my primary sch! OMG! We're even frm the same class... wad a small wld we live in! Hahax! Can't believe it... he's so lucky to get into RI... Today's a slack day w/ a slack timetable... and tt's a gd thing. 12.50 sch end lor. SO SHIOK! I'm so lazy during Math.. cos until now I still dun understand a single thing on Binomial thm. Was tokin during Math cos there's no nid to listen to the teacher when I totally dun noe the basics lahs.. But then I think I'll go find the cher soon la. SOON is like dunno how long... HAHAx...

All in all.. today was an ok day... and yeh was staring at her lo... But she didn't notice it. I don't know if I shld take the next step... I dun feel I'm up to her standards... *sighs* =X

Sunday, January 30, 2005 | 10:51 PM

Aching!

Didn't do much today. Just slacked. Woke up at 11. Did some blog hop. Then didn't know how time pass so fast 4'o clock came and Kenny Tan sms me fr mJ at 5.30. As usual I was late. Grrr... when will I ever be early? It seems that I'm now only early for school in e morning... *bites tongue*

Wanted to go WS to return my loooong-overdue book and also to get the wrist band which seems to worn by almost all my OGLs... Yun Fang called to tell me it can be bot at WS. But when 5.30 came, I was still in e toilet washing myself. So decieded to go tmr la... anyway I dunno if I wear the wrist band I'll look normal or not. Whahahaz... Anyway... I already so the not-gd-lookin' already.. add smth on won't make any difference la.. =]

Anyway... My legs HURT LIKE SHIT! My muscles ache like WTF and I can't stand it anymore... Tmr still got Track CCA at ECP... I hope we jus do 5km once and for all instead of me sprinting up and dwn in sch's track... That hurts lor. My muscles and lungs ands all! *ouch* Nvm.. I shall endure la... Or else I so slow ar.. dunno lx, Aloy, KZ and Kenny ar.. dunno what they'll think of me... Maybe think I'm some feeble dude... =X Ai ya.. aft road run event then I study la.. Now I jus want to slack. I know I said I will study aft this and aft tt *oops* but I can't help it la... l8r my nxt excuse will be aft CNY then aft Valentine's then aft blah blah.. etc. XD

And yeh... I dun noe if *she* is e one... Guess I fear rejection... Its been so long tt this has happened... Oh shucks... I'm seriously very uncertain now... =X

| 1:18 AM

*Wad's better than hanging out w/ friends?!*

Wooolala! Went to collect my scholarship. Stupid la.. Sit there so long only get $300.. so pathetic... some more I quite late then go.. so I was e last few to get my cheque. When I went up e stage, the floor nobody left la. Wad the hell. Then because of this I was late for my meeting time w/ Marisa and her gal friend. I feel so bad la... Cos I caused her to miss a bit of the the soccer match la.

Although our soccer dudes didn't beat VS but who cares! True sporstmanship is about ur passion, ur spirit and ur attitude. Erm.. but it was a bit wierd at first esp during the soccer match la. When I reach there I expected like all guys and all are cheering or smth. BUT
I saw girls only la. That makes me the only guy there. Was so shocked! Since only gals ar.. I couldn't start shouting across the field to call 'em to 'jia you' mahz. I was soooooooo tempted to shout and clap and jump all over the place... but then gals there so I reamain composed.
I saw the match... then the pple there really VERY tall compared to our players lo. But still our players showcased sportsmanship and tt's way cooler than anything else!

Oh yeah aft the match we went out to Parkway for dinner. Ok. let me test my memory... The peeps are Aloysius, Lxnder, Marcus, KoZaw, Daniel, Kenny, Claudine, Marisa, Crystal (tennis) and 2 other gals. Oh I ddin't recall all names. And tt's bad memory.. lolz! Anyway saw Michelle w/ her ex-classmates. Then we were eating at BK... toked a lot. And Kenny lor. He shld prepare speech nxt time la.. like plan no.1 and then must have backup plan mahz. Dun tell me u nt experienced wor... jkjk! Then we crap ard lor. And jus tok non-stop. The dudes were teasing Dan and KZ la.

Siriusly, u pple are the most hip grp of hangout I have and am going to have man! And Ken.. I'll support u de... dun be shy la... jus do mind map before u approach ur *ahem* nxt time. XD I tot I more shy than u de?! Hw come u trying to snatch my status is it?! Then on bus we tok tok tok tok tok again. Non-stop la. Wahahaz... They made me come home wanna do one thing. Drink water. Hey I know I win e mst quiet award for the evening la. But I siriusly very de thirsty la.

Then alighted same stop as Lx.. sort of know him better cos we like tok tok a bit. OK.. this is e first time I feel tt his nt as cold as he was on MSN.. *chuckles* Wah... Lx read this sure come tell me off de... wahahaz... tt's wad my blog is for mahz... Oh yeah... I wanna thank u all for making this evening so wonderful for me ya!? And I was prompted by KoZaw and Lx and Aloy why I'm so quiet many times... Well all I've got to say is that... 'e egg nt yet fry finish u want to eat' Whahahaz.. I'm crapping! Means I dun noe what to say and I need to warm up 1st mahz... but when we all on e way home then I warmed up la.. So its very slow la. Erm... nxt time la.. I promise I'll be a chatterbox until u all get scared of me la? Wahahahz.. tt's rather immpossible.. Lolx! Again... thanks peeps for including me tonight and I enjoyed myself. Thanks!

Saturday, January 29, 2005 | 2:20 PM

Running into a bottomless pit...

Had a sort of bad day ytd. 4 periods of Chem followed by 3 periods of Bio. I died-ed during Bio lecture. So bored. I dun like the chapter on Cells. Nth to learn so far. Went to try out tracks ytd. Was in the long D group for 2x800m before I gave up when I was the last for both times. *sighs* I'm very slow la.. Then I got myself transferred to short D... Wasn't last there =p But it sure is scary lor. I had to sprint so much just to make sure I'm not last... Furthermore I recover very slowly frm breathlessness so when the nxt run follows up.. I still feel very tired... In the long D, I saw ppl running like wind lor. Not human sia... So fast! When I saw them.. I was really not in the mood to think abt how badly I would do for road run liaoz... I dun even think of top 30.. jus thinking of not to be last 30. Very scary. I mean it. I've never seen anyone that fast. Imagine my timing for 9+ rounds is their timing for 12.5 rounds... *scary*

Oh well. I'm goin to VS l8r to root for e soccer dudes.. yeah! Jus give support lor. Tt's e best I can do. Aft all... u can't imagine me kicking a soccer ball... Wahahahx! And yeah.. I gotta collect my scholarship l8r. I only found out aft James called me. My envelope already got dust already. Some much things to buy...so little money. Hahax... I want MP3... new PC.. new HP... new clothes... new look XD...

Yeah.. today's Matt's B'dae. Hapy Birthday.. Altho I doubt if u ever enter my blog... cos its sort of empty in my tag board huh!? But anyway... its gd tt its a Saturday today. I need to complete break! Yeh! Legs pain like shit now... Hope I can make it for tracks trip to ECP and trg there. Cos my legs really tahan too much intensive trg le. Erm.. l8r update wad happened at e match IF I can make it. Yeh.. see ya ard! Bye!

Friday, January 28, 2005 | 11:59 PM

*Dejected*

Sry abt my previous entry. Tt's exactly what I felt during Bio. I was feeling sort of dejected lor. And all I wanted was a break. I felt like breaking dwn. Maybe my friendship base not strong or large enough. I dunno. I'm so sick. I'm starting to doubt my abilities. And my presence in sch. Like do I ever exist in pple's eyes. I feel like a soul tt has lost its directions. Just drifting aimlessly. I dunno.. Maybe u've got the clues to my ans. I dunno. I really dunno. I feel very wierd. I feel that I'm at fault. I feel that I'm nt doing enough. I feel that... *sighs*

| 11:45 PM

LOST

Lose-Losing-Lost
Lousy-Lousying-Lousied
Sad-Saddening-Saddened
Dwon-Downing-Downed
Out-Outting-Outted
Off-Offing-Offed
Reject-Rejecting-Rejected
Break-Breaking-Brooken
Slow-Slowing-Slowed
Die-Dying-Died-Died-ED

I actually wrote this blog during Bio lecture. Yeh, I admit I wasn't paying any attention at all. I was jus well.. LOST. Witnessed Matt being 'b'dae-bashed' by his clique of friends. Erm.. I won't say its dirty or sticky to have those creamy thingy all over u. But seriously, when its one's b'dae... U won't mind. AT ALL.

Sigh.. I'm still ME. I had hardly changed much. Except tt I'm not so... u know...
But life's just ain't fair.
Maybe my efforts are all fake hope.
I feel like an angel in HELL.
I want to escape. I can't.
I want to run. I can't
I want heaven but its never here. I
'm still like stuck in hell.
Life is never fair. NEVER.
I feel like an drifting soul. Aimless.
Nobody sees me. I'm a nobody.
Jus feel like running forever.
Until I break dwn and die. DIE.
Dun feel like smiling at all.
Dun feel like living.
Dun feel like myself and dun wanna ponder abt it. S
uddenly all hopes seem to w/draw themselves 2 leaps bkward...
All's gone. LOST.

| 1:40 PM

Ocean's Avenue by Yellow Card
(copied this idea frm Lx... but think he won't mind one la hor? Sry man...) =]

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16
And it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18And it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now
Things would get better
We would leave this town
And run forever
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea

Theres a piece of you that's here with me
Its everywhere I go
It's everything I see
When I sleep
I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now
Things would get better
We would leave this town
And run foreverI know some where, some how
We'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea

I remember that look in your eyes
When I told you this was good bye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here
Not now

When looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Some where
Some how

If I could find you now
Things would get better
We would leave this town
And run foreverI know some where, some how
We'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me
And take me away, yea

Thursday, January 27, 2005 | 9:26 PM

*Full of thoughts*

Thursay: Nt exactly a day to look forward to since its like my mst un-slack day... Morning's Bio lecture I fell asleep half way. Was talking abt Cell bio techniques which I totally dismissed and went str8 into dreams. Then had GP... I didn't know we really having the debate today! Was such a lousy speaker today! All my stuff was provided my Collen (and I'm sure gr8ful for tt)! Plus I had so much to rebut BUT didn't know can rebut so all tt I wrote dwn for rebuttal was a waste. Lolx. I'm such a clown. Then I wasn't chosen to rep class which I'm gr8ful for too... Cos imagine me debating... surely other team will listen until slp de. Wahahax!

PW was free period. Sticked ard w/ 05s09 then went w/ Jin Rong, Yong Bing and Alfred to library to jus walk ard. Then played poker cards b4 heading for Math tutorial. I almost slept. I totally dun noe binomial like NUTS lor... I jus sat there and listen and try try try to listen to wad Mr Tan was teaching. Then Bio tutorial was another free period which I napped. Hahax... COs Mrs Gay brot some ppl to Biopolis and I had a gd sleep there. MT was damn boring. Can't believe so many mths nv touch CL I still can do 'zhao ju'! What a joke... Then went home ALONE =[ Sighs. Slacked at home and do a bit of Chem tutorial which I still haven't complete. YIKES. Ms Loh may look young and hip but when she starts nagging.. she more scary than the DM sia... I dun dare to be late again... l8r kena demerit or blacklisted... *scary*

Went w/ mom to central to choose new specs. YEAH! This one's cool! So much better than my current one. Nt as 'toot' I wld say. Hahax! My eyesight's getting worse. I think must be all de blogging and MSN-ing lahz.

Anyway, I found out smth today. That is, every morning I wake up w/ a new found energy. I don't slack in bed or hv the dun-wanna-go-sch feeling. This is b'cos I've got all de friends ard me and their spirit burns in me every morning. I wake up thinking of 'em and before I doze off at nights I'll be thinking of all of 'em too. Be it PRCS peeps, OGLs/seniors, 05S09 peeps or even pple I dunno well enuff... I feel tt its u ppl that brings out wad's me. Altho I shy away mst of e times and dun really tok in sch tt much. But well... U ppl rock my life and I ain't gonna forget any of u... and yes u reading this entry now.. U r included so dun worry.. wahahax!

Is this entry long enuff?

And oh yeh, I was blog hoppin' n read tt lx might nt need to leave us aft all... Yeah! I know 'us' this term nt appropriate for use yet but I hope it'l be a term I use in future w/ u ppl. And yeh... I HAD hated soccer for like my 16 years of life...? Nv expected TPJC soccer spirit to make me enjoy it (altho nt playing it myself) but still e impact is fantastic. So, u soccer dudes do ur stuff and show whu u really are in ur nxt match, k? I know I can't do much but I hope this entry makes u guys feel better. Yeh.. I think enuff fr this entry le. Gd luck ppl! And rmbr u all rawks! =]

Wednesday, January 26, 2005 | 10:50 PM

Maybe... I'm just...

• too self conscious
• underestimating
• overestimating
• sensitive
• worrying too much
• fearing rejection
• afraid to lose what I'll be getting
• indecisive
• not tt worthy... *sigh*

Thinking abt this makes me want to run and never stop.. and just hide myself frm everybody. This feeling sux.

| 10:22 PM

Yeh... this pic at PR park. I know nt very clear la. Cos its hp cam mahz.. wad to expect? =X Beautiful, ain't it? 

| 8:23 PM

I'm at snail speed!

WTH. Horrigible day. Ran a total of 20 rounds of e sch track today. Am wiped out. All over aching. Don't really feel gd. Had SPE but ran 8 rounds. I came back first. *wAhZ* Miracle. Hahax. Nt really. Altho my own trg did a lot in my current 'status', nevertheless... there were only like 19 ppl. Somemore e person behind is like rather near me altho nt directly behind lah. But 1st so what.. my timing still like shit. I'm really at snail speed. Not tt I don;t hv the breath... but my muscles simply can't hold it any longer. Xing Qi and Crystal sugeested since I have such loooooooong legs. Bt its not going to help.. cos I'ld be using lots of energy lifting up the foot. Which is like a waste of energy.

Aft sch, went to library alone... *sigh*. Alle rest got CCA or went home le.. so I had to go to lib alone but there's like no one there. I was abt to fall asleep when Aloy's sms came. Then rmbr tt was suppose to go trg w/ him and some other dudes... BUT then when I went there he said nt running already cos they ran 10 rounds during PE. Don't blame them cos if I ran 10 rounds one shot sure faint de. So I'm left w/ Matt to train w/. I sort-of-train w/ him. Cos when I was running 1/2 way he disappeared. Then l8r he still running I stop and disapperared fr a looong time. Ran 6+6 rounds... so tt's 12. Wahz. My whole body is aching like shit now. Saw e track ppl. I think I won't make it for RR lor. They so damn fast lor. Soccer and seasports also super flash by kinda thing. Sometimes I tot to myself wad if I don't achieve it? Or rather 'mst probably I won't achieve anything frm this'... I don't know... Sigh.

Wanted 2 'socialise' w/ Lx on e bus BUT it was no.12 so its super crowded so e back seats all taken plus I stood throughout e trip. Hahax... lx ar.. u sleep on e bus v funny. Jkjk. I suppose u shld nt sleep on e bus lar... and BTW u got internal sensor is it... when reaching sch u auto wake up... wahahax!!! Anyway was rather surprised.. my aunt bot me this new shirt frm Giordano... and its way cool lehz... at least it looks gd on me... lolx.

| 1:01 AM

I feel worse than shit now...

I feel like a cow dung... seriously dun feel like blogging.. went back to PRCS today. Was missing it soo much. I was cushioned there too much. Now I can't do it all alone. SIGHS...

Amongst the crowd I feel like an extra.. I too tall? Maybe... Too tall like so obiang liddat... *sick* Gd thing will be tt I ran much better today for PE... 2 rounds ard sch w/ e up slope and dwn slope plus one round of e track. I came in 4th. But 3rd was like so far frm me... and 5th also... Hahaz... But well.. liddat hor I sure lose out in e big thing lor... Dunno lar.. I very sianz..

VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED... I dun wanna say wad but u shld be able to see what I mean frm previous entries... SIGH!

Monday, January 24, 2005 | 11:31 PM

I'm not sure of my next step... =[

I consider myself rather close to my OGLs... Perhaps nt tt close but at least a level closer than other OGMs? I think I must thank MSN lorz. Cos personally I don't talk to them much face to face. *sighs* Maybe a HI in e mornings is easy to come by. But to fully interact and talk like nobody's business... Hahaz... I'm afraid its nt an ez task to accomplish but I suppose I'll wk towards tt.

Yeh... nt tt I dun wanna know e J1 cohort but ppl of e same age get tog way more ezly so I dun hv to put in any effort to socialise mahz... I don't know if I'll be able to finalise this task. Lolx. But really.. its impt to build a gd freindship base... Cos knowing more ppl in sch wld make every wake in e morning more pleasant. U look forward to sch. Every few steps u come across a friend of urs. This feeling is gd. And I long for it. But it will be a long way before I achieve it lor. Not tt I'm anti-social... I can't say I'm un-shy right... Well... Irony here. Its confusing la. I don't know how to put it in words but what I feel is that I've got this burning desire to know all of them... not just superficially but more internally lor. I suppose I sound like a maniac... =X But this is it lor. Not easy task to me...

Yeh, like I told Lx tt I saw him on e bus but I hv no absolutely no idea what to talk even if I'm to sit w/ him. Hey's tt's a dude there... Wad if its a gal.. wah... I'll BLUSH until my fact can be placed on S'pore's flag... Wahaha... Lx said shld I feel like sitting w/ him then *just jus do it* Wahaha... Easier said than done. Hey, u jus gotta sit there. I move my butt there and sit dwn... I feel like I so thick-skinned liddat... But I guess being thick-skinned wld be e ffirst step to socialising... BUT again I'm self-conscious... so It'll be hard to make the first step lorz... Wahz. I guess u guys gotta help me man... or else u all graduate liaoz... I think I still only know ur names only. That... will be e joke of the century. And I"ll be the clown of tt joke. =[ *sad* What to do... wad to do... SIGH... Its sort of like peer pressure but its not negative and its more like my part of this whole thing. Eeeeeeew... I'm so not good at socialising... Awww...

Lessons as usual. Mrs Gay announced tt she'll leave aft wk 5 cos she got some course thingy. OMG. The class was like awww... so sad. We mean it. No sarcasm. She was a really fantastic teacher. No pressure frm her and she take us as independent learners. Tt's like so COOL! She wants us to sms her when ur results are out in end of Feb whether we are staying in TPJC... Hahaz... I can tell her now tt I'M STAYING. The OGLs did a gr8 job in making us feel home here... right SIRIUS?!!! Kewl...

Had GP.. suppose to do debate w/in e class. Wad de... I'm one of e speaker. Gd luck to me man. I hope I dun make a mess outta it. Math was like s***. I dun understand like 70% of e lecture. SiCk... Chem also lor.. 1/2 e time I was jus copying frm Sherline or frm e whiteboard. Wahahaz... damn slack. Until now still haven't do my water notes or read up on Bio. But 1st 3 mths mahz.. so enjoy lor. I dun wanna become like nerd nerd liddat. No life sia... And to those nerds... pls dun spoil the zest of life here in TPJC... (wahahaz... I think I can remove myself frm the 'toot-toot' list... wahahaz...).

Went w/ Mastura, Yun Fang, Adeline and Pillai to PR park. Wanted to jog but in e end I'm e only one doing e running. But my calves giving me e pain so I had to stop... mus be insuff strectching again! Took some pics of the beach... woah.. so shiok sia.. e wind in e hair... and feel the salty air... Hahaz... Basically tt's wad tt run thru my mind. Rather complicated. I dun even know what I shld do on e bus tmr. Dun tok is like so proud... talk? Then also dunno what I can say... sigh! Argh.. *cOmPlIcAtEd*

Sunday, January 23, 2005 | 10:19 PM

I'm a Pirate...

Yeah... tt's wad Mr Lx called me when I help to him dl some songs... Wad de... Some way to thank me hor! Wahahaz... Yeah, I'm back to my usual crapping self. Kekez... Lolx. I'm more optmistic now compared to what I was ytd. I guess the news was too startling for me as I can't bear to lose ppl tt I know.. Had a friend frm Cambodia who left us last year in Term One.

Well, now e sort of bad news have settled in and I guess I just have to appreciate and treasure all e times together. I know frm date till April is only a short time... but I guess I've gotta know ya better right, lx? Wahahhaz... Not just you la.. including Aloy, KoZaw, Hong Peng, Matthew, Kenny, Daniel (who's this dude?) blah blah... Yeah... I've got to manage my time well to do so I guess... But all da time's worth it cos u ppl rox man...

Yeah... Didn't do much today... only went out to Central... I didn't do my jog!!! Argh... Crystal said tt maybe I shld break for a day since my legs hurt like s*** and I was in so much f*** pain lor... WTH... I only nv do stretching mahz... stupid legs. Grrr... And my timing is like WTH lor... So damn slow... altho better than my sec sch yrs but I think I'll be last 30 in Road Run if this goes on... wahahahaz...

Slacked today. Was supposed to read up on Water (which is like one week expired since Mrs Gay hv finished it). I think I'm e slackest in 05S09 liaoz... So embarrassing! *Sigh* Erm... Gotta slp now.. Or I'll be late again tmr... YIKES.

| 8:58 PM

My youngest Aussie niece... sooooo cute!!! 

| 8:44 PM

My Aussie nephew... so cute right?! I think he's trying to kiss my phone when I took his pic. Wahaha! 

| 8:42 PM

My Aussie niece... only 7 yrs old so gd at posing... Haha... No la she was watching TV when I took her photo. 

| 8:40 PM

Tt was e bonfire during orientation night. And e 3 pple there are OGL claudine, Aloy, and Hong Peng. Guess I'm gd at recognising pple even if there's only hair tt I can see. Wahaha! 

Saturday, January 22, 2005 | 12:58 AM

*Overwhelmed* Dedicated to Alex

If u were in my shoes, you'll be darn sad. DARN DARN sad. I feel terrible and guilty. I was very happy when I read from Aloysius' blog that Alex is starting to blog again. I feel so cos' I persuaded him to do bloggin cos 'when he leaves us one day we'll be able to capture all e memories and times together'. That was roughly how I persuaded him lor. But tt was before any of us including him knows tt he can't stay till his As and instead got to leave ard April. This is super saddening lor...

Somehow inside me I felt tt if I didn't say tt to him such a thing won't so 'coincidentally' happen le. To put it bluntly, I felt guilty. Besides tt, I happen to take same bus as him in the mornings BUT I've never spoke a word despite knowing he's an OGL of Sirius. Only had several chat sessions w/ him on MSN. I think my shy nature really break me frm my social circle be it female or male. It sucks.

Before I know Lx, I feared one thing. That is, he'll be in another scenario like KoZaw as I hate it when I get to know someone and sadly he/she has to leave one day and god-knows-when then return. Its pain-staking. Well, tt time he only told me tt he'll nt return to Indonesia or smth liddat. I was relieved cos I dun want to see friends leaving... going away... BUT now the fear has rised. His blog resseructed, our fears resseructed. Ironic. Guilty. *sighs* Mst of us(OGMs) barely know him but we already feel so lost. I wonder how the OGLs cope w/ this indespicable fact. Gals, u can weep it all out. Guys I dunno, cos its nt right to cry out loud... even if u try u won't. The most u'll feel LOST and DOWN...

Lx, I sincerly hope u will stay. I mean my words. Its not easy for us to forget u or even live w/ ur absence. So, if there's a possibility u must try to stay. Imagine how ur CG mates will feel w/ tt empty seat in class... tt empty column in the namelist... how ur soccer dudes will feel w/ u missing frm e usual hangout... how SIRIUS will feel w/o this OGL? How all of us will feel w/ u missing in action!? I know I've got u to cont ur blog but I doubt if I can persuade you to stay on. But (touchwood) if u got to go, I wish you all the best and DO visit us whenever possible. We'll keep in touch ya? I hope I'm nt giving u any pressure tho.

P.s. If u've realised there's no 'wahahaha', 'kekez', 'lolx' or 'heeheez' in this entry. Its on a very sombre note. And I hope all of us realise this fact. Siriusly, I'm on the verge of weeping... :(

Friday, January 21, 2005 | 1:54 AM

*Life jus gets better every second!*

Was very slack today. I mean damn slack! Woke up in the morning at ard 8.30 despite e fact tt I slept at 3.30am... All thanks to e darn fan. Its blasting all e wind at me and I was awoken by it... Then with a kick frm my toe, I got the PC switched on. And I was then on MSN till late afternoon... like 4 plus?

I didn't touch my tutorials AT ALL. Firstly, seniors of TPJC... do we need to do them? I mean we don't have to hand in tutorials right? I'm just nt into doing those tutorials. Sooo many Qns and some of them are alien to me. I DID try out some Qns frm Math but u know, my Math is 'perfect' so I got stuck somewhere and gave up! Wahahahax! Sometimes slacking is a way of relaxing... Destresses you in an instant! =X

Went for a session of table-tennis w/ Cheng Hsuan, Kenny and Yao Sheng. We didn't really play like the usual violent and aggresive strokes cos' more than half e time was spent on updating ourselves on each others' life... Well, Yao Sheng got a new phone. *Congratz* You know why? Cos' he wanted to change phone since sec3 lorz... and had been telling us he'll be getting this and that... but now, alas! He got his phone. The stylish design's way cool... u know e N7260? Too bad tt model doesn't hv gd camera quality.

BTW we went for a jog at the park near White Sands aft Table-tennis. Or rather I went for a jog cos YS and CH were strolling while Kenny cycled behind me real slowly. Only ran less than 1.6km according to Kenny. Woah... Super slow jog sia... I tot I'ld be going for like 4 rounds and was stalling the energy for it but its gettin' late so I stopped aft 2 rounds... making my timing really HORRIGIBLE. Disappointing... But I still wanna thank Kenny, YS and CH for e gr8 evening. Or else I'ld be at home watching some god-knows-what TV shows. Its feels gd to be outta e hse smtimes. Wahahaz... dun ask me why. I jus feel that way.

And yeah... I've changed my blogskin again cos the Calvin and Hobbes one too simple and design's too freaking. Life rawks and its getting better every single second! Thanks guys for e chill out I had. And I won't forget the free drinks we've got frm the vending machine! Wahahhaz! Gotta blast... Bye!

Thursday, January 20, 2005 | 10:58 PM

*Life simply RAWKS!*

Oh my gawd! Thank god its a holiday tmr! I need the break... I was so tired when I reached home today... Had Bio lecture and tutorial. Mrs Gay completed the part on Water. But I sat in class as blur as ever. I'm really very reliant on Teacher's notes lor. Sianz. Maybe its time for me to be indepenent. Anywae, during Math tutorial, our teacher left the class at e end of the first period. He just stepped out and nobody stopped him. Wahahha! I suppose we are all tired lahz... Nobody seems to concentrate during lesson. I was just copying Math assignment. When he left, Daryl and other peeps took out poker cards and started eir games. I can't join cos the Math rep wants my homwork in so I have to copy copy copy... SIANZ! I almost slept during MT lesson. Wahz... So bored and e passage we were suppose to do so damn tough. I only got 3/10. But hahaz... Mst ppl get less than 5 so I do feel a lot better... *Grins*

Right now I fear for my Os sia.. when results come out I wonder if I'm gd enough to stay in tpjc science... had a gd chat with lots of peeps just now... Namely: Aloysius, Jin Rong, Daryl, Daphne, Jie Ying, Alfred, Crystal, Kenny and Yao Sheng. Woah! U ppl rox man! I chat w/ u ppl frm 6+ all the way till 12am now. So super ON man. Wad kind of treatment is this... Scary sia... I have my bum placed on the chair for so long and my bladder is abt to burst soon... Gr8 heavens tmr is holiday or else I feel I'll be late for sch liaoz.

BTW I was almost late today BUT I'M NOT LATE. So a few claps for me pls? I know la... I live in Pasir Ris then go TPJC so near only... nt like Jin Rong in Hougang still can arrive earlier than me and NV late before. *Thumbs up!* I'm impressed! How you ppl wake up frm bed? Mornings I feel the bed acting like a suction pulling me back onto cosiness and dreamland! So TIRED... Was suppose to do some running today as I wanted to meet Crystal but SHE! Cannot make it.

So I'll just have to slack along this weekend le lorz... But its a loooong weekend so ^5 to everyone! Enjoy this holiday ar.. cos it doesn't come often... of cos those having holidays cos nt in JC or CI or work... ur holidays are still rolling on so u ppl not counted! Hahaz.. jus kidding! JC life rox and my life rox! Love all the peeps ard me and I'll nv forget tt u are e ones tt make my day! Woooolala!

Wednesday, January 19, 2005 | 11:22 PM

CRAMPSsssss!

Had PE today. Ran 6 rounds frm lanes 1 to 6. For e first time in my history I didn't stop running to catch my breath. I went thru the 2.4km run in one shot. Yeah.. this one shot is very slow. But I think I'm still within first 10 to arrive... Tt's nt gd but nt entirely bad also considering the fact tt my legs haven't done much since August 2004. Plus my 'lovely' cramps last night which destroyed my sleep. Geez!

Had Math tutorials but I'm super blur during tutorials so I sat there like some fool. Then had only ard 20mins break b4 Math lecture. 'Cher did some 'intro' on e topic. I was abt to sleep by then. Then MT followed and this time... I SLEPT. 2 periods! I wonder how I'm going to survive... GP was ok. BUt I;m disappointed w/ my 'speech' when I spoke to e GP grp. I sledom stammer in front of e public when I speak... Strange, I guess I hv nt been doing so fr ages and this is the result... During Chem I'm even more blur. I don't know titration well enough so when they doing the stoichiometric calc, I just sat there and copy Alfred's work. I feel so bad to know so lil' on MOLE... All thanks to Ms C-O-C-O-N-U-T frm PRCS who 'helped' me erase all my mole concept when she didn't touch it b4 our Os. Grrr...

Had seasports. Was quite fun when I did the canoeing... UNTIL! I got a freaking cramp at my first toe... F*** it... I was practically freaked out so I didn't cont'd w/ any other activities. =[ Awww... When it all ended I guess its like 6.30 and when I reaced home its ard 8.40pm. So sianz... Then I bathe had dinner and cleared my bag. So chat a bit.. blogged a bit. Nv do any homework... SO SO Slack sia... tmr will be last day of sch at least for this week... *PHEW*

BTW I was late today (AGAIN)... When will I be on time again...? *Sigh*... I gtg now... TIRED lahz... Nt in any mood to type.. Gd night!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005 | 10:26 PM

Happy or SAD? I would say PISSED with myself...

Hey nv blog yesterday. I've got lots to say. Firstly ytd Bio tutorials took place. I got the Bio lecturer as our tutorial teacher. She's a really nice teacher! (Mrs. Lim, if you're reading this, dun be jealous... Lolz!) Mrs Gay (yes its spelt liddat) spent a whole 35 mins trying to get our names and she got almost all of our names! Except Chinese names la. Can't blame her cos even I find Chinese names hard to remember!

Oh yeah also had GP ytd. I'm really backdated and outdated. I don't know so much stuff. For e.g. Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston falling out cos he wants a family but she wants to estab on her career. I'll hv to say I'm nt reading those hollywood gossips.

Had Chem practical. Did titration... I feel so outta place ytd! All thanks to MRS G.Low! Back in PRCS... she didn't teach us titration... wad de! Not blaming her, jus frustrated to nt know anything abt Titration. Cos other sch even tho they combi sci like me they know how to carry out titration... UNLIKE ME... Awww...

Had MT today. Only did self-intro and when I said I frm Choir I guess I get the stares... And tt's e reason I'm nt joining Choir! Cos I'm aware of the impression when I say I'm from Choir.. and I DO MIND! BTW I went for Choir jus to accompany Pillai and I strongly discouraged him frm joining Choir. The decision is his tho.

Had a gd chat w/ OGL 'LX and Der' (Alexander)... so here I am... typing on ma blog. I didn't do my tutorials and I slept thru mst of my tutorials today which explains my blog heading for this entry... I'm so lazy now... I haven't even touched 'WATER' when she has already sort of ended the chapter and gonna start on e nxt chapter. *Geez!*

Gonna hv seasports tmr! I think we having kayaking... tmr BZ day for me... FULL packed day... exactly opposite of Aloy's slack timetable! Awww... I'm soooo pissed w/ myself.

P.s. I'm gonna change my specs (asap) COS I LOOK LIKE S*** in the current one... and U can call me snow white right now... COS I'm like e fairest of 'em all... (YUCKS) I'll make sure I turn brown tmr during Seasports! Hahaz! Ciao!

Sunday, January 16, 2005 | 10:07 PM

ME=Perfect empitome of IRONY!
I'm always liddat. Contradicting myself... Jus went to Crystal's blog. She sounded really dwn so I tagged to do some comforting. But I just realised tt I'm also facing e same problem~ In a state of loss... missing friends and really losing all my confidence! Dunno wad to do abt it... Think I'll jus take a step at a time...? *sigh*

Went to my Tiong Li's place to do some Math cos I totally SUX in Math... since I dropped Add Math in sec 4. I think I'm gettin' crazy! I was talking to Tiong Li abt the new radio station; Lush 99.5 and I was asking wad kinda songs they play. And guess what... I asked him, ' English songs or Math?' I was like... '!!!' I can't believe tt came out of my mouth! HAHAHA! Went to WS to return some bks and bind some stuff... Sianz! Sunday's very dead today!

Then watched soccer and some lame drama show. So glad for S'pore! We won the Tiger Cup... (or is it?) I only know we won today's match... erm shld be the finals ba?! I guess so... HAHAZ... Now I'm left w/ Chem wkst to do... Heard its tough frm Sarah and heard its ok frm Tiong Tiong.... ARGH! SO NOT INTO THE CHEMISRTY MOOD since it calculations!

Geez! Tmr sch will resume... w/ a long dragging day as full timetable will be issued w/ tutorials... MY GAWD! YUCKS! I tot 1st 3 mths suppose to ENJOY!? How come our batch so super KIASU one!!! I saw pple with SAT bk lor... very stressed to see pple so KS... Oh yeah... Somtimes I also wonder if I shld be mediocre me or spark smth out of myself (which I doubt so cos even if u ignite me I won't glow) =] Really gotta rush for Chem hmwk... See ya soon!

Saturday, January 15, 2005 | 11:39 PM

I wanna be a doc!
Forgeot to mention that I saw Nicole and Davidson yesterday on my way back from the BBQ. Thanks to Sarah's Dad who gave me a lift to somewhere near my place. Was happy to see Nicole... she's not herself... Hahaz... Way more prettier now. But she's taken already so too bad... Lolz, kidding la... She was telling me how stressful its gonna be in JC and how diploma students can get better jobs than graduates with gd degrees... Oh Nicole, you still don't know what I always wnated to be? I aspire to become a doctor... If I land up in poly... I can kiss my ass goodbye to being a doctor... Do u understand? (I feel like an ass typing Qns to myself) Hahaz!

Oh yeah.. I still don't know what CCA to join... I'm neither here nor there... so I feel very out of place. Asked Chiam to help me ask BUT!!!! UNitl now she haven't given me a definite reply! So I don't know if I shld proceed w/ my 'quest' in search of another CCA. Quick leh Chiam Chaim... Ur intel processing Penitum One is it... =]
Wah... find myself super slack from 1st day of sch till now... Everytime free period I jus go play badminton or jus laze ard in the hall/canteen... Didn't even touch my notes or homework! This is sooooo not-me. If my sec sch mates hear of this they'll surely laugh till their ass split... My god! Even my language upgrade already... so vulgar! Must be the ZEST in TPJC la! Kidding la!
So bored its Saturday and I'm in NO MOOD to complete any homework... I've got loads to read up but I'm just toooooooo lazy!!! Crystal was chatting w/ me and she said she miss PRCS a lot esp her peeps in her class last time. I'm not surprised cos I feel the same! We were so well cushioned in e sch tt we jus couln't take any wind outside e sch... So now we're out all by oursleves.. we feel that a large part of us is missing... But I guess we just have to make more new friends here at TPJC so we won't feel so lonely here.
Anyway those who know me know tt I'm NEVER a soccer freak.. In fact during the last world cup I was muugin' when pple were shouting 'GOAL'! But tmr will be Singapore's final (or is it?) against Indonesia.. So I hope we do win.. So tt those pple won't dare to call us 'little red dot' anymore... Well... can't help it but really don't like tt Political leader who called us tt! How dare he... But hey! World Peace is more impt than anything else in the world! (but I still hope S'pre wins!) Hahaz! I'm feeling better thna the past few days! Great... I'm back! And be ready as I kick those bitchy ass standing in my way... Lolz... Trust me, I jus kidding!

| 1:01 AM

Serious Sirius Woooolala!
Jus returned from BBQ at Pasir Ris Park with the Sirius family! Matthew, Kozaw and Kenny kena free water 'shower'. Hahaha! Wah... everyone having good time there! Although some like not very happy because they're alone kinda thing... Oh tt's really sad cos I have the ALONE feeling before and it just tear up a person's mood easily. Phew! Luckily I had Crystal to accompany me sia... Or else I reach there like a sotong, blur blur de...
Wah... Crystal and Jeffery had great time running around hor... Then the music came on and most of the pple moved to the beat kinda thing... I didn't eat anything except Marshmallows b'cos I'm 'vege boi'! And Ko Zaw did a gr8 job in welcoming me by calling me that...Keke... Hey! Not that I don't like that, ok? I enjoy it... Hahaha... Its for recognition purpose... Who can forget me?! Yeah... My name is always mistaken for Jack or John. Man... Does David sound like Jack!? =] Jk jk!
Really had so much fun! LURVE THE SIRIUS FAMILY!!! Keep the Sirius spirit burning... I say u say I say wuh-arh-arh-arh! Wu-arh-arh-arh! We went to da playgrd, messed with the large round spinning thingy... Slippers flying and screaming... CHANGE DIRECTION la... Slow dwn la... GET IN la... hahaz!
Then we sat on the rocks facing the sea... enjoying the night breeze and watching STARS!!! THERE WERE SO MANY STARS THAT NIGHT! Maybe I've been too busy for the past few years or is it?! But everyone agreeed that there are way more stars than usual... And right now as I'm typing.. I guess the OGLs mus' be having a good time! They staying overnight sia... Never call us OGMs along de... =[ Hahahz! Kidding lahz! We OGMs had already intruded into last Friday's supper which was initially for the OGLs only... I guess its only fair that they have their private time together now... Keke...
Had a great evening with all Sirius peeps! Enjoy yourselves in TPJC and keep our spirit rocking! CiaoZ!

Thursday, January 13, 2005 | 11:31 PM

Man! I wish I'm DEAD!
Its not true... But when you have too many things NOT going ur way and they are all against ur will, you will jus feel like dying!
I don't know abt myself... I feel like kiiling myself... Hanging myself or wadeva... I'm feeling so dwn.. so dead... Why must my life be like this?! Sometimes I really with the saying, 'Money makes the world go round!'.
I really can't take it... NO money no looks.. Like what they said abt themselves... but sorry... I've got another 'NO' here... and its no brains... Feel like hanging myself.
This is not depression... this is plainly the start of the path to suicdal... Yikes! BBQ is tmr... I wonder if I'll come back with more zest... Esp my hair which looks like its a bird nest right now... Sigh.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 | 10:48 PM

I can't shake away my shyness...
Sianz... Friday is BBQ... I like it! But its just that I'm super-shy... Even my OGLs know it... Wah.. so PAI SEH! I think its got to do with self-esteem.. and the reason I don't have it is b'cos I feel inferior to those who have the good looks... Sometimes just feel like burning up my face (but that will only make look worse!)
Anyway, I wanna thank Aloysius and KoZaw tt day for calling out my name when I searching for the drink stall! But still its very nice of u to call me jus to say 'HI'. I'm super touched! Well, u know what... My shy character always create a mental barrier btwn me and the pple ard me. So I'm glad tt they do the ice breaking job and not me.. Cos I feel like snow storm.. always very icy... I really hope to shake myself away frm this kind of shyness.. or else I'll never be able to socialise for my lifetime... Sigh!
And I really hate my looks! I don't habe those u know... striking looks that give good first impression... That will make sure pple will remember tt kind of thing... Too bad... I'm disappointed with myself... Genes fault at birth! AND I HATE MY DAMN BLOOFY STUPID HAIR!!! WHY CAN"T I HAVE STRAIGHT HAIR!!! I HATE WAVY HAIR!!! Geez! SO difficult to style the whole mess.. I felt that they are more like wigs! Sigh... Peeps! HELP ME!!! I feel terrible trrible terrible!!! Ciao!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 | 11:17 PM

OGL Aloysius with his coah... Yeah... looks innocent but well u know... Soccer dude. Jumps with Hong Peng during Cheers. Lolz!

| 10:58 PM

OGL Matthew... Papa of Sirius.. soccer dude 

| 10:40 PM

OGL Hong Peng... Soccer dude... Likes to jump with Aloysius during cheering...Lolz! 

| 10:39 PM

OGL Chi Kwan... Tennis Player... 

| 10:36 PM

OGL Chiam... but tt's her when she's in sec. sch I suppose...
 

| 10:30 PM

KoZaw... the one with all the 'last time' jokes! 

| 10:29 PM

OGLs when we're having supper at Bedok 

| 10:20 PM

The OGLs acting cute 

| 10:16 PM

Sirius ROX! 

| 7:45 PM

DEPRESSED...
I'm really in for depression! So sianz. Just returned frm sch. Don't know why but I stood in the showers for 10 mins in complete blank mind. Erm, not totally blank but jus some lil' tots running thru my mind. Even till now, I'm like super quiet... My family was like... Wah... u never speak frm the moment u reached home until now lehz... Something's up in sch. I shrugged cos I really don't know why I'm so gloomy. Maybe its insufficient sleep? Wadeva.
Anyway, had Tennis game today. I didn't really play much. I played like -.-lll And it wasn't any sort of impressive. Even if I did have some so-so shots, I guess those must be the lucky shots. Cos I know I'm totally sucky at Tennis. I wonder if I shld even turn up for the trials tmr. Well, if I'm playing like a fool then I might as well not go cos I'll know the outcome le... And heard that many pple who went for the first trial was nt picked even if they had Tennis experience. Sianz... Guess I'll just have to slap myself together and forget abt joining Tennis le. =(
Didn't have much lessons today. Just Civics and Bio. and I'm not paying attention at all. What adds to my depression is that when I started to do the Math ws... I really feel like tearing up the whole paper! I mean I'm so confused... I don't know 70% of the questions... OMG... Sometimes I wonder if I shld change my career path.
But right now, I feel really lousy... And my biggest fear struck me today. That is, being unable to socialise when I'm with a crowd of pple. Erm, so its like I'm pretty lonely when Pillai, Yun Fang, Adeline, James, Mastura and Ranjani all left me in the Tennis court. I stood there like some fool.... =( And I hate that feeling... IT JUST TORE ME APART. I'm very sick up in my head now. Don't know what to do. Wadeva... wadeva... wadeva...

Monday, January 10, 2005 | 10:52 PM

First day of lessons...
Woah... l almost died-ed. Super tired lorz... Fell asleep on my way back on the bus... YIKES!!! I hate it... cos I don't know what my face looks like when I sleep... perhaps like a zombie? Anyway its ok... cos 'm all all along not so the good-looking... its okay lor. I'm always pessimistic when it comes to my looks lor... cos I know tt I sux... Geez!
Anyway.. My mom discharged frm hospital on Saturday... wah she still look so frail de... mus be the hospital food... Sianz...
Today's lessons quite boring except GP when the ang moh like so desperate to get our attention and started to schout all over... Quite fun.. the Ignorance test shows how much I 'know'... wad the... communism symbol I also dunno! Then Biology lesson the teacher just do her talking and analogy talk abt fishing and man and lifetime thingy... some intro talk.. nt much abt chapter on water yet... Then during Math I was like super blur. Cos I only took Add math in sec 3.. and then drop in sec 4... so I was damn slow when the teacher explained.. I feel like I pentium -2 when pple are Pentium 5 liaoz...
Ai ya... then got homework but then slack like shit so nv do. Tmr my timetable very slack. Only one lesson whoel day and tt's Bio. Ok... Analogy talks again? Oh yeah was having 'conference' opened by someone frm Sirius. Woah now like 1+ lor... I intended to blog at 9.00pm but now see la...All thanks to how 'fast' I type... Lol!
And yeah, promised Claudine to include her name... Yeah its here now... Hope she's not mad at me already cos' I said smth trivial? Don't know la... She's gonna teach us tennis... I'll handle her once I learned how to play... Haha... Sorry I'm just joking!
Wah... tmr they want to go Bugis to book BBQ pit for Fiday's BBQ party. Then I think I have to esc the sch gates at 10+ lehz.. I know its not right... But still no more lessons aft 10 mahz... so nvm la... Keke... Still got tennis at 4 plus... Dunno lahz.. so sianz... Also dunnno which Bio bk to settle on.. I'm so tired and confused. Sigh, anything esle I tmr type la... I think this entry got lotsa typo cos I half asleep le.. gd nitez! Ciao!

Saturday, January 08, 2005 | 1:50 AM

Nuovo Inizio!
Wah... the orientation has sadly come to an official end le! So sad sia! Just when the Sirius family starts getting closer to each other then we are seperated again! Haiz! Fortunately some of us have same combination so we'll still see each other during lectures!
External report: Yeah!!! So happy that I got into the course I chose! Yes, that's Bio. and Chem.! I think its same as OGL Aloysius... Sigh, I not that smart to take 4As la so stick to three.
So everyone's like need to start all over again to know more pple... I mean its like we all gonna become as quiet as 1st day of orientation! Then there'll be no more bombing... no more 'chi ge la ka pi ya pi ya'... no more 'I say u say I say wuh ah-ah-ah, wuh ah-ah-ah'... no more 'vega sega yoga baga'... no more 'they are they are they are they, they are they, they are they, THEY ARE... THEY ARE... LAME!!!'... no more 'F-F-I-I-G-H-T, S-S-C-C-O-R-E'... no more '3 dimensional lame'... sigh! Feel terribly lost! Felt like a large part of me is lost and it's like nv gonna return to me... No more addressed as OG8 or Sirius8 and no more OGLs around to help us out! But they're still here @ TPJC!!! Woooooooolala!
The best thing abt our OGLs are not just they're funky, like to jump together (esp Hong Peng and Aloy...), always at smiles or tellin' jokes its that they always come on the next day and ask,'So how's yesterday? Was it good after we left?' And its this that strongly STRONGLY bonded us OGMs and OGLs together! (I know its very touching... dun cry dun cry...lol!) And its now that I totally agree that TPJC's got really super slacking and pon teng pple... Lol... but who cares?! Cos' its always the students that create the ZEST of our JC.
From the way our orientation ite ended, you'll know hoe ZUPER enthu everyone we are! Now's like abt 1.30am liddat lor... jus reached home 10mins ago... The OG nite started at 6.00pm liddat.. with a bonfire prepared by the ODAC. thenwe saw all the FANTASTIC performance by diff OG families... Siriusly, only the Procycon is in any position to compare their performance with ours. Ours' like rawks all the way frm heaven to hell!!! Its the best even tho we didn't win the award as the best performers tonioght but we won the best in games!!! YEAH! That means we must have been real good at it esp WET games... HAHA! I practically screamed and bombed all water bombs all the directions I can... And I agree with Matthew that we shld be the one sweeping away all the awards but can't let other families feel left out so jus' had to let them get the award lorx... Deep within us we know that Sirius ROX! ROX! ROX! I say Sirius, u say rox! Sirius... ROX! Sirius... ROX!
Then before the OG nite ended we had the dance floor w/ all LIGHTS OUT! Shake ur ass or boobs... nobody give a damn. Everyone just jumped, shook and screamed! Then came a fresh unprepared cheer... lol... 'Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday...Sunday, etc.' When the music stopped, everyone's like... "we want music, we want music..."
Eventually it ended and a grp of ard 30+ pple made our way to Bedok for supper... ITS SUPER! On the bus, we took up more than 1/2 of the spaces and really wreaked havoc in there! When we arrived I think everyone there's like WTH... so many pple suddenly! We sat dwn, ordered prata, Milo dino/Ice and some other stuff... chat la, take some photos la... then had to leave when its ard 12.30am... The taxi came and then we were like hey you go first la... u go first. haha! Cos' we all standing tog waitin' for the Taxi and none of us bear to leave the rest of 'em.... We got into a taxi (Jing Fang, Janice, Yi Hao and me) Then reached Pasir Ris and all of us alighted... now almost 2am lo!
THIS IS WAY TOO COOL! All my OGLs got e idol looks sia... (still say no looks). We gave them cards w/ our msgs, well wishes and signatures... Hope they'll like it! The drawing really resemble them... who drew it? SO cute leh e cartoon! I LOVE TPJC! Aloysius, Matthew, Hong Peng, Chiam, Chi Kwan and many many others... U pple ROX Sirius and all our lives! Thanks so much! Ciao!
P.s. If I offended any of you, pls let me know. Thanks!

Thursday, January 06, 2005 | 11:21 PM

Aloysius, Hong Peng, Kozaw and Matthew... You OGLs ROX!
Yeah... So cool yeah u pple...
Anyway...
Aloy: Can see that u're after a girl... haha... ran so fast in ur 4km that day! (accordin' to ur blog) Interesting. But normal. Wah... go after that 'HER' and woo her wor... (what kind of a junior I am...lol!) Gd luck! (in both ur A levels and ur gal) 3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for Aloy!
Kozaw: Yeah... quite sad ar... cos u're frm Myanmar so when u leave S'pore one day, its gonna make us all weep! and yeah... u've got a gal that u're after too huh... Gd luck man! And also thanks for all da' 'clean' jokes u said in our Orientation... haha... I suppose it bonded e whole OG8 together!
Hong Peng: Geeee... I always say ur hair is hot... as in the hair on e head (NOT ANYWHERE ELSE) Lol! Yeah... I wanted e hairstyle ever since I saw it... The thing is I don't have str8 hair... sort of wavy... yeah maybe I can get tt kinda cut soon... Haha... wonder if it looks nice on me?! And yeah.. did I ever tell u tt u look like Holland V's actor where this dude played the role called Richard... U look just like him... maybe u can be an actor in future...?
Matthew: Papa of Sirius as called by the OGMs. Haha... funny guy... I've a gal friend who finds u cute... So this is CUTE papa here then. Lol! The most un-shy of all and e loudest cheering frm you... and I think u're one of e first few who lost their voices arh? Haha!

Overall... THANKS MAN! All OGLs rulez/rox!!! I LOVE TPJC and u guys gave me the feeling of HOME here. I vow to stay in TPJC as long as I can make it here! Yeah! Tt's how much I luv this JC! Wooolala! Ciao!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005 | 10:02 PM

ORIENTATION!!! TPJC ROX!!!

Sirius bomb Sirius bomb... Sirius bomb to Vega bomb!

TPJC ROX!!! Wooooooooooo! Yeah!

The Orientation for the first 3 days were zuper duper hot! HOT!!! Esp today where we had our wet games!!! Wooooolala! Got hell of a good tan thanks to the exposure to the sun! I LOVE IT!!! kena water bombed today! Rolled in mud! Shiok! I love the TPJC mass dance! LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!

"The time is right to show our might, TPJC will do all right!"

The Usher's song is so HOT!!! Love all the dance! Dry games are hot too!!! I don't care if Sirius didn't win... its the team SPIRIT!!! LOVE IT SO HELL MUCH!!! Had to strip today... Wooooooooolala... keke, have not swimmed for like 6 years...? But everyone (e guys) were w/o clothes so its strange to be with clothes... in the end I had to take it out... TAKE OUT TAKE OUT TAKE OUT! LOL! So hot in the sun but once the water came flying in the air and hit our bods and the wind blew hard at us... u can hear the teeth chattering... Haha! Got all drenched when we had to get ourselves ALL TOTALLY WET! Wore the wet clothes with the wind on at us! WOAH! Brrrr... so cold.... but again its so 'HOT'!

Guess I gonna miss the OGLs... I don't know them... but I roughly describe... our 'Mr Myanmar' (Ko Zaw)... 'Ah Loy' (Aloysius)... then the cool dude which I didn't know the name (Hong Peng) but think he looks like the mediacorp actor which acted in Holland V as Richard... then got this guy whose very 'ON' (Matthew) he's the one who keeps shouting and cheering e loudest!!! Erm... very hard to describe ar, then there's a girl called 'Jiam'!? She also very the 'ON' one... pity her la... altho OGL but always kena bullied by other OGLs. Keke... Heard she's with Ko Zaw? (apologies! They are NOT together accordin to himself)

Then we had the cheer 'Thunder thunder thunderation, We the Sirius deligation, When we fight w/ determination, We create a sensation!' Tada! I'm like super grateful to them for creating all the fun and making up for us when we lost in games. They are sure to be the ones that ROX!!! WEOH!

And also thanks to the dirty jokes... so far we heard 5 or 6 I think... and the girl called Sarah in our OG8 is so cool w/ e joke on the 'BIRD'. Lol! I'll remember that! Then we played the number guessing game where the person who hit the no. will be asked damn 'IN' questions such as 'Who of the opposite sex will u choose for ur future partner in our OG' and 'Who wld u want to see naked?' and 'who do u want to spend the night with?'

Yeah... saw soooooooo many diff sch there such as TKGS, VS, Coral, Raffles I., Cheung Cheng, Chinese High, Dunman H., Bedok Green/View/Twn. Woah.... a lot more! At least 30 schs! We make up one big family! We may be in diff OGs but we are one big family... TPJCsians! Aim and Achieve! Passion for learning and a zest for life! Wooooooooolala!

Here, I wanna thank the J2 students for putting up with our silence in the beginning and also our mischeviousness towards the end! Gd luck for ur A levels and keep the zest in TPJC flowing/running/rocking/rolling! Love u guys soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn it much! 3 cheers 3 cheers 3 cheers for the OGLs! Hip hip, hooray! Hip hip, hooray! Hip hip, hooray!

Saturday, January 01, 2005 | 7:09 PM

Countdown... 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! Welcome 2005!
Oh man! Had a great day at Countdown then at Jas's place BBQ party... Guess what, I just woke up like 2 hours ago! Had a loooooooong party at Jas's hse. At 9.30 I met Pillai and Tiong Li at the bus-stop at dwntwn. We walked to Escape where Cyrstal, Justin, Joel and Ahmad are waiting for us. We were like HI! HI!! here and there. Keke... Then we waited for Rebecca at the bus-stop and she arrived like in 3 mins? Think so. Erm, I think we went to the beach but on our way there, Pillai's sandals broke dwn and he had to get a new pair and Tiong Li needs to get his keys frm his mom so me, Pillai and him took a detour out of e park to get the shoes and the keys. When we got back to the rest they were already at the beach and it also started to drizzle. :(

At the park entrance Sheena arrived and Pillai was like OMG! Tin Sotong! and hugged her. Erm its a really touching scene... can win Oscar award... keke... Then we went back to dwntwn and waited for the countdown to start... 'Dong Li Huo Che' was there but all of us complained that they sang like the seventh month festival but except on a larger scale... cos' all races celebrating! Haha! I think it must be the lousy audio speakers that caused it. Then before the countdwn even strated, everybody was like screaming and spraying the party spray thingy. All thanks to e fasle alarm which was suppose to tell everyone that the countdwn is starting.

Then... 10, 9 ,8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! Woah! 2005! The poppers go *POP* and the spraying started. Poor Crystal was sprayed all over her hair and bag. Keke... A really funny scene! Then we saw Hong Yi, Alex Ang, Leying, Daniel Pang and Wenze. Shook hands and Happy New Year Year blah blah... Then we took a bus to Jas's hse.

It took some time b4 the bus came. When we reached there Hui Ying, Chai Yun and her sis, Xing Qi, Adeline, Pei Shan, Janice and OKE is already there. Hui Ping came later and the BBQ were all setup befroe we arrived. I only ate bread, some creamy pudding kind of thing and marshmallows since I'm vegetarian. Played cards... but no gambling... and Joel kept asking for alcoholic drinks liek he's desperate for one.... keke! We stayed until 5.30 before we dragged our tired bodies out to get a bus. Initailly we wanted to see the sunrise at the beach but too bad everyone was too tired and the 1st bus came at 6+ so we didn't go. Crystal gave me tis snoopy toy thingy. Haha... I'm not into toys but I like snoopy so I took it since its free! *wink* Lol!

Reached home and jumped into bed and slept until 5pm brfoe I strated to hear rumbling coming frm my stomach!!! Keke... All parties have to end eventually but this is the best part I attended! Don't know when we'll see each other again but love everyone around me and may god bless a wonderful 2005 ahead of us! Goodbye!