Monday, February 28, 2005 | 11:40 PM

End it. END my searing pain...

I want to end my life la... wth is this kinda Os grades. Everyone I know is getting grades so much better than me. Think its jus so bloody foolish of me to slack aft Prelims. Ok.. I admit I'm jus over-confident. Kept thinking I'll be one of the ppl called up fr the 4/5As but instead I got 2 freaking As only. WTH... Its really pressurising.. I don't know how to face CT and 05s09 tmr.. ZI hope they wun press me fr my marks... All of em get ard 9 to 15. OMG.. I really screwed up my Os last yr. Felt like ending my life in e aftnoon... I jus can't take it. Yea~ I held up a brave front and pretend like I'm ok w/ it. Hahax.. I know deep in me.. I'm torn up. This is worse than running 10km. Don't know if I shld consider poly. W/ this kinda grades I think go ITE simei register la. wth... Its been a long time I posted smth liddat. I know I'm starting my pessimistic side again but its nt w/in my ctrl anyway.. PRCS hv done badly. This batch was a total disgrace. We did worse off than e pioneers. But I'm gald I got the A2 for Mrs Lim. Didn't want to let her dwn. And yea~ Mr Collin and Mrs GLow.. thnx! W/o ur help I can't get A1 fr science. I know I've let dwn Mdm Kamisah/Mr Yeo and Ms Salinah... I seriously tot tt I'll get distinctions fr EL and Humans. Sry teachers. I'm really sorry. I've tarnished your reputation and myself. Just forget me. Forget tt David existed. I hate to say this but I know tt mentally, I'm unable to accept it. Erase those memories. I never existed. Sighs~ x.x