Sunday, February 20, 2005 | 9:50 AM

Its time I give up...

Somethings in life are there some are not. -.- Decided already. Be it results or *her or wadeva. If I can't stay in TPJC then let it be. I know I'll miss all e pple I got to know here but sometimes I wonder what am I doing at TPJC... Maybe all my peers were right. Its time I give a thought to myself and consider the poly route. Maybe I shld change my career path. I shouldn't stress myself so much. I should just END it. Give it up... give it ALL up. In a few days the results will be out. Reflecting on e fact that I screwed up Chem paper 2 I seriously dun wanna get my results. But like I said somethings in life are there some are not. I'm not going to appeal or what shit in order to stay IF I do badly. Pillai's right.. if my aggregate not there means I'm not of the right calibre. Anyway I've learnt lots here in TPJC such as being more independent and less ego and being a nobody is not easy blah blah... Shit me la... why do I sound like I'm leaving like that... -.- But wadeva it is, leaving or not... I still appreciate the many ppl I got to know here. The coming week is International Friendship week. I have not finished what I was doing. Its friendship week but its such an irony since its also e week our results will be released and some part our own ways aft that. Wth am I typing. Nvm.

Ytd was gr8 until smth corrupted. Went to Kenny's hse gathering and saw peeps like Stef, Zhuo Jie, Cheng Hsuan, Leying, Shu Yi, Su Ming, Yong Ying, Berlinda, Gloria and Kenny (duh). Played Mahjong but we spent mst of e time updating ourselves w/ each other. Leying still don't want to go JC despite her capability... but now I understood why ppl dun wanna go JC. Aft tt they went out fr dinner and then movies. Didn't go cos I've got dinner at home and Jas, Crys and me watching Hide n seek on Tuesday. Yea~ I want the thrill. I want smth tt can make me forget all e stuff in my head now. Btw, I went w/ Pillai to MJ to run. He said he might wanna go MJ which I did try to stop him. But again I wonder why am I stopping him... -.- Pillai says its turning into a family gathering place. We were thinking tt families might set up picnics soon. XD Anyway I was at ok pace during the run. Considering 2.4km standards.. I'm near the A mark. I think everyone run faster when they're angry. Erm... like me? I suppose its b'ccos I wanna esc frm all e shit I'm having now. Wadeva~ Didn't come online ytd evening. All thanks to my parents. I'm 16 now.. can they don't ctrl my liberty... -.- I dun feel like typing anymore.. in fact I dun feel like going to sch on Monday and fr the rest of e week. Things are stringing up and tangling me all over. Bleah~ Conclusion: I'll give up wadeva that shld be given up. -.-