Wednesday, January 12, 2005 | 10:48 PM

I can't shake away my shyness...
Sianz... Friday is BBQ... I like it! But its just that I'm super-shy... Even my OGLs know it... Wah.. so PAI SEH! I think its got to do with self-esteem.. and the reason I don't have it is b'cos I feel inferior to those who have the good looks... Sometimes just feel like burning up my face (but that will only make look worse!)
Anyway, I wanna thank Aloysius and KoZaw tt day for calling out my name when I searching for the drink stall! But still its very nice of u to call me jus to say 'HI'. I'm super touched! Well, u know what... My shy character always create a mental barrier btwn me and the pple ard me. So I'm glad tt they do the ice breaking job and not me.. Cos I feel like snow storm.. always very icy... I really hope to shake myself away frm this kind of shyness.. or else I'll never be able to socialise for my lifetime... Sigh!
And I really hate my looks! I don't habe those u know... striking looks that give good first impression... That will make sure pple will remember tt kind of thing... Too bad... I'm disappointed with myself... Genes fault at birth! AND I HATE MY DAMN BLOOFY STUPID HAIR!!! WHY CAN"T I HAVE STRAIGHT HAIR!!! I HATE WAVY HAIR!!! Geez! SO difficult to style the whole mess.. I felt that they are more like wigs! Sigh... Peeps! HELP ME!!! I feel terrible trrible terrible!!! Ciao!!!