Monday, June 06, 2005 | 1:32 AM

A bulletin frm Friendster.. Damn touching..

my mom only had one eye.
i hated her... she was such an embarressment..
my mom ran a small shop at a fleamarket.
she collected little weeds and such to sell...
anything for the money we needed
she was such an embarressment.
there was this one day during elementary
school..it was field day, and my mom came.
i was so embarressed. how could she dothis tome? i threw her a hateful look and ran out.
the next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me.
i wished that my mom would just
dissappear from
this world
so i said to my mom,"mom.. why dont you have the othereye?!
if you're only gonna make me a
laughingstock,why dont you just die?!!!"my mom did not respond..
i guess i felt a little bad, but at the sametime, it
felt good to think that i had said what i'dwanted tosay all this time..
maybe it was because my mom hadnt
punishedme,but i didnt think that i had hurt her
feelings very badly.that night...i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get
a glass of water.
my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if
shewas afraid that she might wake me.
i took a look at her, then turned away.
because of the thing i had said to her
earlier, therewas something pinching at me in the
corner of my heart.even so, i hated my mother who was
crying out of her one eye. so i told myself that i would
grow up and become successful.
cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our
desperate poverty..then i studied real hard.
i left my mother and came to Seoul and
studied,and got accepted in the Seoul University
with allthe confidence i had.then, i got married.
i bought a house of my own.then i had kids, too..now i'm living happily as a successful
man.i like it here because it's a place thatdoesntremind me of my mom.this happiness was getting bigger and bigger,when..
what?!who's this?!...it was my mother.....still with her one eye.
it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.
my little girl ran away, scared of my
mom's eye.and i asked her,"who are you?!""i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make
that real. i screamed at her," how dare you come to
my house and scare my daughter!""GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"and to this, my mother quietly answered,"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the
wrong address,"and she dissappeared out of sight.
thank good ness... she doesnt recognizeme..
i was quite relieved.
i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or
think about this for the rest of my life.
then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school
reunion cameto my house. so, lying to my wife that i
was goingon a business trip, i went.
after the reunion, i went down to the oldshack,
that i used to call a house...just out of
curiositythere, i found my mother fallen on the
cold ground.but i did not shed a single tear.
she had a piece of paper in her hand.... itwas a
letter to me.
my son...i think my life has been long enough
now..and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...but would it be too much to ask if i
wanted you to come visit me once in a while?i miss you so much.. and i was so glad
when i heard you were coming for the reunion.
but i decided not to go to the school....for you...
and i'm sorry that i only have one eye,
and i was an embarressment for you.
you see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.
as a mom, i couldntstand watching you having to grow up
with only one eye... so i gave you mine...i was so proud of my son that was seeing
a whole new world for me, in my place, with that
eye. i was never upset at you for anything you did..
the couple times that you were angry with
me,.. ithought to myself, 'it's because he loves me..'my son... oh, my son...i dont want you to cry for me, because of
my death.

Isn't this so sad.