Monday, April 04, 2005 | 12:39 AM

I'm at a loss..

Went to Chua Chu Kang to do e qingming thingy in e aftnoon. Was pouring badly. Then when it stopped.. the sun was scorching hot. Damn stupid. And there's loads of smoke and it almost killed my nose. Was damn bored. Talked to my cousin abt NS. He's in e airforce sch or smth like that. Told me tt I'll love mud when I'm in NS. XD I wonder why. Perhaps it looks like chocolate. I sound like some spastic child. XD

There's nth to blog abt. I'm bored. Well... I'm not bored. I'm more like bothered. Bothered by her. Why.. I jus felt tt she'll NEVER accept me. I know. She doesn't like my type. And she deseerves better options. Gawd~ I think I'm gg crazy. Sighs~ she's stuck in my head. I cant slp. I simply can't. The music keeps playing and she keeps appearing in my head. Don't think she's aware.. but she'll faint if she knows.. XD Nvm.. I'm crappy. CRAPPY. I shld go fr plastic surgery. But the surgeon will mst probably faint. SIGHS~ I hate myself. I feel like slashing across my throat. Ending this. -.- Wadeva... *poof*