Thursday, January 13, 2005 | 11:31 PM

Man! I wish I'm DEAD!
Its not true... But when you have too many things NOT going ur way and they are all against ur will, you will jus feel like dying!
I don't know abt myself... I feel like kiiling myself... Hanging myself or wadeva... I'm feeling so dwn.. so dead... Why must my life be like this?! Sometimes I really with the saying, 'Money makes the world go round!'.
I really can't take it... NO money no looks.. Like what they said abt themselves... but sorry... I've got another 'NO' here... and its no brains... Feel like hanging myself.
This is not depression... this is plainly the start of the path to suicdal... Yikes! BBQ is tmr... I wonder if I'll come back with more zest... Esp my hair which looks like its a bird nest right now... Sigh.