Monday, March 07, 2005 | 10:06 PM

Monday Blues

Actually today's nt really tt bad until smth happened. Woke up pretty early in e morning but still missed e bus which I'm suppose to take. Sighs~ Had GP which I'm proud to say I didn't skip. Then followed by 2 periods of Math lecture. I was nt paying attention la.. I was copying e wapsites I hv on my HP. Talk abt HP... *rolls eyes* Then there's suppose to be Chem tutorial but I skipped it and attended e Econs lecture instead. Its e first time I attend Econs la.. but I understood all e term. Altho I heard tt its jus e basics. Seriously I'm going to drop Math.. no future no future lo... I can't be bothered already. My parents dun even know wtf is going ard me. If its possible I'll get oversaeas and study there. I know there's loads of things in S'pore tt I can't let go but I'll have to and settle somewhere else. I wanna be away alone. -.- The lecturer told me he had students who's taking Bio Chem Econs and those who didn't take Add math ar Os couldn't cope well w/ Math C so I'mr eally gg to drop it. I dun see a reason I shld get an F fr Math if I can try fr at least a B in Econs. Besides I can write non-stop.. like in GP. Skipped Bio lab lessons fr Lunch and jus slacked my time away.. I think nobody noticed la.. I was pushing lots of things out of my mind which I didn't succeed. Mayb when I was out at Old Tampines w/ Crys and TTL I cld still ignore my thots but aft Track tt's it la.. I was alone again and so there goes my brains thinking thinking thinking away... bleah~ I hate my brains.. Always thinking of useless stuff. And my time spent lookin into HP is wasted la... Dad and Mom went off in e evening to get groceries while I sat at home and fell asleep. Was really mad at Dad cos I expected to get rid of my e700 by today. Its ok la.. I'm gg to show him e attitude. It always work. I jus don't talk to him and dun smile and jus stick to myself in e bedroom. He'll feel guilty.. I'm gg to make sure he does.. Yea~Childish la.. but I'm beginning to think I'm some pampered freak.. -.- Sighs~ On thing I'm hapy abt myself today is tt I made it thru e track trg despite my unbearable pain in my thighs. Hurts like shit la. During 1st few of e 6x100m sprints I cld still make it to 2nd la.. but l8r I felt as tho my legs are nt there.. Its damn white pain.. I dunno why white but it sure hurts. Even Genever beat me once in one of e last sprints. There's seasports and soccer pple there lo.. so imagine how embarrasing it is.. Aft trg they went fr bubble tea which I didn't go cos 1stly I had e bad exp e last Friday where my heart felt as tho its being clenched aft I gilped dwn a cup and 2ndly I wanted to get home early to go gete k700i w/ Dad which was apparently FRUITLESS... nvm.. like I said, I'm going to make him guilty man.. *grins* Gotta plan how to make him feel bad now.. cya!

*poof*