Wednesday, March 30, 2005 | 11:42 PM

Sux..

Didn't blog ytd. SUX. Got to know 10 or so new ppl in e class. Still ok I wld say. IN fact I think they're quite cool lahs.. Seemed like nice ppl. Nt tt I dun like Jie Ying and e peeps.. they're nice too yea? =) Had some lectures. Boring. Can't really rmbr what was taught. Was very lazy today. Nt a gd start to a new term yea? Aft sch went library w/ Crystal. Was supposed to slp. But then I'm nt tired and I had smth to think of so I just wrote some nt really impt stuff w/ mp3 blasting where Crystal had to turn dwn e volume. Wewnt turf city fr trg w/ long D trackers and soccer ppl. I came in last. Tt shows my stamina still sux. But hey i must correct smth.. I'm nt really last la.. SOME PPL took a shorter way and tot they ran longer D than me. In e end they reached the finish line earlier than me. And I guess everyone thinks I"m a disgrace to track. Eugene, the keeper asked me.. 'how come u track still so slow de?' I was like '~!!!' Wth... OK lahs.. I failed 2.4km in sec sch and hv nv passed until once where I jus passed on e dot. And I was in Choir fr 4 hell years. And I know my body is nt e cut fr sports then. Sighs~ but I'm lazy to explain everything so I was like oh ok.. u guys run so fast... wow. -.-''' Nt pissed.. just sick of my own stamina. Came in 24mins plus. Nt even e full 5km.. 24 mins is bad. But again.. I hv nt trained since e roadrun which was soooo long ago. Sighs. Then did this stretch of run at an increased speed. Wanted to sprint but know tt I've hardly any energy left plus e fact I slept at 2am e night before. Mr Suherman overtook me la.. I thought I sure win when he I ran past him towards e end but I must thank my stamina again fr slowing me dwn. And I've nt been getting e right nutrients cos I'm choosy when I get my food. Its ok.. at least I'm nt last fr tt. XD On e bus back.. I had many things in my head. I knew smth isn't right.. sighs.. needed music to divert my attention but I suppose Crys needs it more than me at tt time.. so lent her thruout e bus journey back to sch. Went home nv do anything. Was trying me blardy best to fix e fucking com.. but gave up. Cos its nt working. And I couldn't blog lahs.. then slept at 1am..? Think so..

Today was just yet another bad day. Non-stop lectures till I dropped dead. 3 periods of Bio!? ANd we almost finished e chap on proteins which I cant even catch. Was falling aslp during Math cos I dun noe anything abt APGP. Sianz.. Aft last bio lecture went w/ Crystal, Jaja, Eldora, Yen Wei, Adeline and Qi to bubble tea shop. Got 2 waffle, and went back fr track. It was raining. Did some warm-ups by running inside e sch a few times. Then did gym trg fr e 1st time in my entire life. I jus realised how weak my long legs are. Too long but useless... When e rain cleared, did sprints 150mx4. SUX. Was supposed to do 6.. but my legs felt sooooo weak and my legs are already trembling and the pain is jus unbearable. Sighs. WEAKLING ME. And I found out smth interesting.. DAMN INTERESTING. My name wasn't submitted into e competitions fr 100m this Saturday. OMG. The captain rawks. She actually didn't submit my name. Great. But I shall turn up this Sat. to support the sprinters. I've learnt to be less nasty. Mayb e track jus feels tt I'm nt 'gd enuff' to rep sch yea~? But seriously I dun think I'm tt lousy. XD so BHB. Aft track. Iw as thinking abt which CCA to change to. Cos suddenly.. I dun feel like staying in track. THIS... u must thank some b**** and some b****** who are such arses.. they shld know who they are. Spoiling e whole team. Thinking they're e best trackers. PLS.. u're nt. And thnks.. I'm nt in e competition. THNAKS. -.- Finally decided tt I'll join 2 CCAs. Squash and track. Yea~ mayb some arses always think they're perfect and stuff.. but yea~ its ok. I'm nt gg to let this affect me. Oh yea~ my keyword.. 'passion' =) Saw Ruyun and Farah when I was at central. Also saw some familiar faces frm my primary sch in tpj now. Cool~ but they dun recognise me. DUH~ I looked like a freak. And I look freakier now. XD Hmm.. lazy to type.. loads of things I wanna pour out but some things are nt worth thinking. Alhto they cant be forced out of mind. Sighs~ cya. *poof*