Friday, February 11, 2005 | 11:00 PM

Gr8 day. Love it.

Okay... Like I said in my last last last last (dunnno how many X) entry... I wld stop slacking aft CNY right? Hahax... I'm lying. I seriously dunno when I'm going to un-slack. And guess wad... I still dunno. =p Life rox fr e 1st 3 mths la... I noe aft tt it'll not be as lively and I might wake up every morning dragging my 1/2 dead body to sch. But who cares.

Am I far sighted? Or others say I think too much... I think so too. Sometimes I wonder what will happen to my circle of friends and myself aft we all graduate frm sch and become working adults. Oh shit lor. I dun wanna think abt it.

Valentine's really coming... but I sort of give up la.. cos I'm nt her standard. She's too gd fr me. And I'll be such a thick-skin to actually ask her. And ppl wld ask me if I've got any sense in my mind or not. Erm.. tt's like so expected. Some things in life are very unfair. And nt all things go our way. The challenge is to see how we take it and manipulate it. But right now, I've failed this challenge.

The feeling of being inferior runs thru my mind up and dwn. And again... the 'nobody' feeling is back. Nt like when I was a 'big-shot' in sec sch.. at least in 4/10... *sighs* I'm nt used to having no status.. being nt-known. Or shld I put it as being nt-as popular. Its gt to do w/ ego I think. Mayb PRCS hv spoilt me into having too much ego which is why I screwed my chem Os. >.<>

PAE is coming to an end. I don't seem to fully enjoy e liberty. Some peeps will leave TPJC fr better or worse I hv no idea. I fear my Os results. I dun wanna get it. I noe mst ppl do better than their Prelims but I fear tt it won't apply to me. *cross-fingers* I get e jitters. Its worse than having to run 10km... really~. How am I suppose to cope if I leave TPJC? Its so much like my 2nd home. And all e ppl here are jus like my bro and sis. The family here has bonded me and I won't want to leave. I dun want to leave!!! I wonder if other TPJCians hv e same feeling... somehow I feel tt the Orientation is so successful this yr tt mst ppl even w/ gd results will want to stay here. (cos it simply rox) =]

On a lighter note... today we had 2 tut of Chem. Ms Loh is doing her nagging at us cos some of us nv turn up on Monday adn nv produce MC. Then she did some stuff which I didn't bother to copy... I was sms-ing away... Then had Chem lecture. Ms Loh again... then we had concert which I had a hard time enjoying as I was seated in e same position fr so long and I fear I get cramps or wadeva. Plus e fact tt I had watched the PCK total defence sooooo many times. I can practically memorise all e words tt Margaret says despite her superb EL slang. Then went to Mac w/ Crystal, Tiong Li and Pillai. Wanted to go catch e movie >> Contantine but changed our mind cos its very exp on a Friday. Instead we went to Xing Qi hse to play Mahjong. I won e mst la. I'm pro.. I admit. XD I won 3 matches out of 6 lor... so its pretty obvious tt I'm gd right? Hahax... I dun need to play much to grasp smth... (ok I'm bragging) =] Then me and Crys went back to our sch and witness e wonderful match btwn TPJC and JJC soccer. We had a draw. 3-3. Nt bad at all considering e fact tt JJC is e former National Champions 2 yrs back... Then I came home lor. Was supposed to visit Aussie cuz since she flying back tmr. But my mom said they all went out fr farewell dinner. (Awww.. why am I always missing out things in my life!?) Nvm... But I guess I'll see her off tmr at e Airport. I hope so. I'm going to miss her so much!!! Aussie's are so cool... altho I heard of how racist they can get at times... but their slang is fantastic! I'm always wowed by the way they speak. =]

Oh yeh... I agree w/ Lx tt tag dead doesn't mean nobody read my blog cos some ppl will stalk my blog... hahax... Oh yeh... Its a gtd feeling. At least I know tt ppl bother to visit my blog. Or else all my entries like I talking to myself... >.<>